Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Something brought her to you. :)

Eh please ah, big boy shouldn't be manja-ing around.
Alright, you sound cute when you did that. Ahaks!
I do wish that I'll be able to tag along, and I'll try my best to at least show up for while before it ends.


"Huh?! How come you won't be there? Yerrr... It won't be fun without you there."


Thanks.
That shall make my day.
Hehe. ^^

Addicted to our conversation.

Will be able to talk to you more in the future since you're now back after the long hiatus. Woots :)
I really do miss you lots.


Am turning into a typical Gemini. Uughhh...

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

You called me Alice.

Dear you,


Memories flow back.
Everything seems to be so different now and I think I'm entering another level of maturity. 
I am smiling from the bottom of my heart. :)


We've shared so much of wonderful memories, and I'm thankful that we did went through a couple of events together in such short time. I've been asking myself, why think about those sad memories and fall into the trap of sadness?

I love us, for being so adorable and cute and just so close to each other.


I miss how my heart stop beating when I first snap a photograph of your back while you were busy helping me. Don't ask me why, I guess that was ze sign. 

I miss the massage session. You always massage for me when I was tired or when I asked you so, but you seldom ask me to massage you cause you know I got no strength. =p
I miss the photography sharing session that we had when I was still a freshie who knows nothing about ISO, shutter speed and etc.
I miss the way you said I'll be your little sis forever. I smiled when you said that to me because I love the word 'forever'.
I miss your expression when you saw freckles on my face and call me 'ang moh' girl. 
I miss you calling me 'Goofy' just because I wear a big black frame specs and you think I look like 'Pluto' when I raise my eyebrows (and you called me 'Goofy' cause 'Goofy' sounds funnier) . ==
I miss our car bonding session, we had so much to talk, and you will tell me a lot of stories.
I miss leaning on you shoulder while waiting.
I miss you teaching me how to hold chopsticks properly and told me that I've improved when I managed to pick fish ball with chopsticks. 
I miss you playing with my toes and toe ring when I put my legs on your laps while I was lying on the floor.
I miss your huge gray sweater, my best friend whenever I was not feeling well.
I miss you touching my tummy when I complained to you about tummy ache. 
I miss you playing with my long long hair and say nothing but run your fingers through them.
I miss all those smileys in our sms and msn conversation, because they make me laugh too.
I miss you apologizing to me just because you raise your voice a little and i purposely ignore you cause I was too mad with you. 
I miss you asking me to rest my head on your laps when you saw me leaning on the hard hard chair.
I miss your proud expression when you show me pictures of your friends and talked to me about them.
I miss your funny expression when you talked about your family and the little you.
I miss how you were kinda mad with me for not trusting you.
I miss you telling me 怎样都好,要善待自己 (no matter what happen, we must be good to ourselves) because nobody knows us and knows what we want better than ourselves.
I miss how you always tell me drivers who drive recklessly are all rushing to go toilets.
I miss the time when you fetch me with ze big big motorbike, and ze warm warm breeze.
I miss you hugging me from the back accidentally just cause we were too into our tickling game.
I miss you warming me up by holding my hands before sleeping and hug my shoulder while when we were in the high land. 
I miss us lying on the bed with our legs crossing each others like small kids.
I miss how you were trying to carry me up by wrapping blanket around me.
I miss the way you hug me when I wished you Happy Birthday while we were walking on the street when the clock struck at 12am.
I miss the time when we went to shop together and you were laughing at how I looked like a small girl in pajamas when I was trying on some tops.
I miss you smiling at me even though you were very mad with some failed arrangement. 
I miss you for being so protective and protect/take care of me whenever I face problem/need help.
I miss how you always know me so well, know what to do to make me feel better, and tell others about me when they ask you.
I miss everything about you, and how nice if I was able to capture all those moments that we've shared. Cause I'm beginning to lose them bit by bit.


I promise, this is going to be the last time I will ever talk about you.
It's time to pick up the broken pieces and continue ze journey.

I thank you for leaving remarkable foot prints in my life.

And yes, I fell in love with you and I have nothing to hide about it. :)


Yours sincerely

♥ Little me 

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Monologue.

And so I was just imagining.


I never realize until she told me she never seen me like that for such a long time, she can see that I was really happy. I guess, there's no harm in imagining if that's the case.
I was so into that imagination until I couldn't sleep on the night before the so called 'date'. There were different memories and stories playing in my mind. 
I'm clear with the fact that I'm always a buddy and never be the girl, yet, I was thinking perhaps it is time to give it a try instead of the never ending waiting for ze explanation to be made which has now seems to be pretty impossible because nobody is making the first move.
I'm moving on, away from what seems like a mixture of hero story and fairy tale.

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Hey boy, as much as I wish for the chemical to take effects, I'm actually quite comfortable with our friendship. The past was kinda vague but I'm glad that we are able to reunite after all those years of separation.
I was quite surprised that we can just crap like there's nobody business especially on styling, and girls. 
You've played a part in my decision making, and I love the buddy's love between us.
And for this time, I'll let the God do His job for yet another decision making.


Honestly, I enjoy being single but I'm craving for that company.
A pretty selfish thought, but sometimes, we tend to be selfish in a way, don't we? :)



Saturday, December 4, 2010

I'll be the koala bear, and you'll be the tree...^^

May this false alarm stay as long as it can be.

You asked me to give you a call when I reach here, but I never bother bout it, cause I know you will be busy working at that hour.
What I didn't expect was you actually text my Malaysia number and asked if I'm over here.
I was supposed to call you, and so I called you.
We talked on the phone, for the first time.
I love how you tried to make it up for me after you found out I will be alone.
"I will sleep earlier tonight and teman you tomorrow. Will call you up after work."
I think this is sweet.

No, I'm not seeing anyone.
I was just imagining.