I just want to hide myself in the safe zone.

First, it was Japanese B Encephalitis Virus (JE) around 1999.

Then, it was Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome (SARS) around 2004,

Now, it is Swine Influenza attacking the human.

What is happening to this world?

Why are this flu that flu found every now and then, and take away thousands of lives just like that?

Should human be the one who responsible for all these?

Was watching the evening news and honestly I got freaked out a little.

The number of death is increasing and it might lead to mass death around the world.

No vaccine is invented so far to cure this babi flu.

And it is spreading like damn fast to 9 countries of Europe, Asia already.

As if the wave of economic tsunami is not bad enough to the world.

With this wave of babi flu, the world market is affected to the max.

I can't help thinking about the future world.

How will the world looks like in the next 5 year?

Is the world really going to end at year 2012?

Will I be able to get job after graduation?

What has gotten into my mind that I'm being such paranoid?

Wuwu.

T_______T

On another unrelated note, my lower lip got one spot of purple-ish bruise.

I is scared. ==

Please just let it be some random come-and-go bruise.

I don't want to look ugly wtf. 

So emo laaaaa...

One shall not remain silent if that's the case.

(Click to look at the clearer picture)

Look at this stupid bill also I feel dam emo dy.

Hello UTAR?

For your information, the Y2S3 Broadcasting students are going for internship next semester.

What's with the other fees section?

Especially the exam and facility fee, freaking RM300!

We won't be in the uni also charge us for what wtf?

Activity and services fee for RM100?

Sorry but I don't see what kinda services UTAR provided to us lo.

Lousy management maybe?

That you shouldn't even charge us please.

Resource centre fee for RM200?

Please la... What kinda resource centre we have in UTAR?

The last petition cancelled off some unnecessary fees and we were happy for 1,2 sems.

But, it looks like this semester UTAR decided to charge us kaukau with all the other fees.

I know I know.

Economy tak bagus.

That doesn't mean UTAR can charge us like this okay?

It's time for another petition.

You wait, UTAR!

Babies rocks my world.

"Pushy cat.... Bushy cat... Lalala (insert Japanese sound alike baby language)"

I heard the little girl next door singing the song when I was hanging clothes.

The song supposedly sound like 'pussy cat... pussy cat... (insert the lyrics)"

I laughed.

Not because of her wrong pronunciation, but her cute-ness and how she is so naive.

And when she called her daddy, she spoke Cantonese like bullet train.

"Papa, what time you coming back? Ohh, you in Ikea? What time you coming back to bring me there? Got offer there la..." (in super fast speed wtf)

I don't even know what's Ikea and sales when I was 3, 4 year-old.

And I can't even speak that fast in Mandarin.

Anyway, what's with this CRM la?

It's driving me crazy.

I can't remember a single thing and I'm not done with the revision and I still can blog.

=________="'

Okay.

Time for dinner.

Wish me goodluck.

Bye. 

Real or Not Real?

I have this thought struck my mind this afternoon, when I was refilling water.

Nigel seems so unreal to me.

I mean, is he the imaginary bf that I created wtf?

I don't know.

It just hit me like that.

LOL.

Revision doesn't go as smooth.

Oh well, procrastination is acting up.

When pepper and salt shaker mixed together.

How can both things mix together as one?

They are meant to be put separately.

Maybe... Maybe a divider should be place between pepper and salt.

So, customers who hates the taste of pepper won't mistake pepper as salt and customers who hates the taste of salt won't mistake salt as pepper.

Shop manager is being too insensitive.

She expects the customers to differentiate pepper and salt through the tiny holes.

3 holes is for salt, 5 holes is for pepper.

Little did she knows, not many customers how to differentiate.

When pepper and salt is being mixed up, the dishes will turn out different taste, then customers will not like the taste.

Shop manager will be blame for not labeling the pepper and salt shaker.

Chef's effort in the dishes gone wasted.

The dishes was good.

It has its own unique taste, a hint of love in it.

Most importantly, the effort that the chef put in it.

It just that, the pepper and salt shaker placement that ruin the taste.

That caused the chef in thinking that dishes is not good.

That caused the chef loses the confident.

All chefs have their own way and skills to make the dishes taste good.

And so do you.

I can't do much because I is the stupidest and laziest person in this whole entire world.

No la, I'm not.
Because if I am, the other stupid and especially lazy people already long gone in this fast pace city.
You get what I mean?

I love it when my work that I put effort in turn out to be a GOOD piece of art.
I hate it when my work that I put effort in turn out to be a LOUSY piece of art.

A perfectionist will never think that his/her work is good enough.
They will always pick at the fine details and try to improve their work to as flawless as they could.
A perfectionist will never leave their work just cause of some lame excuses.
'I'm feeling very tired already', 'I think it's good enough already', 'I think no need to do until so perfect wan', 'Nevermind la, ask others to do for me',etc and call it a day.

A perfectionist is like the bf.
The way he's being so picky with his editing, his screenplay, his production and in all his works is one of the reasons I admire him and that one thing is what I should learn from him.

Yo boy!
I really really love the master-piece from your side.

It's a matter of time.

I always think that...
Internship is the ruler to measure if one is suitable to be in the Broadcasting field.
Now, with the confirmation from the senior, I really want to know how certain people are going to pull through the process.

Self-centered with conservative mind set can never go far in this field.
All the best.

Dream and Reality.

Been hearing bout the news of the Somali Pirates.

I wonder...
How do those pirates look like?

Are they like Johnny Depp in Pirates of the Caribbean?

Or some gentleman in formal suit?

What are the reason behind them being the pirates?
How nice if I can shoot a documentary about pirates.
The life of pirates.
Sounds interesting eh?
LOL.

Impressed by my patience. Alice, where are you?

To go back to the lovely hometown, where my dear grandparents are.

To be their company.
To escape from this ugly city.

Am sick. Really sick.

First Time Ever.

Was watching the Formula 1 Malaysia yesterevening.
Seriously, fail kau-kau.
=__________=
First time in the record the drivers never complete their race.
Look at the rain, dam heavy like don't know what.
Kesian all those 'ang mohs' become wet wet under the rain.
Me watching from home keep having broadcast interruption, whereas the drivers all race with instructions from the main control centre.
Wtf no wonder so many of them lose control halfway or bang their cars.

********
I'm feeling so lazy and so not motivated and emo and blablabla.
Lacking of inspiration.
Lacking of self discipline.
Failsssss~~~~

Qing Ming Day

Yesterday was the first time in my whole entire 21 years going for 'Qing Ming'.
*big wet eyes*

I've always wanted to go for 'Qing Ming', but the adults always don't let us the kids go when we were way younger.
As the eldest in the family, I really think I should keep this custom.
Wahhh... sounds so the old.

Woke up at 5 ish to go back hometown, reached there at 8 ish.
Bumped into a childhood bestie when I reached the graveyard.
Actually nothing much I can do there, but I did help to repaint the words and clean the area abit. (I don't know what you call that la)

'Met' the great grandpa, great grandma and granduncle for the first time.
Found out that the grandpa lose his parents since he was 3 year-old and couldn't find where his parents were buried till now. ><

Cockroach carried by a lot of red ants. *geli*

Taken from great grandpa's.

I don't know about the rest.
But I know more about my own family history through this 'Qing Ming'.
Everyone should go for 'Qing Ming'!

Okaythankiubyebye!

-致敬-

风凉习习地吹，
花一朵朵地掉，
叶一片片地落，
夕阳远远地看着，
这一幕。

泪一滴滴地流，
雨也渐渐地大，
人一堆堆地集，
在你悄悄离开的，
那一刻。

哭声此起彼落，
感叹越来越多，
思念愈来愈深，
在你离开我们的，
那瞬间。

歌一首首地播，
戏一部部地放，
关于你的一切，
在你留给我们的，
回忆中。

-爱丽诗之作-

不是真正的。

真的很想狠狠的大发脾气一次。
请容许我这么任性，就这么一次。
一大清早就被作弄。
牺牲睡眠到了学校却被告知可取消。
算了，干脆再步行到PC。
提着那重重的手提电脑和包包，一个人走着走着。

到了PC，一个人在editing room呆了2个小时多。
冷得一直在抖。
情绪已经跌到最低点。
过后，再被告知我被耍。
火气简直飚到最高点。
要是让我知道哪个王八蛋白痴智障拿这种玩笑来开，我真的会过去踹他一脚。
根本是玩到没有东西玩。
不要上课，请靠边站。
我的家没有很靠近，没办法和你癫。

1年1个月在不愉快的情况下，过了将近3/4天。
是我时间分配的不好。
答应了一起吃午餐，结果却让他吃白果。
我也很饿，也很难过、不开心。
但是，我都只有把情绪收起来，因为根本没暇时理会。
一个人在将近5点吃着街头汉堡，唇内侧的水泡痛的哇哇叫。
我并不可怜，但我真的很不开心。

我真的很讨厌没把自己本分做好的人。
为什么总是认为别人会帮你完成你的本分而不加以努力？
为什么总是找借口推卸责任？
为什么总是浪费时间做些有的没的？
我也很累，很彷徨,很无助。
所需顾虑的，扛的责任不比任何一个人来得少。
可以不要一句‘对不起，我不会，我不知道’，就把责任推个一干二净吗？

是我沉静得太久了吗？
大家是否都不再察觉我的存在？
我是不是渐渐的迷失方向？

如果哭能解决问题，我也很想试一试。

The Biggest Joke Ever.

It is not when you reach uni early in the morning just to find out that the class is cancelled on the AprilFool.
It is not when you're rushing some important task alone knowing the rest are sleeping on their bed in the wee hour.
It is not when you're left alone here when the rest have already move on.
It is not...

6 years ago.
That very night when I overheard the news about about not being able to see him anymore, I thought he was going to retired or step down from the entertainment field.
Turn out he really jump down from that hotel to end his life.

I'm not really a crazy fan of his.
But, he is one of the singers who I listen to and the actor who I admired.
It is when I listen back to those old songs and watch back those movies he acted, only that I found out that he was part of my childhood.

Human is a very weird being.
They don't usually know how to appreciate, they take things for granted.
It is when they lose the person/thing forever, only that they will regret and hope for another chance just for that person/thing to return to them.
I was one of those in this case.

AprilFool is totally a different day for me.
Its no longer about how you fool people around.
Its more to listening to his songs and think of all those little little pieces of childhood memories for me.

Below are few clips which are my favourites.

Happy Leslie Day!