Oreo-Smiley Mcflurry. =)

Just after a warm warm bath with LOONEY TUNES B & B Kids Melon Extract SHOWER GEL with Triclosan and Jojoba Oil!
Lol.
Sounds so like advertising for them.
I like the smell.
Hmmm...

*******

I've got my Oreo Mcflurry today, early in the morning, around 8am.
You people will never know how excited and happy and thankful and how I look when I got it.
Terharu betul.
If not because of the table that blocking me, I think I'll throw my arms around you!
Alright, maybe not until like that laa..
Seriously, when I saw you walked in the class with that Oreo Mcflurry, and seeing the ice-cream was like still not melted as though Mc'Donalds is just right downstaird of the campus.
Words couldn't describe how touched I was.

A promise.
It's so difficult to get someone who actually fulfill a promise nowadays.
And there's a warm flavour in my ice-cream - smiley. =)
A thousand, a million thanks to you, my dear friend!
You lighten up my day!
And you're not Benjamin!
Hehe.

Just give me more time.

To overcome the fear. =/
To practise.
To come out with a better script.

********

I drove the BLINKY car to uni.
I hope I never attract passer by attention that much.
I still have to drive the car for the rest of the week.
Uugghh!!

Today's lab recording session went on not too bad.
I managed to talk with the headset on me.
Am overcoming the fear a lil by lil.

Hmmm...
Will be getting my reward - Mc'Donalds Oreo Mcflurry tomorrow morning.
Good good!
I'm no longer emo!
Mission accomplish!
=)

8 of my very random thoughts.

Tagged by Nigel.

1. I don't usually keep my own secret. I tell everyone, new friends, old friends about almost everything about myself. In return, I help them to keep their secrets. Don't worry people, your secret are safe with me.

2. I'm very observant. I can roughly tell your mood of the day by just watching you from far. Don't try me!

3.I enjoy doing things upside down. For example, I answer my exam papers start from the last question, I do my laudry in rainy days or at night.

4. My happy-go-lucky look hide a very moody me. I rather complain,talk alot or I'll prefer to isolate myself in a corner, not wanting anyone to approach me.

5. I'm small and petite and fragile. Please handle me with EXTRA care and adore me.

6. I need a shoulder to lie on for awhile, at least when I'm crying. Any guys volunteer to borrow me your shoulder?

7. I still cry like a babe. I'm also a curious babe!

8. I'm not done with my Intro to Advertising presentation which I'm suppose to present at 9 am tomorrow and I feel like I'm gonna k.o anytime soon.


I tag

Any 5 people from the link on right side!

A wave of black luck.

I got hit and my precious smiley was brought away by the wave.
I dropped my car keys into the toilet hole!
I shouldn't have put it in my pocket. =(
Now, I've drop it and I feel so sad.

I called mom and dad.
Dad wouldn't want to help me.
He asked me to settle myself.
I was lost.
I don't know what to do.
Then, I cried.

I know I've been very weak.
I know I look horrible with my red eyes and pale lips.
I know I've passed by alot of the friends with my super sour face.
I know I've been emo for so many days.

I'm really really sorry.
For those who I passed by without saying hi and with my sour face.
I don't have the strength to smile.

To the BC1 girls and guys and Ms. Sageena,
Pei Yee who helps me to get the toilet cleaner to tried to take my car keys.
Wan Yi who borrowed me her shoulder to cried on.
Lee Jian who offered to take me to the mechanics.
Chee Fei who tried to get his mechanics friend.
Kok Joo who was trying to cheer me up by saying my blinky car as the latest trend.
Ms. Sageena who was being so understanding.
Grace, Jyin, Susan, Ying who were so worried and ask me to drive home earlier.
Celine, Kelly, Fab who MSN me.
One more person,
Nigel who reminded me about the project and the SACRED HOLY MANTRA.

I appreacite what all you did to make me feel better.
Really really appreacite it.
All of you make me feel so warm.

I am happy I am happy I am happy!
Am I?
I don't know.
But, I'll try to smile!
Cause I'm gonna retrieve my Mc'Donalds Oreo Mcflurry soon.

Whole day busy cleaning my 0h-so-messy table.
No longer occupy by books, notes and thick thick dust.
Wonder how long it stay at the so call clean status until it get back to its messy'ness.
Tiring.
But satisfied with the outcome.

Before.

After.

Nights!

"The Smiling Project."

Objective : To gain back my happy-go-lucky look and my smiley!

Due date : 30th January 2008.

Reward : Mc'Donalds Mcflurry.

That's me.

Had great laugh during Radio Broadcasting and English For Mass Comm.
I laugh so loud and look happier.
At least I thought I was...
I was trying to gain back my smile.
And I failed.

I tried my best to smile, because I don't want the rest to worry and try so hard so make me smile.
That's me.
I've been trying to hide my true feeling and not to reveal anything, because I'm not sure with my own now.
That's me.
I laugh so loud during classes, because I thought those jokes were funny.
That's me.
I screwed the first lab practise, because I'm too lack of self confidence.
That's me.
I tried so hard to act normal, because I thought I can go through this sudden down point on my own.
That's me.
I went to the ATM machine with no money back, because I've reach the limit.
That's me.
I reached home telling dad that I can't withdraw money but never ask him for money, because I was too shy to ask money.
That's me.
I want to be as independent as I can, because I'm the eldest of the family.
That's me.
I hold my tears until now, not letting them to beat me, because I've no shoulder to lean on.
That's me.

Don't ask me why I'm struck by this sudden down point.
I DON'T KNOW!
Leave me alone or you talk to me.

Just a little smile. =)

I'm smiling. A little. =)
I can't tell which part of me is wrong.
I seriously thought I was okay.
But, people around me say that I look different.
Quiet, restless.

Do I really look like that today?

Hmmmm...

I feel numb.

I don't know why.

I'm so lack of facial expression.

I need them back.

Maybe I should really concentrate on my APA revision now.

Maybe I should just go to bed.

Maybe I should start on my research for all the assignments.

Or...

Maybe I should leave everything until I feel better.

********

I am happy I am happy I am happy.

I was ask to repeat this.

And I repeated it for 3 times.

So yea, I am happy.

Am having smiley while I'm typing this.

=)

Not myself.

I lost my smile today.
Somehow, I just can't seems to lift myself for today.
Frustrated, impatient, pissed off.
Without any reason.

I so need someone, something to make me laugh.
And now I have Nigel, the youtube link he gave.
Youtube is serously loading damn slowly.
I really kesian him.
He was trying to make me smile, and I still look like this ---> -__-
No emotion at all.
Sorry, but I just can't help it.
I just can't smile.

And I thought chocolate bar would helps.
I finish the remaining quarter bar while watching to the video, and it does helps a little.
I laugh a little.

However, after the video and chocolate bar, I'm back to my old nanny face.
Means tak ada expression.
(=_=)
Sorry, wasted your energy and brain juice.

Ohh, I seriously DISLIKE Valentine!

Nothing.

Uugghh!
So tired after one whole day of walking with heels.
And I got nothing but some inner wear. =/
One whole day of walking wei...
Grrr....

I really wonder where are all those people from?
Like damn banyak orang in Pyramid!
Parking FULL until the top top floor!
So, we park at one side, illegal parking, right in front the No Parking signboard.
Lol.

Pyramid now is like HUGE!
No doubt.
More and more lala people.
No doubt too.
Pyramid's becoming like Sg. Wang.
Gosh!

******

I seriously hope that, after the CNY, everything will change for better.
Dam stress now.
I need job, desperately.
G2 K.L, please call me after the CNY!
Give me more job, so that I have some income.
Please please please~~

H.O.T!

Haha!
I had Nigel told me that Amrit says I look HOT in my new hair!
Lol.
Seriouly...
Me?
HOT?
Like never.
Darn.
Cannot sleep already tonight.

Nigel! It's all your fault now.
=p

How to make money?

I've finallly got myself a pair of black black heels!
And I've got FIRST CLASS service from a cute guy.
Seriously very good service from him.
Not like those lady promoters, all stand there like patung.
Not like that guy.
Hmph!

By the way, am so happy today!
Cause after 1 month of shoes shopping with empty hands back always, I finally get something I like.
Actually, I wanted my favourite white white!
But, no more size.
So, go for black black instead.
According to someone, black black more elegant.
Haha!

Will be going out with family tomorrow.
Don't even recall when was the last time we had family outing.
So, family bonding session tomorrow.
Will be doing some CNY shopping.
I so want to get a pair of jeans now.

*******

I'm so broke now with CNY coming along.
Hopefully, after CNY I can get some job la...
To cover up money I spent for CNY.
And...
Nic's concert is on the 29th of March, a Saturday!!!!
I so want to go for it!!
Anyone want to sponsor me?
Or teman me go there?
Lol.

Note : Start saving from now, or not no Nic's concert for me!

Cramps.

The cramps came back after I parked my car.
It got worst when I reached the campus.
Tried to ignore the pain when I was talking.
Can't even stand properly when Nigel ask to go lunch. (Nigel, now you know why la ya?)
Managed to brought myself to first floor to rest.
Hugging my big beg, I rest myself on the table outside the class.
I really really hate this!
Uugghh!!

*******

I seriously think, we only can produce good work at last minute. (We refer to me and my group members. Hehe.)
Like today, we have this Intro to Advertising presentation, and we still have nothing to present 1 hour plus before the class.
After lunch, we went to the lab and start our design of the ads page.
Surprisingly, we came out with a design in a very short time.
Then, rush to Seksyen 17 to print it out.
And the presentation went well.
Whee~ =)

I received a call from G2.
They asked me to work for this and next weekends.
RM80 per day.
So, 4 days = RM 320.
I rejected their offer.
And I regret now.
Money fly away just like that.
Heartache la...
I should have take the job.
Sigh.

*******

Stuck in the jam for one hour plus.
Reached home at 8.30pm.
Dinner = 2 buns and 1 cup of oatmeal.
That's all for today.

If you were me.

Don't feel like sleeping yet.
Still not done with the Intro to Advertising presentation.
Nothing was done.
Will have to wait until later.
Do the sketching with the rest.

I sent a message to someone.
Just a drop by message.
My love for a friend.
I care.

******

I still would love to share my story with my friend.
I'll still update my friend.
Even though, I don't get response at times.
It's okay.
Just some minor things in my life.
Just to let you all know.
That I'm doing fine.
Am I?
Haha.

Embarrassment.

SAE open day.
I was supposed to get some idea for the DJ presentation.
I reached there at 2 plus and was told I missed the best part.
Darn.

Next was some briefing on the software, FUSION.
The lecturer was showing on some editing work.
I was paying my full attention on that when I felt a sudden dizziness.
I ignored it.
Few minutes later, I can feel that my whole body getting numb.
I excused myself and walk out with Kelly.

What happen after that was the most embarrass thing in my whole life.
And I won't tell you here.

I left earlier without getting any information.
And I've learn a lesson from this.
Never ever go out on the 'FIRST DAY'!

I need more rest, seriously.

I was being a jakun yesternight.
It was since 10years ago since I really walking while hunting for food in a pasar malam.
Yea, it was pretty long time ago.
Ever since I moved to Subang, I think.
So pathetic. =S
The rest were laughing at my jakun-ness.
Walk around in the pasar malam reminds me of my childhood time, seriously wei!
Now, don't laugh!

Stayed up until almost 2 am to look for materials for Intro to Advertising presentation.
Found only one.
I wasn't feeling too well.
Thought I can take rest at night, but somehow I ended up tossed and turned the whole night.
So, this morning was dreadfully tired.

First class was the lamest ever Mr. Benjamin.
Like, uugghhh!!
Me, Mandy, Jyin spent our time talking about cosmetics products.
Girls' bonding session.
Lol.

During lunch time, we had discussion on the presentation.
And later on, when I was driving back home, I seriously hope that the traffic will just not that jam.
Really really sleepy and I can't drive any further with my heavy eyelids closing soon.
But, I managed to reach home safely. Hehe!
Took 2 hours nap.

******

Individual DJ presentation will be at week 6.
I'm in the first group, I think.
And I'm dam bloody lucky to get the lab equipments to broke down at this time being.
Now how am I going to practise?
Darn.

Rant on the history.

Streamyx was giving me problem yesternight.
I can't access to MSN and the I.E.
All I got was blank page and error.
After connect and disconnet and refresh for god knows how many times, I gave up.
Ke-lousiness.

I wanted to rant and rant and just rant about anything.
The half an hour news I watched yesternight updated me 2 cases of bomb attacks, the still lost Sharlinie, Lingam's video thingy and some other news which I couldn't really remember.
The world's is changing.
Yes, and there's no doubt about it.

Ever since the economy crisis in year 1997, the world seems to have a ulter change all of the sudden.
Many people were affected then.
Lost their jobs, their family, their properties, even their pride in certain.
Many rich people declared bankruptcy in just an overnight time.
People start thinking of alternative ways to make their living.
They cheap, they steal, and some of them do nothing but beg.

Then, it was until year 2001, the terrorist attack in United State.
More were affected and the world is no longer as peaceful.
Living under fear, the stress was unbearable.
War that started by just an order by the leader of country destroyed those poor people's home, land, and the Mother of Nature.
Booms everywhere.
People ran for their lives, and living in places that don't even have the basic facilities.
They were suffering.
And many lost their beloved family members just by all these stupid acts done by STUPID people, I would say.
That's why I hate politics!

And the case of the lost Sharlinie.
Wth!
Even kids also all these idiots interested in nowadys.
Kids lost their childhood by only locking in the house, staring at the square box, computer and etc.
They no longer have freedom to hang around the park with their friends when they are by themselves.
God knows when will those idiots come and kidnap them.
I pity them.

All these are non of my business, and I know clearly my rant will change nothing about this world.
I just feel so disappointed and sad and emo that I have to rant on all this history thingy.
I don't care!

I don't feel secure enough to stay in this world anymore...

I'm the poor cheese. =/

Dear Mr. N.J.P,

No, I won't be having my night thinking now!
Ish ish!
I'm heading to my bed after this.
Babi!
Lol.
Nights!

My mom bought me white white lace panties! =p

I thought I was lucky cause Grace informed me not to use Federal Highway.
A lorry was reported overturn and sand were all around the road, causing a BAD traffic jam. =/
Before heading to uni, I was supposed to drop by SS15 to pay for some bills.
I was being so smart and took the USJ 2 way.
Guess what?
I was trapped in that stupid road which I think shorter than the road along UTAR campus for like half an hour!
Wth!
There's one car broke down in the middle of the road and cause this traffic jam.
What is this man?
All pakat to cause traffic jam is it?

I reached the place about 45 minutes later which I usually take only 15 minutes to reach.
=.="'
And I can't find any parking.
I seriously feel so damn annoyed as those 'super hardworking' MPSJ fella taking their 'weapon' and start pointing at the double park cars.
Don't they have somthing better to do than going around like this?
Even housing areas cannot park?!
This is just too much!
Ish ish.
Geram!

By the time I reached uni, no more parking for me.
Then, I took the risk for being 'saman' by our dearest MPPJ fella.
Tapau mix rice for my lunch, and eat like 'hungry ghost'. >.<

I came home earlier than last Monday.
Daddy told me, earlier when they went to Seremban, mommy sapu a lot of gowns and dresses from one of the boutique.
Below is this conversation between me and daddy and mommy.

"Eh, your mommy today bought a lot of nice nice gowns when we went Seremban just now"
"Really? Very rich hor you all? Suddenly buy so many dresses for what?"
"Your mommy will be attending her company's Gala Dinner next week."
"Ohh... Eh, then got get me anything or not?"
"Got, a white white lace panties!"
"Sweat... =.="" "

"My, why suddenly buy for me white white lace panties?"
"Ohh.. No la. Just now that sales girl told me they are having sales now, quite cheap."
"How you know I wear this or not?"
"Hai ya.. Since now got sales, so I buy one for you in case next time you want but cannot find."
"........"

Make me so happy for a white white lace panties.
Not fair wei!
I also want to go shopping!
Those gowns and dresses are so damn cheap!

12-7pm.

Sometimes, I doubt with my own choice.
My studies, the course I'm taking now.
1 sem passed, and I still don't see myself in this field.
*heavy sigh*
My results wasn't as good as how I've expected.
My presentation, were all eleven hours jobs. I've never practise for my presentation, never bother to prepare a draft. It was all spontaneous and it always turns out to be a sucky one.
Uuugghhh!!!!

Oh please, let me get all the notes by next week, at least some of it.
Really have to bertaubat already.
I want to catch up with my studies!!

Tomorrow gonna be a super tiring day.
7 hours of class sure kill me straight!
Will be having my lunch earlier, more like brunch.
Wish me luck, people!

Japanese class.
Still struggling with the spelling!
Help me!

*faint*

Photo Shooting in IKEA.

Yea.
And I was 'cheated' by them for a photo shooting in some forest, that God knows where's the place.
I'm so gullible.
I know.
Ended up went IKEA.
Attracted people's attention for we were taking IKEA's showroom as our home.
=p

Sitting and lying comfortably.
Susan san was trying to cook something!
What you want? Don't kacau me shower la...
All with sleepy eyes.
Ying want me to take her pic. Hehe.
What's so nice there? The figures were too much! Our grandma told us some weird things.
I wonder what people think about us? Lol.
Just another part of the syok sendiri session. =p
Sipping the tea and palying with bear-bear. Relaxing moment. =)Back to kindi time.
See! My book! Hehe. It means think about, Alice! The 2 were trying to distract Celine.
I was left alone. =( With our cacated expression. =p For the most important people in the world! Whee!~~
Chilling around. ^^
I waited soo long for my turn.
Auntie choosing lamp. Hehe.
IKEA's lighting. So nice! But the price.....
Bump into Henley.

Group pic with Henley.

Today.

What I want to say is...
The Malaysia Cultural and Religious is so damn boring!
This lecturer must be a friend of Mr. Benjamin (Lecturer of Iintro to Mass Comm for last sem and Mass Media and Society for this sem.)
Both are equally the same.
Bored the students to death.
I got drowsy as she proceed on her lecture on the very first day we met.
So, I played with Wan Yi's handphone throughout the almost 2 hours class.
And we will be seeing Mr. Benjamin on this Friday.
I think.
I can predict the attendance of this 2 class for the coming 13 weeks.
*evil laugh*

Radio Broadcasting, I was wishing for an interesting lecturer, because I can't imagine a lecturer with his/her monotone lecturing in front.
Well... The lecturer was funny though.
Telling us stories of hers, her students and during her time in Taiwan and United States.
And assignments were given to us.
Just so interesting!

********

The media were all reporting about the shortage of cooking oil, which I don't quite actually get it.
Malaysia is like one of the main country that produce palm oil.
How can we possibly facing this kind of shortage all of the sudden?
I just don't get it.
So feeling like kicking those bunch of fat arss!
Hmph!

I need job.

And now I'm in the computer lab of Foundatation block.
Waiting for sis to finish class.
Boredom.

Went for Wisma Genting for the job interview.
My self introduction was sucks!
So short and cacat!
I don't know what I want to talk about myself.
Ci ci ci...
I wasn't alone.
There were 2 more guys from UM heard the whole thing.
Wonder what they were thinking?=/
My hair colour was not accepted by the company.
Hmmm...
How le?

Rain rain rain.
It's raining so heavily outside.
Another battle with the sky's tears later.

I want to get back home as soon as possible.
Because I'm hungry...
*stomach growling*

More suggestion?

I got myself a Kate's black gel eyeliner and Skin Food's black colour nail polish.
And I'm feeling content eventhough I never get anyclothing.
=)

Thanks everyone for 'answering' my survey!

Sleepy morning.

I got no class today.
But, I'm in uni, right now.
Waiting for the stupid Faculthy General Office to open!
So that I can return the mic that Ms. Yong passed to me yesterday to the so-call-handsome Michael?
Hmmm...
I think I know who is he.
The guy who speak so soft like an ant.
Lol.

Am feeling so sleepy now.
Only had around 4 hours of sleep.
Going shopping later.
Guitar class after that, not yet practise.
Uugghh!
Busy busy.....

New Year.New Sem.New Hairstyle. =)

*Sounds of the mobile drop on the floor*

Ops, my first day of uni started off with this clumsiness of mine.

Hehe.

I managed to get a parking, under a big big tree, with a lot of weird gabbage.

No choice.

The queue was until the entrance when Jyin and me enter the building.

3 things to collect for the admin department.

Results from last semester.

Tuition fees. =/

Exemption form.

After the loonngg 3 months, most of the girls change their hairstyle.

Long to short, short to long, curly to straight or curlier, straight to curly, no colour to colour, colour to no colour.

And most of the classmates were shock when they saw me with the super short and the oh-so-called-blue-highlight hair.

For me, seriously I don't feel anything at all when my almost waist long hair were chop to this short.

I feel so much relief indeed. =)

I received positive comments from the classmates, and I'm happy cause I've successfully prove the hair stylist was wrong saying that short hair don't suit me.

Hmph!

I was so semangat to attend the level 2 Japanese class with Jyin, Susan, Ying and students from Chinese Studies.

Susan once again attracted everyone's attention when sensei called her.

We were the 4 'illegal foreigners' from the Broadcasting.

Hehe.

And we don't have book, lucky thing sensei borrow us his book when doing exercises.

After class, 4 of us went to chit chat with sensei.

He was in Japan for 22days and just came back yesterday.

Christmas and New Year in Japan. How nice...

The lecturer for English for Mass Communication was quite easy going and open minded.

The class was interesting.

Just that it was until 7pm.

Jam kau-kau when come out from uni.

Went Jyin's place for dinner.

Reached home at 9.30pm.

Tiring.

Next week onwards, I'll have class straight from 12-7pm every Monday.

God bless.

Another credit about my short hair.

I LOOK CUTE WITH SHORT HAIR?

And I should know I'm CUTE?

Lol. Thanks!

Deep inside my heart.

Tomorrow.
It will be the day!
The day I'll be going uni and see all my friends back!
And I know, a lot of the girls change their hair style!
Can't wait to see them!
Hahahah!

This time back to hometown, I've seen a lot of things.
Experience of life.

Seen grandpa and one of his best friends never talk to each other for more than 8 years, and be friends back recently.
That's still a gap there though, they are not that close like how they used to be, just like me and that someone.
Scar of friendship.

Met the old lady next door.
She looked so different compare to the last time I saw her.
She's getting older and weaker.
When I saw her the other day, I was on my way back from morning walk.
I greeted her, she looked at me and ask who I am?
I told her I'm the one staying next door, then she still can remember my name!
I chated with her for a while before I went in to the house.
I used to be so afraid of her, she used to be very fierce.
People changed as time passed.

The villagers are getting lesser and lesser.
Left the eldest and the young ones all went to the town and city, to earn their livings.
The village is peaceful and quiet, but with a lot of doggies.
There's this doggie was trying to 'escort' me when I went for morning walk.
And seriously, I was kind of afraid doggie!
Doggie is a very loyal friend.

I stayed at home and watch TV til I tertidur and wake up again for this New Year.
No countdown outing for me.
Well... Kampung people are lead a healthy lifestyle. Hehe!
But, I do received smses from few of the long-time-no-see friends.
Warm wishes.

My grandparents fed me like a pig!
And so what I do is, I makan non stop, while watching TV.
Ekeke =p

Grandma called when I reached Subang.
She told me after my company for the past few days, being noisy and stuffs, now the house back to quiet.
She sounds sad when she said that, and I wanted to tell her that I felt the same, too.
I love them a lot alot!

The hair problem.

I got my Semester 2 timetable.
It just damn sucky wei.
I want my Semester 1 timetable back. =/
2 of the days I have to stay in uni until 7pm.
And I have 5 days of classes compare to 4 days of Semester 1.
Sob sob. ='(
And 1 of the day I only go uni for 3 hours, 4-7pm.
Wth!
People after class, we only start class.
Darn.

I just came back from hometown this evening.
The family were quite surprise with the new hairstyle.
But, their reaction were not as how I expected.
*phew...*

However.
The problem now is, the colour turns to another colour.
So, I have to go back before CNY.
To fix the problem.
Ish ish.
So mafan.
I think...
After this, I won't do it in a mean while.
Not fun at all!
It caused me headache! =S

And I thanks my babe, Yee for the company during the whole session!