Love.

I'm feeling content and happy! Like for the first time in this semester break wtf.
Yes I know very pathetic. Where got people so sad during holidays wan right?
Well, I'm the one incase you don't know. =___________=

Fast backward to this morning, I went to the bf's house after so long not seeing each other. (Right. Like 2 days. Lol.)
Anyway, today was the first time we test on this cheap date thingy.
Cheap date = bum around at bf's house instead of going to the mall to hang kai.
So yea, I reached his place at almost 12 pm, chatted for while and head to the usual place and had lunch.
He ordered char siew rice and I ordered some Indian food.
Nice but then I don't know why I lost my appetite not long after I started eating my meal.
Okay nevermind about that, I still managed to finish the whole thing minus the rawr egg yoke.
Then, we watched Meet Dave with bf's sisters and laugh all the way.
Board game was the only activity we can do after that, and so me, bf, Jo, three of played Scrabble in bf's room.
You don't need me to tell you that with that 2 siblings' bombastic English, I kalah teruk wtf.
It was all fun though, cause I learnt few new English words. Hohoho.
And, I got free massage.
Nice nice! (Not nice also must say nice, if not next time no more massage. Heh!)

***********

"Hello, Ah Ma (grandma), this week you free or not? Will be you be around?"

"I'm not sure la... Very busy recently. MCA election coming soon, got alot of work have to do. Why?"

"Ohhh... I want to go back tomorrow. But since you not free, then nevermind la..."

"Sorry ya, Miss. (My grandma call me miss at times lol) Ah Ma not free to teman you."

"No need to say sorry la.. What about your next week schedule?"

"Next week also not sure. How long is your holiday?"

"3 weeks, but 1 week past dy. After next week gonna start uni again."

"Aiya, pai seh le Miss. It's not that Ah Ma don't want you to come back, but Ah Ma afraid later got no time to teman you."

"Ah Ma, don't la keep apologize. I wait for next holiday only come back then."

"Tomorrow you going for the prayers right? I see you there okay?"

"Okay."

I was about to hang up the phone when I heard....

"Alice said want to come back tomorrow."

"Then let her come back la."

"But, I afraid later I got all those meetings, no time to cook and teman her."

"Haiya, let her come back only la if she wants to come back. I'll bring her go makan and teman her."

I hang up the phone then when I know grandma wasn't talking to me.
The phone rang again not long after that.

"Hello Alice ah, your Ah Gong asked you to come back only."

"Okay! *excited*"

"Haha. He said I where can don't let you come back. You seldom come back, so Ah Gong will teman you if I'm not at home ya. You pack your clothes then follow us back after prayers tomorrow la."

"Ohhh.. Later I go back and tell daddy mummy ya."

"Okay, byebye."

"Byebye!"

Yes! Yes! Yes! I can go back hometown dy.
*Biggest wet eyes in the whole wide world*
I miss everything there.
Tomorrow yes tomorrow I'll be away from this dull polluted city and go back to the nice clean hometown.
Can relax over there, cause I'll be doing nothing but eat like piggie cause grandparents gonna treat me like princess and feed me like piggie say 5-6 meals per day?
I start drooling when I think of the yummy food.
*slurp*

Fat pig.

I had a sudden craving for 'luk luk'. *slurp*
Different types of fish balls dip into hot, spicy, yummy chili.
Like omgwtfbbq can I just sneak out from the house and go Taipan to makan 'luk luk'?
Please. Pretty please.
*Biggest wet eyes in the whole wide world*

******
I seriously can't wait for uni to start.
It's so darn bored staying at home staring at the laptop screen like almost 12 hours a day.
So bloody no life at all.
Jobless. Cashless.
Even my 50 bucks in the wallet also allowance from my new dad aka my bf. (No, I didn't ask him for money. He sendiri gave the money to me cause I only left RM3 in my wallet the other day and he don't want me to starve and he's a goof bf like that. Lol.)

I'm feeling rather despressed.
I think I'm starting to hate this semester break.
No, seriously I'm not joking.
Like wat the fuck is going on?
T______________T

Loner wtf.

Yum cha with Anna on Wednesday. She will be leaving to UK tomorrow. =(
We din see each other for almost one year and now she's leaving so soon.
And she said I'm now so bonnie, no meat at all.
I can still remember how we from not-so-close become very close.
We only cold war for once, that also we don't intend and tried so hard to act like nothing cause we don't know how to berbaik semula after emo emo lol.
We always tell each other our stories but never really response to each other cause we just need a listener not a talker wtf.

***********
Yum cha with Jo, Kim, Lynn, Lobak and Wei Jiin yesternight.
Thanks Wei Jiin for the leave.
Lobak will be going back to Germany on Saturday, Lynn will be going back to UK on Sunday, Jo and Kim will be going back Singapore on Sunday too, Wei Jiin stuck in Malaysia with me studying Mass Comm.
Wtf, means left me only la, now all my girl friends also go back for studies. Boohooo!! T________________T
And they said I super skinny also, face very sharp not like before that chubby chubby.
And they ordered me must eat more, think less, don't stress too much, gain more weight.
Seriously I also don't know why am I always so stress and think so much wtf.
And I always feel like no appetite, and tummy pain wtf.

***********
Today's telemarketing sucks!
But, I was the only one who get 1 person to sign up for the seminar.
Huhu.
And got alot of rude people!
So rude cannot even talk nicely wan, as if damn power like that.
Hmph!
Look down on all these people.
Wtf I'm feeling so tired now.

I'm so broke RAWR!

Titleless.

Yesterday was the first time I took bus myself, alone...
Okay, not exactly alone cause I bumped into sis friend, which was lucky me cause I didn't know where to get down to go Mid Valley wtf.
I don't like taking bus cause the way the drivers drive make me feel so dizzy that I almost in the bus. ><

********
Met up with the bf in Mid Valley to watch Money Not Enough 2.
Omg, I love Jack's Neo's film.
He never fail to bring surprise to me in all his film production.
Its always full of laughters, tears, all kind of values that make his film production so different.
Hmmm...
Btw, Money Not Enough 2 started with rather funny story, and ended with emo ending.
Me and the bf were so emo after watching.
Sob sob.
At the of the show,

*******
And finally, after 3 days, I finish watching 30 episodes of Just In Singapore (一房半厅一水缸).
Unpredictable story line that make me feel so gan cheong everytime.
Now that, I've finish watching, I feel so empty.
Somemore got nothing to do.

Somehow, I think Suet Li the blogger look like this MediaCorp actress, Paige Chua.
Lol.

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:37 PM):
u know ah

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:37 PM):
my bf very shy during first date

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:37 PM):
he dont dare to look at me

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:37 PM):
den dont dare to talk to me

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:37 PM):
so shy so cute

evil sifu™ says (8:38 PM):
lol oh

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:38 PM):
i see him

evil sifu™ says (8:38 PM):
how interesting

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:38 PM):
i feel like squeeze his face den can become like fish mouth

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:38 PM):
den his face skin so nice

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:38 PM):
eventhou he's kinda skinny

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:38 PM):
but very nice to pinch wan

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:39 PM):
huhu

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:39 PM):
and play

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:39 PM):
eh tell me bout ur gf la

evil sifu™ says (8:39 PM):
my gf ah

evil sifu™ says (8:39 PM):
on the 1st date so daring wtf

evil sifu™ says (8:40 PM):
but me still unsure that time so not so daring

evil sifu™ says (8:40 PM):
haha then she hug hug my arm in the cinema siok siok la that time

evil sifu™ says (8:40 PM):
watching gan cheong movie some more

evil sifu™ says (8:40 PM):
=D

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:40 PM):
den den?

evil sifu™ says (8:41 PM):
then she always bang me when walking that time

evil sifu™ says (8:42 PM):
mana tau rupanya cuz she always move to left side

evil sifu™ says (8:42 PM):
and she like to walk on the left side but mana tau that day she walk on the right

evil sifu™ says (8:42 PM):
so keep bang me

evil sifu™ says (8:42 PM):
lol

Alice : liceylivelife™ says (8:43 PM):
lol

*********
Some lame coversation between me and the bf when talking bout the first date.
Hehe.

It's all about weird dreams.

Before you read this post, let me warn you this is going to be a super duper long post.
If you don't intend to read this, just click on the 'X' at the far right corner.
You're reading at your own risk.
You might died of boredom wtf.
Thank you!

I don't know was it just me or what?
I ask you ah, have you experience this kinda weird dream where you cannot differentiate between the reality and the dream?
Its like the dream is so real that you thought you weren't dreaming but actually you were dreaming.
Or.
Its like actually you werent dreaming, but you thought you were dreaming?
=__________=
What is this, damn confusing.
Bahhhh....

I got weird dream again just now.
During my nap just now, I was trying so hard to focus (wtf take nap also want to focus cause I am weird like that hohoho)
While I almost fall asleep, somesort like in the process of entering the border of Dreamland, then the house phone rang.
So, I thought I was dreaming.
But, it kept ringing til I have to force myself to wake up wtf.
RAWR who call at this hour la?!
Disturb my beauty sleep.
Picked up, bro's friend why always call him wan stupid.
And, its not only one time okay.
Not long after I hang up the phone, it rang again!
@#%%@#$@#$#$@%!!!!
Cannot just let me sleep peacefully isit?
I dragged my steps to the phone and simply say something then hang up the phone and dragged myself back to the sofa.
At last, Dreamland here I come!
Wheee~~~
But but but, it wasn't too long when I had this dream.
Hmmmm... How to say?
I dreamt that my dad was shouting outside the house asking me to open the door.
Knock, knock, knock!!
Open the door!
I continue to sleep like a log though wtf, cause I was inside the dream, I thought in my mind.
Knock, knock, knock!!
Open the door!
Now wait, , why can knock so long in the dream wan?
Should have change to the next scene dy by now.
So, I listen carefully.
Listen, listen, listen.
Eh, its really my dad knocking outside wtf.
Til then my nap time.
Sigh.
Today’s not my day to take nap, I think.

Btw, I don’t know whether I’m too stress or whatsoever.
I really had few quite a number of weird dreams, recently.
Like really weird and funny. But then, I sudah lupa most of it.
But, I remember two of those weird dreams.
Let me tell you people.
Eh, just pretend you' re interested in knowing my weird dreams cause I'm now very emo now must do something to cheer myself up. (I'm such a pathetic kid wtf.)
Okay, okay, enough say, let me start the story.

In this particular dream,

I was in the Broadcasting II lecture class when Mr. Beh suddenly asked us to go for screening in one room.

So yea, the whole class shift to that room.

I was the first student to step in that room. (Hahaha wtf I'm so kiasu)

However, the person inside was not Mr. Beh but another male tutor.

I greeted him, then everyone came in.

People who came in not fully the coursemates, but some of the primary and high school friends.

I reserve the seat for the bf, but I don't know why in the dream he tak layan me. =(

At the end, I sit with one of my high school friends.

I was wearing some white top and white knee length Hawaian style skirt with I think white slippers.

Btw, I wanted to pee after that, so I asked for permission.

The tutor looked at me and said "nice slippers". Lol.

So, I went to the washroom happily wtf.
After I pee ah, my slippers don't know why gone from my feet.
When I looked at myself in the mirror, my white clothes become all messy with black black stain. =/
I stared at myself for sooo long, til people start knocking the door.
I came out and without looking at anyone.
I ran out, and soon, I realized I lost my way back to that room.
I walked around aimlessly, then I reached to the high school area.
I saw a lot of primary school kids having drawing and colouring competition, some performing lion dance, many many small kid version of lion dance.
Then....
I think I woke up from my dream.
Lol.

The next dream,
I was supposed to join a trip to China under this Kasturi Tuition Centre (I don't know why they have such trip though)
Then ah, all of us were waiting kat the train station ala Harry Potter style.
I wanted to go pee halfway waiting.
The washroom was way too far.
But nobody teman me, so I went dere by myself.
Then ah,
The washroom was located in the entrance of a shoplot, like right facing the busy street (The street look like some 10's kinda European street where ladies wear those hat and layer cake kinda dress wtf I don't know what you call that but its just like what you can see here.) with no door to close. O.o
So whenever you pee ka, bomb ka, people can see when they look into the shoplot.
I got no choice but went in to pee.
Out of nowhere, Weihong and Aileng suddenly sat on the toilet bowl next to me looking at me pee-ing while talkin to me bout the trip.
-______________-
Then after that we got to know that the train got delay.
After I'm done with pee-ing, Weihong Aileng dont know take cab and go somewhere else.
I walked back to the train station.
Once i walk in, all the luggage were arrange outside waiting for the owner to collect.
Grace, Susan were all there too looking for their luggage.
I couldn't find mine.
Then suddenly i have this bad feeling that I never bring my luggage wtf.
I have only a handbag with me.
Die la, China so cold how can I go there without any clothes but only those I'm wearing?
The train station actually located in a shopping mall.
Even Kasturi Tuition Centre also located there, just next to the train station.
One thing I don't know why the tuition centre also divided to few groups.
Like Harry Potter movie, different people place in different houses. (Don't ask me why my dream kinda Harry Potter-ish I also don't know why)
And my group quite lousy not standardise.
While I was looking around see if I've left my luggage else where, I saw another group all wearing white long sleeve green strip shirt.
I also saw teenager look alike Mr. Zachary and some of my primary school friends in that group.
Their tutor was briefing them bout the trip.
I continue to look for my luggage then realize I really never bring my luggage.
Suddenly they announce the train gonna arrive in less than an hour time.
I got so gan cheong and run to where all my group members sat.
I saw Alvin and Sandy (I dont know who's this girl) and other random people I cannot remember.
I asked around who got extra clothes can borrow me.
Then everyone started whispering like I wasn't there.
There's this girl dam bitchy.
She throw me some big size bikini underwear and said 'I only got this one'.
The others all don't want to borrow me clothes.
I never bring enough money for emergency somemore.
This Sandy offered to borrow me her credit card but I'm not too close with her so I rejected.
I turned to Alvin, just when I want to ask him to teman me, some random girl said want to talk to him and pull him aside.
Then I wait, but they were taking far too long and I was running out of time.
At the end, I went to shop for some clothes alone with my limited amount of money.
So I walk around to look for long sleeve and scarf.
I'm not too familiar with the mall.
Then they got one part where you cannot walk in the opposite direction, or not you'll find yourself struggling with the gravity pulling and very hard for you to keep walking wtf and I kena.
Damn tiring walking there then after I gave up and follow the correct arrow to this escalator where only can fit in one skinny person, very narrow kind of escalator.
I went down and reached FOS.
I bought 2 tops and 2 bottoms, all white wtf.
After after I paid, I woke up in the dream and found myself still at home and the day itself is the trip.
I faster pack, and I remember I was folding a pair of white pants, then I really wake up from my dream wtf.
The end.

Very weird la my dream.
Always white colour clothes, and its always after pee-ing then everything become so weird and wrong.
=_____________=
I wonder what were those dreams supposed to meant?
Hmmmm....

Eh actually, any of you read finish the whole post or not?
Tell me la, console the emo me can or not?

Byebye.

I need job!

Today's paper was rather easy.
Really, it was so easy.
But, easy doesn't mean can score.
So far I dy lost 10 die to some stupid careless mistakes.
RAWR!
My B+ is further from me now.
=(
Anyway, its over.
We shall celebrate the freedom, right right right?

No, you're so wrong!
This sem break is certainly a stressful one. For me.
So, I haven get any job, yet.
I was late for a job offer for this week. Sigh.
Should I go back to Uno?
Should I go ask from Crystal Edge?
Should I surt the net for part time job?

If Uno means I cannot take any promoting jobs which is certainly higher pay.
If Crystal Edge, its kinda far from the place, and I have to wake up super early in the morning and get stuck in the jam in the morning and evening. But, the pay is higher than Uno.
If random surfing, errr, wtf still cannot find any job so far.

I cannot decide wtf.

Now I feel so free at home got nothing to do, even though the break just started less than 12 hours.
I don't know how am I going to spend my other day.
Please someone offer me job.
No more modelling job, no more please.
I'm not interested in any of them.
Don't call me dy wtf stupid Berjaya Group.
Fuck the high pay!

Is this suppose to be what you call holidays?
-___________-"

I'm feeling so lazy.
What's all these Print Media thingy?
Been staring at the same page for so long.
I think my brain dy in holiday mood.
I need 97 to get A-, 80 to get B+, 63 to get B.
Wtf.
How to die now?
Boohoo!!!
T____________T
Somebody motivate me please.
I really really have to speed up.
Cause I'm like stuck there since forever.

Anyway, I know I'm not the only one who feel lazy.
That's why I feel lagi lazy.
What is this la?

Stupid bf always use negative thingy to motivate me.
Make me so takut.
But I seriously need good grades to pull up my CGPA.
><

Money Not Enough.

Its always the same thing.
The same reason over and over again.
Thanks to the inflation!
Thanks to the fuel price hike!
Thanks to the bodoh government!

I'm feeling emo.
Very very emo now!

I don't want to bother anyone with this kinda personal issue.
But, if I don't talk to anyone, I feel very emo.
How now?
What should I do?
I don't like this kinda feeling.
It totally sucks to the max.
T____________T
No more this kinda issue please.
No more, no more, no more.
It really upset me alot whenever it happens.

Sometime, I wish, I have the magic wand.
A wave of the wand, a little bit of magic, and everyone will be happy.

916.

Comm Theories.
I finish it at the very second, eh wait, actually not really finish.
Got one question in Section A I tak sempat to finish.
-______________-
Haiya, whatever la its over.
Byebye Comm Theories.
I don't want to see you anymore.
Thank you.

After the killing paper, kita orang went to the second floor.
I brought mooncakes for the girls.
Hohoho!
Look at everyone's happy faces wtf.

**********

Reach home, shower, read papers, drop dead.

For. 2. Hours. Plus. Wtf.

Omg can you imagine how tired am I or not?

Woke up and watch the news. (See, I suddenly so concern about the current issues wtf. Even the bf also look at me one kind like WOW.. wtf)

Speaking of which, Pak Lah damn chicken lo..

Never meet up with Anwar.

Cehhh..

Btw...

"I'm not tired, I'm just dissapointed.." Quote from Zaid Ibrahim.

Take that! Bodohwi!

People got prinsip wan okay?

Not like you so cheapplat, laoya, chicken backside useless shit!

Some more can say the government won't collasped without Zaid Ibrahim.

Then, what for you ask him to take 2 weeks leave when people want to resign?

Itu la, sama dengan nama you, BADAWI THE BODOHWI. (

(Note: Name has been put in white color, in case I kena ISA for make fun with his name publicily wtf.)

Dot dot dot.

Please untangle my brainnie. ><

Wtf.
I don't like Democratic Will Formation.
Confusing like hell.
Now I'm feeling kinda blur dy.
@.@

Tomorrow faster come and let me sit this confusing Comm Theories fast fast.

Still got so much to cover wtf.
Those info that I read before are all become kinda vague now.
T_____________T
Where got time to re-read all everything?
I tak suka you la, Comm Theories.
Make my life so miserable.
But, I suka when I can apply some of you in the ISA issue.
Hmmmm...
How ah?
Cannot decide whether I like you or not?
Haiya wtf.
Think later.
Better continue with my revision.
Or
I shall hate you if I fail wtf.

Byebye.
Hmph!

ISA Style Mooncake Festival

I want Tong Kee white lotus mooncakes.
Sob sob. ='(

The dad only get to buy Overseas mooncakes for this year.
Sad.
Cannot really celebrate Mooncake Festival for this year also.
Stupid Comm Theories exam on 16th September.
Make me stuck in front of laptop and cannot go play tanglung and light candles.
The rain just now make me cannot see full moon tonight.
Blahhhh....

I'm feeling full full now.

********
The evening news was rather havoc.
Alot of politicians bang the government and the PM.
Zaid Ibrahim, I sallute you for still able to analyse the whole situation despite the different skin colour.
Please read here for what he said.
'I'm holding this post to help him(Mr. PM). But now, the economic and political status is in such bad condition. I'm sure there's other law in Malaysia that can be use to detain those 3 people. We have Sedition Act. ISA is for terrorist. I would step down if they continue to misuse their power...."
That was part of what he said.

Datuk Seri Dr. Fong Chan Onn question the says that the journalist was detained to ensure her safety.
Then, he asked why Ahmad Ismail didn't get arrest while journalist was doing her duty get caught?
See... Even politician ask about this.
I would really want to see how will Abdullah Badawi gonna answer, by any chance.
Teehee..

The failed Agenda Setting.

Please la Mr. Syed Hamid,
Stop giving us some lame excuse. =_________=
What do you mean by further investigation on Ahmad Ismail, the MAD DOG's case?
What else you have to investigate about his case?
How he shouted?
How long was his press conference?
Which hand he used to point at people?
Damn kau lame lo your excuse.
Its so damn bloody obvious he was discriminating other race (NOTE: CHINESE) and miused his freedom of speech and create sensitive issue that threathened national secuirity.
How can he make such statement so publicily and without getting arrested?
The citizens want clearly explainations, not some bullshit that divide our attention to other stories.

The reporter was arrested just to ensure her safety?
Yea right...
As if we don't know what you government people trying to do.

OMG, we is so SCARED!
Faster run for our life, before the we get ISA!!
...........
Stop all these nonsense please!
You leaders please don't corrupt the whole country.
Just can't wait for the government to be take over by this coming Tuesday.
I don't care who will be the future badge of government people.
But.
Please do us a favour by
Changing away all the corrupted shorties/big fat bellies.
Throw them to tong sampah.
They are even worse than sampah masyarakat.
Sendiri make those chaos but blame it on others.
WTF!
A bunch of politicians without brains...

Okay.
I'm done with my rant wtf.
Agenda Setting, here I come.
T________________T

I don't know what else to say but .......

Am currently studying Marxist Theory, when a sudden wave of thoughts hit me.
One of the point in the report stated that the goverment use the mainstream media to promote the successful of government in controlling the economic as well as social aspect.
This has influenced the citizens’ perception towards the government.
The goverment use media to create the false consiousness to maintain their dominating position.
Thus, citizens act against their own interest because they want to maintain the existing economic environment.

BUT

Is that so the government is so great after all?
Look at the papers today.
What can you see?

Raja Petra, a journalist from Sin Chew Daily, Teresa Kwok were arrested under ISA.
Why?

Raja Petra was arrested under ISA allegedly being a threat to security, peace and public order. He kept on tembak the government, of course la goverment must do something to shut him up. Lock him for 60 days also better than nothing. But, he was just telling the truth, to uncover the false consiousness. Sigh.

As for the journalist, she was so unlucky just cause she was the one who reported about 'Squatters' issue then she got arrested.

Teresa Kwok was arrested cause involved in activities which can cause tension and conflict among races and religion that threatened national security.

Now after all the bullshit above, tell me, where is the justice of this country?
Wait, or I should ask...
Is there any justice in this pathetic country?

Three of them were arrested mainly cause they involve in reporting or activities that cause tension and conflict among races and religions?
Yes. In the Perlembagaan Persekutuan, stated that everyone has the freedom of speech but one shall not use his/her freedom of speech to create sensitive issue that hence threatened national security.
But, what can we see right now that happen in the country?
The politician who make RACIST AND THREATENED STATEMENT was let to bark around like a MAD DOG for so long, before our dear PM make up his mind to let that fella escape from responsibility with just 3 years of suspension from UMNO.
WTF!!!

Lets not talk about the blogger and the politician who were arrested, but the journalist?
She was just reporting about that issue, she was just carrying her duty as a journalist for god's sake, and she was arrested.
How the hell all those journalists dare to report the truth after this case?
How would they know if they will be the next one who get arrest under ISA?

Vision 2020 was one of the topics I was supposed to do research on for the Copywriting.
There are 9 challenges that we, Malysians have to overcome in order to achieve Developed Nation status.
I remember two of the challenges stated:

The first of these is the challenges of establishing a united Malaysian nation with a sense of common and shared destiny. This must be a nation at peace with itself, territorially and ethnically integrated, living in harmony and full and fair partnership, made up of one 'Bangsa Malaysia' with political loyalty and dedication to the nation.

The fifth challenge that we have always faced is the challenge of establishing a matured,liberal and tolerant society in which Malaysians of all colours and creeds are free to practise and profess their customs,cultures and religious beliefs and yet feeling that they belong to one nation.

Now, with all these issue happen in the country, Vision 2020 is sure to be still too far to achieve.
Left alone the immature mentality of Malaysians, look at the unfair of the whole political state now.
Politician who make RACIST AND THREATENED STATEMENT publicily was safely protected by the law.
Look at his stupid face also I feel like kicking his balls!
Since he don't even dare to admit his own mistake, want balls for what?
To fuck more people isit?
HECK!
Is that what we call freedom of speech in Malaysia?
Is that what we call justice?

I don't know.
I let you readers to judge.

Vision 2050 maybe?

Abnormal.

Sometime, I feel like run away.
Run away from all those stress.
Run away from reality.
Run away from responsibility.
Run away from the fact that I'm no longer a kid.
-_______________-"

Feeling very very the tired.
Very very the stress.
Very very the tension.
Just because, there isn't much progress that I've made.
One whole day, not even a report that I've finish reading.
How to finish everything by Monday night if I continue to be so slow?
T________________________T

I'm so stress that my appetite is not as good.
I'm so stress that even I myself was shocked when looking at my own skinny legs. Too skinny wtf.
I'm so stress that the friends keep asking me to eat more to gain more weight. Some even offered themselves to drag me go out and feed me with more food.
I'm so stress that everyone also can see that I'm stress.

Alright girls, don't hentam me after you read cause I don't know why I lost weight like this.
Don't have to tell me I'm skinny like everytime you all see me cause I know.
I just don't understand why some of you all always tell me the same thing, "Omg. How can you be so skinny?" Like every single time you all see me. =.="
It's not that good after all to be so skinny cause I got no biggie boobs, no nice body shape.
Its so susah for me to get bras in certain bra shops cause don't have my size wtf.
I always wanted to get one pair of skinny, and finally when I got it, Grace said my legs too skinny, skinny make my legs lagi skinny not so nice. =(
You say la, what's so nice about being so skinny?
Oh one more thing, I'm not as fragile la, I mean physically.
I won't patah tulang just cause you massage me, ter'bang me okay?
=)

Stress, Adventurous Race de Alice.

Today's Broadcasting II was supposed to be easy, if I focus on the topics given and not reading some random topics.

Btw, begone my A/A- for this subject, my only hope T_____________T

And, I made the same ol'mistake just like in midterm wtf.
You tell me where got people so stupid wan keep making the same mistake?
*Look at other place and wistle and pretend I'm not the one*
Shaddap!

After the exam, joined Alwin's MV group to Decanters at Section 17 for lunch.
A pretty nice place to chill around with friends.
Food at reasonable price, some kinda cafe and bar concept, there's board games too.
Can add in to the 'hot spots' list dy.

After the lunch, the guys played cards and the girls talked bout TVB dramas.
Just when we were about to head to the cars after the bill, they suddenly suggested to watch Death Race.
Death Race!

Of course I tag along, cause mmg wanted to watch since last few weeks but no time.
Death Race was awesome!
It's a little bloody, but it was good wtf!
I likeyyyy!!!
I don't know why but I just like the close up of the 'Coach' holding the remote with the exploded bulding as background.
Was watching this show as a half sober Broadcasting student wtf.


After the show I was supposed to reach home in an hour time plus sending the bf and Cerenna back.
Like mission impossible la this one.
My car at that time merajuk kaukau til refused to layan me dy.
The water level was up til after the maximum!
ZOMGWTFWATERMELONHONEYDEW!
That time I was stucked in the heavy traffic somemore.
Dam gelabah like don't know what.
"What if the engine suddenly explode due to the overheated? What should I do?"
Really kaukau gan cheong wan okay?
Damn stress wtf.

Finally, we turned into some jalan/lorong to let the water to cold down.
Stand next to the car posing/feed the big fat mosquitoes/like penguins out of the cold place cause people keep looking at us wtf.
After 20 minutes or so of waiting, the water level decreased to its normal level.
Off we start our journey home when another attack forced us to pit stop at the petrol station.
The water boiled til can see the smoke come out abit O.o
Waited there for like almost 40minutes, wait for the water to cold down so can continue journey.
The daddy called and nagged and scolded me wtf. =(
Then, he asked to add water to the tank cause that might be the reason why water level refused to go down.
Okay, this one kaukau I takut to do wan.
Cause scared the water will splash like fountain. Hot water kay? What if later I kena burn then become ugly? =/
So yea, after waited and the water not so hot dy.
I used wet cloth and open the cap slowly, like real slowly. Very the tension, somemore I wore my sweater incase the water splash up and kena me wtf.
Like some action movie, or some scene where you saw in the police show when the bomb specialist trying to cut the wire to stops the bomb from explode wtf. I don't even dare to breath, and turn the cap really really slow wtf.
It didn't turn out to be as bad as I thought.
So after water was added, Cerenna's bf said will pick her up from the petrol station cause cause, the bf's birthday supposed to be today. =/
I think they got plan wtf so paiseh.
At the end, she waited for so long still need to trouble the bf to fetch him.
Very very sorry ya, Cerenna. ><

My car now consider okay dy wtf I think so.
So dam tired.
Both me and the bf's eyes also red red with those nerves crawling around the eyes lol.
Drive also so stress nowadays for me.
Sigh.
Worse than exam.......

dot dot dot

I don't know what to say about today's paper. ><
I'm hoping the lecturer/tutor/whoever who mark my paper will close one eye when marking my paper. =p

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Got the book from Ms. Foo.

And I just realize we have alot to cover for Broadcasting II. O.o
Basically its everything!
Omg omg omg!!!
I want to faint dy.

Wtf, imma go study.
T______________T

Life and Death.

I'm so gonna die wtf.
I just found out this early super early morning and I mean it this EARLY MORNING 2 something!
I lost my Broadcasting II textbook.
The exam is in 3 freaking days away.
-__________________-"
Checked online got the ninth edition but without pics.
UTAR library pulak no more books for me.
Ms. Foo borrowed her book to other lecturer.
Boohoo!!!
How can this happen to me?
This subject is like my only hope to score.
Now I can only check at those handouts gave by Mr. Beh.
Its so short and only key points for some.
I don't know how.
T____________________T
Why oh why?
God, can you please drop one Television Production Handbook 10th edition textbook from the sky to me?
*big wet eyes*

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I think God really heard my prayer la wei, he really drop the book to me Ms Foo got back her book and ask me to collect from her tomorrow.
Wheee!!~~~
Thanks alot, Ms Foo!

Dear Grace Han,

Hello girl,

You said you read my blog, so now I writing one special post for you then only I go leave comment in your blog.
Hahahaha.

Hmmmm....
Actually I also don't know what to write dy, since I told you what I wanted to say just now. =p
But then, really its not easy for you to handle the whole situation, yet I think so far, you're doing the right thing.
Keep it up, kay?
Just don't let it beat you down.
Stay strong and remember one very important thing...
You're a nice girl, you truely deserve someone much better.
I know, I know, Love is Blind.
But, but, but....
I just wish to see you happy happy and no more sad sad down down emo emo.
Hehe.

Its really great when we get to talk once in awhile.
(Yea, I know eventhough we are in the same class, see each other almost everyday, but then due to the heavy load of works, we can hardly have heart-to-heart talk.)
Speaking of which, since we are now stuck in final, even no time for us to talk.
Well, study hard for now, and hope you can hit your target!
Ganbate!
=)

Love,
Alice.

I scold because I care.

Following the bf from behind, emo and act like nothing happen.
Yea la obviously, got scolded cause I did the same mistake for exam wtf I also don't know why I so cari pasal.
But seriously dear, I forgotten about the steps and I did read that one alot alot of times, but I still forgot about some of the important points.
T_______________T
Since when I become so forgetful?
It's like I have the super power memory in remembering random stuff, but I can never apply it in studies.
I don't want to get scolding and nagging from the bf and friends anymore.
Stress enough.
*Hentam own head and scold myself wtf*

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2 hours of nap and 2 hours of Corean love story and 0 hour of revision.
Korean love story make me feel so emo and romantic.
Cried til cannot stop.
Damn long never watch all these romantic sad sad love story.
How I miss...
How nice if I can get the bf to be the romantic bf.. Just for a day also I happy..
Huhu. ^^
But, the bf said he's not a romantic person and he won't fake it also.
Hmmmm...
Tak ada harapan for me dy la means.
How sad...
Nevermind, I should brainwash the bf with more romantic stuff wtf. (As if la I very romantic hohoho)

I. Sick. Already.
Having running nose.
=__________=
Of all time, I have this during exam.
Now my nose block and I have to go blow my nose so many times.
AND ITS STILL BLOCK! RAWR!

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On a very random note (I mmg very random wan I know la wtf don't have to tell me), I went to check some messages in my abandoned friendster account.
I found this.

michael wrote:>
we are a modeling & event management agency..
we are currently are on the look out for girls for our upcoming events.
> need girls that are open minded/smart/ happy go lucky/sexy & easy 2 work with.
> pay is about rm 300- rm 700 per day.
> I THINK U HAVE THE LOOKS FOR IT.
> > pls check out the link below to view some of my models/talents.
> > http://www.flickr.com/photos/2...........................
> > pls fill in your deatils below:TQ
> NAME:
> AGE:
> HEIGHT:
> WEIGHT:
> VITAL STAT(FIGURE):
> LOCATION:
> CONTACT NO

Since I very the broke , so I thought no harm go check the flickr account first.
It turned out to be some random sceneries pics.
Okay nevermind...
I checked the friendster account then, and found out this fella he's just some random guy who lack of friends in his friendster account wtf.
Make me so happy thought got job available for the poor me wtf.
I don't like being jobless and cashless.
I don't like asking money from parents.
*Grumpy*

Broadcasting coursework marks is out!!!
Please check at here!
Managed to get quite good wtf cause of my midterm itu bf said.
Phew phew phew..
But, now I'm worried bout finals.
Cause I have no idea about the format.
I IS SCARED. VERY VERY SCARED. ><
Don't know want to start study from where?

Alice ganbate!
=)

Alright, back to study the dull Moral.
Blah...

Bubbles bubbles bubbles

Okay, I'm done with one chapter of Moral wtf.
One whole day, I only managed to read through (note: READ through only) one short chapter of Moral.
*Faints*
I don't know how am I going to finish it by Saturday. =(
Grandparents and aunt gonna come to the house and stay overnight and go hospital visit the lonely cousie.
She still need to stay till her blood palette level still quite low. ><
So, house gonna be quite noisy.
Means, I cannot concentrate.
How how how?
Go hide in the super messy study room?
I used to hide myself whenever there are exams.
Not a bad idea aite?
Haiya whatever, I'm going to sleep now.
Imma go to sleep wtf wtf wtf.
Don't disturb me!

P/s: I'll to be in the same class with the boyfriend dear throughout the finals. Yay yay so HAPPY!!! =D
Nights.

Stress

Sigh.
I don't know is this just me myself feeling ini macam or what?
I feel like crying wtf.
Study Moral until feel like crying, you tell me got such thing or not?
Chocs bar out of stock somemore.
Tummy pain cannot eat Baskin Robin.
Dam emo now wtf.
Stupid TNB please don't cut off power supply or not I lagi can cry.
Lights so dam dim now, eyes also pain.
How to study when I dah la so stress, now worried bout power failure.
WTF.
I really feel like crying dy.
T_________________T

I don't want to fail Moral, but I don't feel like studying.
Imma go sleep can or not?
Wtf cannot also.
Cause too stress cannot sleep.
How how how?

He said, She said.

He said, "I'm the one who pick up your smile, I'll make sure I'm not the who take away your smile."

He said, "Sincerely,at that moment...don't know why but i was attracted to you. Just wanting to know more about you and what kind of person you are... And so i went talking to you lor."

He said, "Actually I know you like me long time ago, just that I act don't know only. Hehe."

He said, "I'm studying the second last class if you count from the back class."

He said, "If our friendship were to keep slightly longer, we most prabably can get together."

He said, "She's not using me to get him!"

He said, "Anything just let me know k? I'm just a call away."

He said, "My life will be better by staying away from them!"

He said, "I know you're the mafia. I know wan."

He said, "I don't know if you realize, but I'm not like those usual guys."

He said, "So long dy, why she don't feel sad to let go wan mer?"

He said, "Some people think I'm simple, but my friends think I'm complicated."

He said, "Didn't hear from you today, wondering if you're okay?"

He said, "You're so adorable."

He said, "Your look is in my mind."

She said, "Why are you avoiding me ever since that day?"

She said, "Don't judge me from outside if you don't know who I am!"

She said, "You sure you already forget about him? You sure you don't have any feeling to him anymore?"

She said, "I don't usually crush. I love."

She said, "In which way, I attracted you? Tell me, tell me, tell me."

She said, "No, I'm not. You see I look so innocent."

She said, "I never did, never do, never will blame you on anything."

She said, "She is so L.O.A! Why is she telling my bf like that, when she's not any better?"

She said, "You damn good in acting. Can get Oscar Awards dy."

She said, "I need a boyfriend who is caring, love me, always be there for me, sensitive, know that when i emo means i pms and will teman me and will be patient with me eventhough i throw tantrum."

She said, "This is what we call obstacle in life."

She said, "I always smile? But, I laugh like a boy. Hehe."

She said, "Thanks alot for always be there for me."

She said, "Maybe she still not as mature to handle ldr."

She said, "Love is about communication and trust. We communicate and we gain trust in each other."

Each day, we tell different people about different thing.

A word can cause happiness, misunderstanding.

It's up to you how you play with those words.

What have you tell him/her just now?

Streamyx The Lousy

I dam tak suka TM Net punya streamyx.
Make me scolded by my dad wtf.
Paying so much for a month yet the connection is so fuck up!!
Worse than the RM60/month package.
WTF!
A 10 minutes Youtube video take up to 1 hour to load.
Sometimes load haflway cannot load.
WTF!
Some page cannot even load cause the connection is too slow.
WTF!
Customer service sux like don't know what.
Called so many times to complain, and its still the same. Disconnect my line and connect back kononnya.
WTF!
Never even make an effort to solve the problems.
WTF!
Stupid streamyx I want to go to the office and complain dy.
RAWR!
Wait til I storm in to the office one day then you'll know.
WTF!

STREAMYX STOP CHEATING PEOPLE'S MONEY!!!!
WTF!

Day dream.

Have you ever think of being a koala bear?
Just stick yourself to a tree and be lazy there.
This is exactly what I was thinking this morning when I was trying to munch the info in the notes.
So I told the bf, that I want to climb on him and be lazy and be manja.
But, he damn potong said he cannot support me.
Sad.
Malaysian trees got way too many bigbig red ants, I cannot climb on them.
Haih....

Today is the forth day of the study week, but there's still not much progress that I've made.
Boohoo!
T________T
I don't know why whenever I'm so semangat want to start my revision sure got something up.
My laptop charger sot k somemore.
Have to shift so many times just so I can get the correct position then only it starts charging.
What is this?
Most of my notes in the laptop, please please please my laptop charger don't sot k, or not I can die wei.

**********

I feel like a burst air balloon. Got hole cannot pump in air anymore. The hole is too big, cannot tape.

My brain cannot store in any Comm Theories facts anymore. Anything I read, I cannot keep them inside.

Tired. Exhausted.

Very the stress now.

I want to go bang wall.

I. Hate. Comm. Theories.

Yet, I cannot afford to fail this subject.

Wtf the saddest story in this whole entire world.

T_______________________T

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Cousie was emitted to SJMC.

Denggi.

She is so blur blur. My aunt also blur blur. She dy got red spots all over her body and complaining no strength and she somemore went back hometown, but never go see doctor.

Then, today, just now, the colleague sent her to hospital.

=______________=

Blood pressure super low now.

Wtf I want to go visit her, but cannot.

Tomorrow only can go.

Sad.

Please get well soon, cous.

The one and only pic we took together.

Hahaha. We look so weird here cause curi-curi take pic in a very small changing room.

And I wanted to buy this dress initially, but tak jadi.

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My life is so dull, so not happening.
I is very sleepy and got headache now thanks to Comm Theories.
I wonder if I can finish one chapter, at least one chapter at the end of today.
Basically, I'm crapping now, cause is too scared to go back to revision.
I'm gonna have nightmare tonight.
Noooooooooo!!!!!!!!!