Sickening attitude.

I am so so so EMO now!
Hmph!
I mean please la, we are going out in a big group.
Don't fucking order something, if you yourself don't really want to eat it.
I don't know is that supposed to be a culture of yours or what so ever, but, from the first time you show your face, I've decided that I DON'T QUITE LIKE YOU!
I know that was quite rude of me.
I know maybe it was just me being too sensitive.
Any of you who know what am I talking about, please don't comment anything.
I know I'm that kecil hati wtf.

I don't know la, but I was just so emo when seeing someone being so the watthefucksothebabibanana!!
Haiya, whatever la.
I don't wish for that particular face to appear in the next gather around.
Yes, I am so kecil hati like that!

*************
On the other hand, I officially ban Pizza Hut in Subang Parade and Sunway Pyramid!!!
I ban the one in Sunway Pyramid long time ago.
That was once when I went with Peng during lunch time.
It's okay with the crowded place, I mean it's lunch time, we can't expect much.
Slow service is still acceptable, but then staff who are wasting my time and make me lose my appetite are not something I can accept.
I myself worked before in this service line, and whatever customers asked and want, the service staff should try and get for the customer.
This does not happen in Pyramid's Pizza Hut.
I remembered I was asking the service staff for a new bottle of chili sauce as the previous bottle was almost empty.
I waited for quite some time before I saw the same service staff and ask him again.
He then told me to shake the bottle harder then the sauce at the bottom will flow out or something like that, he show me how to shake somemore.
Hello? You think I'm so dumb until don't know how to shake is it?
At the end also he himself cannot shake out anything.
WTF. What kind of lousy services Pizza Hut provided to the customers?
Moving on to the Pizza Hut in Subang Parade, also lousy services.
We were asking one of the service staff (Note: He's a Malay.) to arrange 8 pax of seats for us.
He looked at us as though we are speaking some tamil, we repeated so many times, we need 8 seats til later on we have to use our greatest Bahasa Kebangsaan and tell him LAPAN, only he start moving inside and show us the seat which can only fit in 6 of us.
=_______________="
Nevermind about that, next, I saw potential tables to combine to 8 seats.
So, of course we move there.
Then, we were left to arrange our own seat and that waiter already gone, nowhere be seen.
*faints*
We weren't given any menu on the tables, so as usual I raise my hand asking for menus.
This waitress came to me and asked, 'order?'.
WTF YOU CANNOT SEE MY TABLE GOT NO MENU ISIT? HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO ORDER WITHOUT MENU?
-________________________-
Now I'm wondering, what for the service charge that we are paying them?
Lousy services, in fact most of the time we have to self service.
What is Pizza Hut management doing?
Shouldn't you people start doing something?
Please improve the services la, for goodness sake.

I dam EMO dy.

I know I damn bodoh but don't scold me bodoh now.

Wtf.

I feel like crying now.
I am BODOH.
WTF WTF WTF.

Huh?

I don't know what's with this time that involve yelling and crying, but, I'm sure it's not something good.
What kind of operation is needed to be done?
Why isn't anyone tell me about anything?
Sigh.

I hate it when I'm left behind with only question marks as my company...

Its so quiet now, that only TV and fan are making noise crying for attention.
Where's all the human is the house???

Why so serious?

My medication for the next 3 days.
YuckS!
Pahit pahit pahit!

2 days without properly sleep is torturing.
Woke up several times in the dark looking for the cloth that was suppose to cover my itchy face, then back to sleep before I woke up another time in different position doing the same thing again.
So many times, I want to cry wtf.
Cause, my face feels so ithcy and pain and my lips was so dry with cracks here and there.
How to sleep like that, you tell me...
Sobsob.
T________________T

Tomorrow got presentation.
I seriously have to no idea how am I going to talk properly.
Somemore the presentation gonna conduct in BM.
=S
Can I just go and bang the wall?

I'm craving for chocolates now...

Miss.

Guess who added me in my abandoned Facebook?
Guess guess guess!
Faster guess la.....

JENG!

JENG!

JENG!

TEDDY BEH!
One of my top 3 favourite lecturers in UTAR after Ms. Mai and Rajan sensei.
Mr Beh Chun Chee, the Broadcasting II lecturer, funny, lame, sarcastic and etc.
The lecturer who laugh so hard during our MV proposal, purposely sound as though our idea has been rejected, keep on reminding us not to give him Hong Kong gangster show.
And, he looks a bit like Beng.
Hohoho!

I digress.

Now, I just can't wait to show him our MV.
Want to see his 'za dou' look, cause we change a little of our idea.
Hehehe!

*******************
I'm feeling kind of drowsy now. @@
I think is due to I keep on breathing in the wine and wine biscuit which was applied near my nose and chin.

Alice Chua currently looks like an alien, with her swell up lips and rashes chin.
She don't know what is the name of that stupid virus that choose to land on her lips making her feeling so pathetic.
She cannot eat as fast as usual.
Her mom cooks curry chicken and she cannot eat.


I think, the lack of sleep last week caused the break down of the body immune system.
Rashes attack is back.
I'm scratching like a real monkey.


Am supposed to go for a movie date with the bf.
My face, please get better by tomorrow.
I don't want to disappoint the bf cause he wanted to watch THE DARK KNIGHT so much so much so much!
And me too, after what everyone commented about that show.

It's almost 11pm now.
Currently waiting for the bf to finish his shoot and reply my message, then off to bed I am.
Just let me manja for a while...
I'm missing my bf...

First first first!

Doctor said its virus infection.
He gave me one tube of gel, Aloclair Gel.
Apply 2 to 3 times a day, then leave it there for an hour, no drinking and eating for that 1 hour. (I din follow wtf, I can die without water for that long.)
That tiny tube cost me RM17.20.
Its quite effective, though.
No more skin peeling, no more disgusted yellow water, no more brown brown skin.
But then, its now 10 times more pain than when I soak the lips with the salt water when I brush my teeth.
Toothpaste according to the boyfriend is alkali, so maybe react with the gel earlier, that's why so dam bloody pain til my tears almost come out.

Pain pain.

T_________________T

On the other hand, today during my visit to Sunway Medical Centre, I saw alot of different people with different of background.
Their management there is not as nice as I can see.
I spent more than half an hour to this department and that department just to get 1 tube of gel.

While waiting for my turn to settle payment, there's this uncle who was fire-ing the hospital staff for mistake his payment for treatments.
I saw one little boy crying cause he feeling the pain from his tummy and birdbird after the operation. His eye lashes even longer than Mohan! He's a chinese btw, first time I see chinese boy with such long eye lashes, even longer than a girl! Besides, he's extremely fair! However, seeing him cry reminds me of my own bro who went through 7 times of operation.
Of course, there are still friendly hospital staff.


After hospital visit, I went to pyramid to shop around.
Got my first ever flats in my whole entire life! *big wet eyes*
RM19.95 from Nose. Hehehe!
And and and, I got a free t-back from the bra I bought.
Wtf.

Disgusted version of Angelina Jolie's lips.

I don't know what is wrong with my lips.

It was few weeks back when the right corner of the lips was feeling itchy with small tiny pops.

Then, last Friday, it started to get bengkak.

Saturday, it started to have burning and dry feeling, at the same time skin start peeling.

Sunday, skin turn brown

*Me fell asleep halfway typing this*

Monday, in uni, lips was so fugly with the dry brown skin. Have to cover cover.
Tuesday, continue the fugly-ness. At night, soak lips with salt water. Very the pain I tell you, I can even see my lips pounding when I go near to the mirror. =/

My left foot pulak, kena red ant bite again during the production week.
This time no bengkak like the previous two times, but then bengkak 1 hard thingy at the ant bite.
Itchy....
I don't know why red ants love my left foot so much? Everytime also bite left foot.
RAWR!

My left middle finger also malang.
You tell me la how can someone off balance when sitting down and bend her middle finger nail on the cushion and start bleeding.
=_____________="

I'm getting lazy to blog.
Will blog about my MV production week once I have mood to blog again.

Sayonara!

Everyone is so stress up.

=(

I can drop dead... Like now.

I din get to nap also at the end.

Helped to do some left over.

After everything was done, it already 5.50, time to get ready for uni.

T_____________T



Daddy woke up and asked why I woke up so early, by myself.

I smile at him.

He then asked again have I brush my teeth.

I keep smiling only.

He went to my bedroom and checked.

Then, he asked if I din go to bed for the whole night.

Yea, I replied.

There you go, he started nagging.

He went to tell mommy about it.

There you go, she also started nagging.

They are my parents.

Heeee...

I went to uni after that, my head was feeling so heavy and I feel like whole body was floating.

Susan also got the same problem.

I thought I can tumbang in Mr. Beh's class for 2 hours, but at the end I tumbang less than an hour. (I do listen to him just that today too tired. Sorry Mr. Beh =p)

Surprisingly I don't feel that tired, in fact, I was more hyperactive than usual.

I talk more and louder and walk also like some kids like that.

=_____________="

**********

Today, the superhardworking MBPJ people come and give feed our cars with more and more summons.

I was in Communication Theory tutorial trying to concentrate to classmates presentation when the bf suddenly called and tell me the summon squad is in the town wtf.

I thought sure my car kena dy but then no harm go check.

I wasn't running that fast.

From far I was searching for my own car, cause I was blur like that cannot see properly.
I saw our dearest super hardworking dude scanning the plat numbers 2 cars in front of my car.
I ran as though the dinosaur was chasing from behind and started to feel dizzy and my legs are getting numb and going to cramp to my car and on my engine and vroooomm to the Jaya One parking.
Heck!
Have to spend for parking fees.
Hmph!

After class, I texted Mr. Beh to confirm that he received our hardwork, the pre-production report.
I got his reply.
"Yes. Thank you and good luck in your shoot. Remember, no hong kong gangster film ok. Haha."
Swt.....
=="
Nevermind,we shall take that as a challenge.

*********
Went to watch Journey to the Center of the Earth.
Yesss. The 3D film.
The last time I watch 3D film was during standard 6, class trip to Singapore.
It's been 9 years.
I still remember how me and my friends being so jakun trying to catch the animated little bee when it was flying towards us.
Hahaha.
Anyway, the movie was not bad.
And you know what?
I discover something.
No subtitle in the whole entire movie!
Isn't this a great discovery wtf?
Lol.
I think, maybe they afraid that the subtitle will distract audience.
Hmmmm....
Then, the screen in GSC too small la, that's why the effect not that good.
As for the 3D specs, I prefer the old style cardboard type though, cause the canggih plastic 3D specs was much too big for me.
Hehe.

Heavy.

Hello World!
Good Morning World!

Its 5 something in the morning!
I am still awake.
Just finish doing a.k.a rushing my Pre-production report.
Am waiting for Susan to connect and send her the report then I can go to take my nap before I wake up in half an hour time.
Class will be at 8am later.

Okay, I' done sending her the report.
Time to nap.

Goodnight World!
=D

I don't like.

I tell you stupid Police Diraja and MBPJ!
UTAR students are not that rich to pay all the summons you all gave us!
RAWR!
Bloody hell, if we got parking then we won't even double park.
Let's not talk about double park...
The whole 13/6 streets, only got like, the most also 30 parkings which have yellow boxes, the rest of the cars usually park along behind the white lines.
Yesterday, even white lines get summons.
Thanks to Chan for inform me about the summon attack.
I was rounding around till those stupid MBPJ people went off.
Wasted my petrol and I have to off engine and wait in the car to save petrol.

UTAR student rep who claimed you got ways to deal with MBPJ about the summon issue,
Please settle this asap, I damn sick of this already.
RAWR!

Just don't feel like me.

Thanks Puiks for the super nice Multimedia Tools notes!
Thanks Xiaochin for the hamster chocs!
I desperately need them right now.

*******
This morning was the second time BC1 students caused the lecturer/tutor walked off from the class.
First was Ms Mai, during a lecture class in Year 1 Sem 1.
Second was Ms Tianne, during a tutorial in the morning.
It's not easy to handle when there're too many girls in one class. I guess.

*******
A teacher in the high school passed away last Tuesday.
I. Just.Found. Out.
He never teach me before, but still the impact is in me now.
Another life and death story.
Life is so unpredictable.
=(

*******
Scrolling through the MSN list, I need to talk to someone.
Staring at a few names, I don't know who I can talk to.
Listening to S.H.E - How are you lately.
Who wants to listen to my story?

Just don't feel like me.
If you understand how I feel now, talk to me, hold me close to you, hug me tight, sayang me.
I'm not as strong.
I'm still that fragile.

I. Feel. Like. Hanging. Myself. Upside. Down.
Someone. Please. Tell. Me. How. To. Digest. Six. Weeks. Of. Communication. Theory. In. Just. Four. Hours. Time.

*Bang!*

I'm a kaki pan mee.

Today was a sad day.
Lol.

Went to uni in the morning for Broadcasting II class.
After class, me and Grace were supposed to interview Ms. Sageena for the Moral assignment.
She was busy setting questions for midterm and hence asked us to look for another lecturer or change date.
Sad.
By the time I text the bf, he has already reach KL.
Sad.
I have to eat lunch alone.

In order to spice up the dull and sad day, I went for pan mee in the old place.
The price still the same, the ingredients still so banyak minus the ikan bilis, the meat so banyak so banyak.
I ate so slow so slow.
Feeling happy and content and I texted my long-time-no-see-used-to-be-and-still-will-be-kaki-pan-mee.
Told him about the pan mee and he said he almost 2 years din go there to eat.
See la..
I still remember the last time we went there and eat.
2 years back, before Math tuition.
Isn't time fly like...
Wtf I feel so old now.
=_____________="

Anyway, anyone got any nice pan mee place please please please intro bagi tau.
Craving for more yummy-licious pan mee.
*slurp*
=)'''

Then, evening time when mommy asked to collect clothes.
Someone passed by my house.
Guess who?
Yea, my long-time-no-see-used-to-be-and still-will-be-kaki-pan-mee.
I din see him, but mommy is the one who saw him in the car and asked me about his car number plate.
Hahaha!
For the first time, mommy is more observent than me.
How can?
I'm known for my observent and got potential to become private investigator wan okay?
But please not like the Subramaniam la..
I don't want later one day have to cabut/M.I.A/die not knowing what happen?
Wtf.
I'm bored.
RAWR!!!!!!

Bf oh bf, where are yooouuuuu???????
(Bf watching tv don't want to layan me)
Okay, TV3, NTV7, 8TV please stop showing nice English shows.
I want my bf back.
T________________T

Someone please spice up my dull day?
*biggest wet eyes in the whole entire world*

I'm a kaki pan mee.

The pain of growing up

I don't feel like talking much to anyone.

I feel alone.
Mentally alone.
The feeling has long gone and now its back.

I remember how I long for university life.
Freedom. New lifestyle. New identity. New friends. Studying my dream course.
Everything seems perfect back then.

I have friends. I thought.
I trust everyone.
I try helping whenever I can.
But, Broadcasting field is not that pretty after all.

Yesterday, when meeting up with old friends, I had this conversation with Weijiin.
He currently taking mass comm too.
He agreed with the fact that its difficult to put your trust to anyone in mass comm field.

I'm losing my trust to people around.
I hate that alot.
Friends, for me, I put my trust to all of them.
But, I've often get back stabbed at the end.
How pain is that?
Seriously, words couldn't describe it.

I'm feeling lonely in my university life.
So many times, I ask myself, should I just give up?
It's tiring to put on pretending face sometimes to people you know who isn't sincere to you.

I don't know who to tell my story to?
I don't know who can I trust?
I don't know who hate me but pretend to be nice to me?
I don't know how long can I stand?

I guess.
I care about others too much til most of the time I ignore my own feeling.
I missed the time back to the carefree me, the innocent happy little girl who runs around happily.

I wish.
I can turn back the time.....

What will happen to me?

I just found out today about a senior's gf passed away in the Konsortium Penang bus accident.
Few weeks back, Celine was telling me her friend passed away in the tragic.



I don't know.
I just feel so down now.
The bf asked to not take others' problems to myself.
He got his point.

I don't know.
Recently, I've been thinking alot about life and death kind of issue.
Always ended with really depressed feeling or sometimes the urge to cry out loud.
I have fear in me.


I remembered once when he told me about his background story.
Tears stream down straight away, and cannot even stop.

I never encounter the lost of the loved one, but I do really know it certainly is a terrible, heart pain feeling.
I dread for that day, but I know, sooner or later, I'll still have to face it.

I don't know.
The fear is getting stronger.


I know myself well that, mental break down will be one of it.

I may be the girl who smile so happily, I may be laugh so loudly, I may be the girl who annoy you the most.
But...
I'm the girl who care about you, I'm the girl who love everyone, I'm the girl who just hope to spread her happiness to everyone.

Pre-production

A super late update about the pre-production last week.

First time ever I drive back to hometown, and believe it or not, I never know the exact way to go back hometown for the past 20 years.
So, I lost the way in the middle of the journey and had to call daddy for help.
We reached safely though.

5 if us squeeze inside my little kelisa and I drove with 60km/hr. Lol.


Upon our arrival, grandma prepared so many many food for us.
Practice some scene for while.

Susan and Jyin practising one of the scenes.


Celine loves UTAR so much. =p


The first task was to look for kids talent.
Grandma has already get all the kids contact numbers from the kindy teacher and called one by one.
Grandma is so nice.
*big wet eyes*

Kids there are hyperactive.
Cannot sit still. Asking them sit still is like killing them.
We were busy keeping them to calm down while waiting for their turn.
After all the Q & A session, we found 2 kids that look a little similiar with our main characters.

Kids A.


Kids B.


Busy asking kids to do some running.

This little girl was busy running around.
So cute.
huhu ^^


Kids A and kids B playing basketball.


Went to a uphill.
The staircase to go up was so long.

Saw the goat family on the way back.

Or isit sheep?
I don't know.

Went to cut hair after that.
The rest were too bored waiting for me, and they went out to camwhore.

We wanted to take some sunrise pics but we overslept.

Breakfast was awesome.
Grandparents bought extra dishes from the market.
Tofu, char siew, siew yuk.


Hokkien mee and Cantonese mee bihun from the coffeeshop.

5 of us had to finish everything, or not my grandpa said cannot go back.
T_____T
We din manage finish eating also at the end.


We were taking video around when grandma passby and show us peace sign. V^^
Awww, I love my grandma. =)


The baby girl in the coffeeshop.


Swing swing outside the coffeeshop with Susan.

Afternoon we reached PJ and meet up with both of our main characters.
One of them is Wu Zun.


Lol. Okay, kidding only.
Introducing Ivan!
He does look like Wu Zun laaaa..
And he's a super gentleman!


Introducing Shyan!!
Very funny guy with so much initiative.
Thanks for helping!


Both of them coincidentlywore black on that day.

Ronald came to visit Mc'Donalds in section 14 during our meeting.

We even got a postcard with our name and his signature.

Don't ask us why we so lucky wtf.
Everything goes well so far.
Thanks grandma for settle all the administration thingy for me.
Thanks to our both gentlemen.
Thanks to all the groupies.
Can't wait till the production week!

Oh, oh... We caught some butterfly flying around during location searching.

Cheers!!!

I just feel like saying WTF.

It was on Monday, me and the bf went to Berjaya Times Square for the interview of some modeling job.
I know la, me and modeling is like 2 different thing.
But they said they need short and slim girl, so I thought why not give a try and drag the bf to teman incase got anything.

We reached the place way earlier and waited for almost half an hour before the person incharge came to the food court.
We were told that the interviewer was having meeting and will delay the interview.
Since we came so far for the interview, so I agreed on waiting la.
Then, we sat down at the food court and start talking a bit when he suddenly asked the bf to send resume and bla bla bla.
He left us there for a while after he picked up one call.
For few times, he went and back.

Someone called and said my pics not clear, so he asked us to go to one corner at the food court to take pics, with his PDA phone.
=____________=
At first, everything seems to be okay, he was just taking normal pics.
After that, he started to ask me sit on stairs, open my legs so big and asked me to fold my skirt.
He focused so much on my bottom till I think he took my undies pic more than my face, that's when I realize something wrong (yea, I'm that slow.)
I asked him why focus so much on my bottom?
He said is overall not only bottom, and, I BELIVE HIM!
Wtf tell me why I so stupid wan? T_____________T

Then, he started asking me and bf to pose. Intimate pose.
We followed his order.
RAWR.
Don't ask me why.
I was supposed to go for some tennis club model search thingy, but end up in the food court.
Not enough for that.
He later brought us to some brighther place near one lif, where nobody will go there.
Continue asking us to pose.
What happen next, really make us feel so stupid now.
He HUGGED me from behind and so tight even the bf also mulut buka besar-besar.
I'm not being racist or what la...
But, one fucking Indian guy with big belly was hugging me like that, and we just stoned there.
I think Both of us were WTF-ing all the way after the meet up.

The next day, he sms inform that we were selected for the job and asked to go for another photo shooting on Thursday at 6pm.
Now, he always set the time at after office hour.
I was asking for the change of timing, but he din reply after that.
The bf then straigh away asked to turn down the job.
Oh ya, I forgotten..
The second so-called-photo-shooting, he wants me to wear tube and mini skirt that can be lipat.
Damn celaka!
He seriously think that we so dumb wtf.
Told him uni don't let and need to go through some procedure, he some more offered to send letter, asked us don't give up.
=______________="
The bf then straight away tell him, we are not interested in working already.
Lol.
*Bang!*

In the evening, dad asked about the interview.
When I tell him is a job from Berjaya Group, his reaction damn kau big then he started nagging and tell me some inside story.
Wtf, damn scary wei.
Lucky thing I turned down the job dy.

But then, all my undies pics with that Indian big belly guy.
Shit la I tell you, the more I think, the stupider I feel.
If there's a day if you happen to see my undies pics being circulate around, you know why la ya.
I think I need to dig a hole and hide my face la wtf.

Speaking of which, Berjaya Group got my contact from UTAR office.
Tell me, what the fuck are all these UTAR officer thinking?
How can they give students' contacts simply to some unknown people?
This is our P & C.
WTF I feel like complaining to the student council or UTAR.
But I doubt there's anyone will layan me.

The 4th month.

Today is the 1st of July.
The 4th month for the 2 of us.
I just realize we never take pictures for the past one month.
Too many things happened and we weren't in goodie mood most of the time.
Nevermind about it.

Now, since I've got no pics of both of us.
I will post some camwhore with the 4th month pressie pics.
Dear's LOVE IS THE MESSAGE black tee, which he wore yesterday.
He said he purposely wear dy then give it to me, with his sweat and perfume smell. =.="
Lol. Actually I wanted the tee when I saw him wearing it yesterday.
And he read my mind!
HAPPY!
=D

My rabbit teeth and small eyes.

LOVE IS THE MESSAGE.

Hmmm....