Ding Dong, you've been dumbfounded!

Thanks to whoever who trying to act as though they know me well and who is loser enough to do that.
Just to let you know, whatever you do, you're just increasing my blog hit, and wasting your time in thinking so hard for trying to make me feel bad.
Somehow I always ended up laughing so hard. :D

So thank you for ze entertainment and for making my life so interesting and colorful!

This is Life.

Sigh.
RB is forever that observant, he always know what I'm up to.
Finally get to have a proper talk with him about ze decision.

He kept asking for the reason, so I told him few reasons, the sub one.
He knew those weren't the main reason, so he mentioned about few things and told me that was just what he guess.
I didn't deny, cause those were also part of the reasons which contributed to ze decision.
I teared a little.
He had been so nice to me and so patient.
He asked to stay, to reconsider my decision.
Felt shaky with ze decision for a while, then a sudden silent between us.


He shared with me of what he observed in me, and also other knowledge and improvement can be made.
He told me its okay, I'm still young and there's still long way to go.
He told me to give him a call if there's anything, and that he will make arrangement for me.
He told me...
There are too many things that he told me, I thank God for all these!

Before the conversation ended, he said,"Hope you'll be able to find your positive charges real soon."
I said, "Hmm..."

Because your apology is insincere.

Received an unexpected phone call when I was in the bank yesterday.
I blinked for a while trying to recognize the voice, until the caller told me ze name, I was like stunned.
Heart was beating super fast.
Hope everything will goes smoothly after this.
Best of luck! :)

I DARE YOU

Thought of the jiak sai definition that 阿群 made out of ze theory.
Never failed to make everyone laughs.

Decision, decision, decision.
I've finally told RB about it, and he asked why?
Never really get to talk to him about it, further discussion is needed but he is super duper busy, so everything tergendala till further discussion.
Bahh, I feel so weird.
I can't believe that I've finally made up my mind about this, like really finally, after months of having the thought playing in my mind. ==

I don't know what is going to come in my way in the future.
I guess, I've learn to be more spontaneous and not let other burdens affect my decision.
I think, being in this field really trained my EQ to an extend that, I don't get too bother or too offended by some nonsense.
I'm really thankful for all those awful moments that I went through throughout the journey, which mold me to who I am now, in a way.


And I think, patience can consider as the most quality that I've gain along the way.
Alright, not to say I'm a very very patient person, but then I've learn not to get mad over stupid things *insert laughs*.
At least won't black face during work, or in front of other people, cause cannot bring personal emotion to work ma...

Too much of randomness recently.
But I likey.
Looking forward for DSLR VS LOMO photo outings with monkey sekalian, Snowflake and polaroid date with 阿群, Steamboat with 阿宅。
Oh no, I can see my purse bleeding! ><

 

疯狂的赛车

一整天，心情无比的烂透了。
可以是因为一个月了。可以是因为PMS.可以是因为神经搭错线。可以是因为下雨天让整个人很忧郁。

送了老弟回宿舍，终于按奈不住，崩溃了。
下雨的夜晚，一个人开着车，大声喊着，哭着，发泄了。
短短几分钟后，一切恢复平静。

妈的，很像在看戏那样。



 

Why you sounds different?

我也没发现说，我在和她聊天时的语气有什么不一样，直到她问了我这个问题：“怎么你今天听起来，不像平时的你？”
才想起了，我约她出去的原因。

此时，企图隐藏起来的淡淡忧伤，不小心释放了一些。

这样也好，至少没有经过欢送会这个阶段，眼泪就不会决堤。
你不在，日子还是一样的过。
虽然，每每粗心弄伤这里那里，会想起那一段段关心担心的对白。

最近，常常会不小心脚滑，撞到旧患。想起某夜他给我猜的冷笑话：森林里什么动物最容易跌倒？答案是狐狸！因为狐狸狡猾（脚滑）。呵呵！
最近，双脚频频抽筋。想起了那时他凭着我在电话中隐约说过的地址，带着自己煲好的凉茶，在我那区绕来绕去。看到他出现在家门前，是感动的，觉得他傻的可爱。知道说我累，脚抽筋，就捉着我按摩。

都过去啦。。。
一个月，时间很努力的在冲淡一切。
他离开了，去逐梦了。

自己也做好准备，迎接接下来要面对的事情。

就这样，我们很快速的在人生中的交叉点遇见，又再次分开。

此刻心情很复杂。