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It has always been my dream to write the story about the pentagon.
And for this time, I'm getting the chance.
Pentagon.
Part of my life. The journey. Footprints left by them.
Eventhough the shores washed off the footprints, the impacts are still there.
Questions are left unanswered.
Drama? Romance?
What's hiding under the mask?
I got to sleep for like freaking 12.5 hours!
Lol.
So, it was Earth Hour yesternight.
My family was one of the very few houses around my area that joined.
How sad.
Houses that hardly on any light suddenly become so semangat and switch on their lights instead of switching them off.
=______________="'
Daddychua gave me the honor to switch off the lights at home when its 8.30pm haha.
That 1 hour of darkness.
I wanted to go outside for star seeing.
But, when I look up the sky.
It was disappointing.
Cause the sky was orange-ish color like those you get when the sun rise. -.-
Why la you tell me why is the sky become this kinda color?
T______T
After that 1 hour, I become damn sleepy and went to sleep at 1030 wtf.
The End.
It's always better to depends on ownself than others.
I've got nothing to lose.
Tonight will be another sleepless night.
Another burn oil session.
Another headache time.
Due date is tomorrow.
Research is not done.
Report is not finalize yet.
Midterm is tomorrow, too.
Don't even have time to look at it, yet.
Can someone give me superpower?
The bf just edit it to landscape.
Which one nicer?
Lol.
Me - 'Random is nice.'
Bf - 'Ah, gf menggoda aku.'
Sam - 'Hot!'
Susan - 'Your pics scare me'
PeiZhi - 'Relax. Natural. Comfortable.'
Tell me what you think about ma pics.
Heh.
Maybe I'm too skinny.
The grandma gave me RM20 but RM10 to the sibs.
Hohoho.
Extra RM10 does make a lot of difference.
Cause I is very poor now.
*********
Went to Citrus Park and had lunch with the bf.
Leo's Tom Yam Fried Rice.
The fried rice itself was not bad, but I don't know what's wrong with me.
I was very semangat in finishing it in the beginning, however halfway eating I lose all my appetite and had to force myself to finish it.
I was like a small kid who munches her food in the mouth for a very long time and refuse to eat properly.
I kept talking to the bf with my mouth full lol.
By the time he was done with his fish and chips, I was still halfway through my fried rice.
He started like 10-15 minutes later than me.
=__________=
Speaking of which, I was Ah Ma's nightmare when comes to food.
Cause I didn't like vege, I tend to eat very slow and munch my food for very long time.
So she always have to get me Appeton Multivitamins Lysine Syrup.
I love the vitamin taste of the syrup thou. Hehe.
Now that I'm almost 21, I actually still face this kinda appetite problem.
Once a while, when the stress attack.
But, I guess everything will be different now.
I just have to get used to it.
Wuwu.
I don't want to grow up can ah?
I didn't mean that.
Sorry baby.
I just couldn't tell myself to calm down when I see that.
Please forgive whatever that I've done.
Please forgive me.
You know I didn't mean that right?
Sleep tight baby.
You must be tired.
I.Love.You.
I will never leave you alone.
Just wait for you.
I'm coming.
Very very soon.
-Am listening to the theme song-
Everything is out of stock.
I need more and more cash.
Fighting with period cramp is like fighting with a BIG BIG monster.
Its so tiring.
That I napped for almost 3 hours after reach home from uni.
Maybe it was due to the stress recently.
The cramp is back today.
The super-duper-power-pain that make me feel like cutting my own abdomen.
Whenever the pain happen in uni, I'll rest my head on the bf's laps with 2 more chairs supporting my body and legs.
While the rest will get me hot water this that.
Its damn ugly to lie like that in the public, some more this time in in front of cafeteria entrance.
=_________=
Habis musnah image saya.
Oh well, not like I have good image but still...
*uhuk uhuk*
怎么了？
为什么会这样？
好久都没为这种琐碎事流泪。
是压抑太久？
是太在乎别人？
是太不了解？
是荷尔蒙失调？
是情绪不稳定？
是讨厌被遗忘？
是讨厌被忽视？
泪水像长命雨，
一直流着，
好久好久，
在这静静长夜，
心里的天枰失去平衡点，
坏情绪持续增加，
好情绪持续减低，
失望到谷底，
像掉进漩涡，
彻底绝望。
能说得就只有这样吗？
没别的？
我想是吧！
真的很难过。
难道就不能说个谎来安抚我吗？
真的是我太过分了吗？
为什么都没想过我在想些什么？
It's not important bout what I think after all.
I'm like the air.
Negligible.
Nobody understand how pain it was.
My 1.5 month old new Myvi doesn't look new at all.
New scratches are everywhere.
Inside out. Deep and light.
I tried hard to avoid all these scratches.
No point.
I've forgotten about the passengers.
People won't feel how it feels when the car is not theirs.
All I asked was just a car wash and vacuum.
Merely RM10.
I din even ask for polishing, which I will come out with my own money.
Maybe I sound as though I'm showing off my new car.
But, I just want to let everyone knows that.
It's my responsibility to keep my car clean and new.
Also.
It's ALL OF YOU PASSENGERS' RESPONSIBILITY to make sure you take good care of other's car whenever you sit in it.
Watch out when you're carrying bag with a lot of chains and also when you open the door please.
Don't ever give me that oh-its-not-my-car-so-who-cares attitude.
I really have the right to ask you all to get out of my car.
It's all depends on me.
It doesn't mean that you can cross my line when I'm being nice and patient.
I maybe small and looks weak, but I'm a human.
I have my border line too.
DON'T EVER TRY ME!
I almost burst out laughing when I saw that monkey face.
Especially when that person is so damn proud with that.
I thought I just saw one 'ah gua'. O.o
Damn scary wei.
Some more its right after I watch some horror movie.
Just make sure that you seek for the professional if you know nuts bout what you're doing.
Super bad taste like don't know what.
HAHAHAHAHA.
*********
Anyway, shooting is over.
Will post pics once I get it from Emily and KJ.
Til then.
Let me laugh for the one last time before I click PUBLISH POST.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Second day of shooting.
It started raining when we were coming out from the house.
The director went to asked for permission of church in Jalan Gasing but fail.
When time like this, I can be creative once a while lol.
Thought of an alternative.
Went to get transparent umbrella instead.
Reached bridal house.
The in-charge person was kind enough to let our 'bride and bridegroom' to enter inside.
After fixed all the make up and gown, the rain stopped.
Started shooting.
It started drizzle towards the end.
And I didn't know my camera was that good.
Heh.
Aza-aza fighting!
Will be away for over-night'ing session til Sunday.
Goodie luck!
=)
First day of shooting.
It's been drizzling.
So far we are on schedule, but the darn mic is delaying our time.
Ish ish ish.
Hopefully the shooting for the coming days will be fine.
It's tiring but we are having lotsa fun!
Wuwu.
This semester is super duper busy.
Midterms coming. Short film shooting starting tomorrow. Assignments deadline all nearing.
How la how la how la.
Wtf so paranoid like don't know what.
Anyway, the bf got his first choice for interns too.
Can throw way the so call action betul punya previous first choice dy.
Til now also no reply.
Hohoho.
Congrates to the rest who got their offer letter for internship too!
So hyper today.
But wait, you wait, tomorrow I'll be layu kaukau.
=____________=
Midterm is tomorrow!
How to speed reading when I'm so not focus on my notes.
Kthxbye.
My mind is all jumble up.
I feel like a puppet.
I feel like a clay.
I feel like a mold.
I feel like a tv.
Controllers please stay away from me!
Sometimes, I really think I should be more selfish and just keep my mouth shut.
An invisible form of stress is forming.
Sigh.
For better, for worse?
Damn pissed like don't know what.
Damn stress like don't know what.
Damn emo like don't know what.
Damn hungry like don't know what.
Damn those negative feeling!
I seriously am lacking of what you call the creative mind to add in interesting elements in the dry, dull script.
*bites fingers*
So, it's the bf's 21st today.
The surprise gathering failed kaukau.
Unfamiliar of the venue + Miscommunication with the rest = Fail the plan.
=_________=
Super emo like don't know what.
Haih.
Some more the rest suggested me to take course on 'How to Surprise Nigel Pinto'.
Wtf.
That's it. Next time don't want give you surprise dy, Nigel Pinto.
Anyway, am really glad that you like the watch cause I scanned through the whole place like kaukau.
Once settle choosing the design, scan for scratches la, compare and compare only puas.
Then, choose box lagi.
At least its worth getting shoot by Jazs and Xiaochin. =S
I shall start my work like now.
Kthxbye.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN TO THE DOINK DOINK BF!
=)
Wheeee~~~~
I GOT IT!
The offer letter!
Will be starting internship earlier than the exact date.
Can't wait!!
I don't like Multimedia Broadcasting.
Wuwu.
T_________T
I'm in love with their songs and films masterpiece.
They are so damn talented!
The Talented Sibs.
Wuwu.
How come I'm not even half of them in any way?
==
The internship interview is tomorrow.
I is so gan cheong yet I'm not doing anything yet.
However, I think I should go read up a bit on the company soon.
I'm not sure where is the production house located.
Hmmmm...
What should I wear tomorrow?
What kinda questions am I expecting?
Lalalala.
I just want to get in to DT now desperately.
I am a super manja girl at times.
But I'm so damn busy nowadays til I got no time to manja.
><
So, when his message arrived just now, my manja semangat come and straight away update him about the internship.
He hardly text just to say hi and ask about updates.
I feel so warm.
*************************************************
Am fucking pissed now.
I don't understand why some people take responsibility when they don't even bother about it.
Please check what you need to do if you take charge of anything and make sure you do whatever you need to do.
Don't just throw it to the others and concern nothing about it.
There's a limit to everything.
One thing I'm sure now, that is beyond my limitation.
It was the morning of the first day of Uni, she was heading to the block A, he was heading to the block C.
They walked past each other at the walkway.
She thought he's the rare Malay in the uni.
He remembered her as the few passerby in that morning.
Then, they bumped into each other again outside the office.
She was sitting alone along the corridor while he was there with a bunch of girls chit chatting.
She looked at him and continue stoning.
He approached her to asked for direction, she replied him and he thanked her and continue talking with those girls.
After a week, she can almost recognize most of her coursemates' name.
It was until when the lecturer called his name in the class that she realized he is in the same course with him and that he is not a Malay but a Chintuguese. (wtf)
Then, they happened to be in the same class for English.
As a friendly girl she is, she greet him whenever she sees him.
It was until once that he didn't even look at her when she greeted him that, she decided not to look or greet him anymore.
The first semester ended and the 3 months long break arrived.
She found his blog once when she was reading a coursemate's blog.
She then started reading his blog anonymously and secretly attracted by his writing.
His blog is her main entertainment source during that break.
She even go to his old blog to read on old entries.
He found out that she read her blog and left a message in her blog.
They started leaving messages in each other's chatbox then.
One fine day, he post about an International event job vacancy in Terengganu.
She being the workaholic asked him to register her.
They went for meetings together but they still don't talk much when they see each other face to face during meetings.
She was afraid to talk to him, while he didn't know what to talk with her.
They worked in Terengganu together.
Sometimes, when they are free, they will chit chat with the rest of the colleagues.
Once, the supervisor asked her what she's doing?
She said 'Broadcasting course same as him but never talk to each other in the class"
Supervisor 'Don't worry. Both of you will be best friends after this event.'
She laughed at her supervisor's statement.
At the end of the event, she exchanged emails with everyone including him.
After she's back from the event, she start adding those emails.
She knows he online everyday from his blog, but she has never seen him in MSN before.
After a quick chat with him, and a quick check in his contact list, only she realize she type 'chintuguese' as 'chintugese'.
=___________=
Anyway, they started chatted in MSN every night after that.
Soon, she finds that she always look forward for the time he comes online.
As for him, he started to talk about her in front of his friends.
His friends will always look at her in the uni, she always feel weird about it cause she don't think they know her.
At one time, she was struck with a wave of bad luck.
He was there to cheer her up and she feel super touched.
He even came out with a Smiling Project where if she smile back before a deadline, he will get her a Mc'Donalds' Oreo Mcflurry and reminds her of the sacred holly mantra whenever she's emo.
On the day where the Smiling Project ended, he walked Mc'Donalds that located 1km away from the Uni.
He then took cab back cause he knows she doesn't like melted ice cream.
She was so touched and almost hug him when she knows about it.
Her heart beats super duper fast whenever he came to talk to her.
There was once, she was reading his blog in the Uni computer lab.
He came in, she was so nervous.
At the end, she left her thumbdrive in the Uni computer lab cause too happy talking to him.
=__________="
They started texting each other during the CNY 08.
During a conversation in MSN, he granted her a wish.
She wished for a bf who is loves her, caring, patient with her when she pms and etc (Dam hiao, purposely test him like that.)
After playing with her for a while, he announced himself as the only candidate available.
And so, after the long round and round, they get together.
Now, it's been a year since they get together.
**********
I have always wanted a meaty bf.
I have always wanted a romantic bf.
I have always wanted a small eyes bf.
I have always wanted a (too lazy to write)
Anyway, I got the total opposite of what I always wanted.
Lol how funny it can be at times.
Despite busy with the proposal, I still squeeze some time to write this.
And I wrote this story starting from the ending to the beginning.
Ignore tons of grammar mistakes cause I'm super busy to check through.
Happy 1 year dear!
Happy doing proposal at home!
And please continue to blog!
Teeheee =D
ME WURVE YOU!
P/S 1: See i so nice write nice nice post, not like you. =p
P/S 2: Its 10.16pm by the time I post this.
