你问我，我说我不知道

刻骨铭心的两次。
放下了第一次,
还紧握着第二次。
我还是很在意，
虽然看似不在乎。
是应该打起精神，
振作起来。
锁定目标，
往前冲！
没有终点的冲刺，
因为人是贪心的，
永远要的越来越多。
刻骨铭心，
究竟是否还重要？

Smile, because they care.

The grandma called and asked if I'm busy with work?

Apparently the grandpa kept asking why their darling grandgirl haven't been updating them in a while.

My bad. Sigh.

Seriously feel bad for making them worry about me, and I just can't stop worrying them, can I?

I always thought I look forward for everything to begin, but when the reality kicks in, I realize I dreaded this whole damn thing.
I feel like running away.

The body has not been very helpful with the bad cramps and spinning world and cold sweat.

2am and I'm still translating the synopsis.

7.5 more pages to go.

And I doubt I will be able to finish the translation by this morning.

Pick up the pieces, even though everything is so untrue.

I wish I could cry out loud anytime as I wish, but true enough to be said, I've never been quite the same ever since internship. No as cry baby as I used to be, and always remind myself to be mature and professional in handling my own emotion, especially now that I have started work.

I remember the boss always remind me to be professional when I was just an intern. He said, being an intern doesn't mean that you should act like an intern, but must be professional, so that others won't take advantage of you. From there, the first lesson I learnt was to control my own emotion.

It wasn't easy to begin with, because I got tense up so easily and you know once I tense up I will be super duper emo and here you go, the stupid crying here and there, but of course not in front of everyone la please.

There was once, I got myself into that one big hard time, but I managed to pulled it through. Not because I was that good in holding up my tears, not because I was that professional, it was all due to that pair of worried yet encouraging eyes that I looked into.

Things changed, people change, but memories will never fade, no matter how time flies. 

Thought of escaping, but failed. Finding myself back to the square was never easy, too. FML.

I know I'm not supposed to collapse at this time, but I have no idea how long I will able to hold myself from falling apart. I just keep reminding myself, no crying, eveything's going to be fine. How I wish its all just a nightmare, and when I wake up in the morning, I will be smiling again and looking forward for the unknown future that's awaiting ahead of me.

Somehow, not even a Hi Bye

Zero interaction.
And I always ask myself, is this going to last forever?
Honestly, what exactly happened?
Will I even get an answer?


Holding back, because that's the only thing I could do now.

如果，没有。

“是因为你比任何人来得积极。

那是好事。

我希望，在以后的日子，你会继续积极下去，积极地争取你想要的东西。”

曾经，有人这么说过。

无法潇洒的挥一挥衣袖,只因我不是徐志摩

每个人是多么的开心
新娘看着大家
以为自己也是快乐的


走在婚宴上的红地毯
她望着身边的他
猛然转过了身


新娘跑了
冲出了婚宴的大门
拖着长长的新娘裙摆
踏着高跟鞋
在那长长的走廊
彷徨的跑着


走廊
仿佛与既陌生又熟悉的小学
接连着


听着朗朗的念书声
新娘踮着脚尖
轻手轻脚的走过课室
这样走过了无数间


新娘停下了脚步
从窗的缝隙望进课室
看到小孩们专心的上课


新娘会心笑了下
一位单眼皮小男孩
无意间发现了她
朝她吐了吐舌头
露出皮皮的笑容
一对小眼睛眯着
和那参差不齐的牙齿


新娘也向他吐了吐舌头
再踮着脚尖离开
拖着长长的裙摆


随后的
新娘又回到了婚宴
过后的过后
她遇到了许多人
她爱过和爱着的人


婚礼是否办成
也不曾晓得


睁开双眼
那是一个阴天早晨
崭新的旅途才正要开始

我们曾经彼此对望着，为彼此加油

侧视镜反映出后方的天空。

夕阳的余光把天空照得金蓝色，很是美丽。

猛然抬起头，前方暗蓝色的天空，与后方的天空形成了对比。

车子拐了个大弯，前方又是金蓝色的天空。

人生总是这样的吧？

我们总爱回首，总以为往事的好，不可能重现。

可往往却忽略了未来的美好，其实正等待着我们的发现。

**********

也许一直都在介怀着，纳闷着。

两条交叉线，一旦成为平行线，就不会有再次交叉的一天吗？

我不明白，一直都不曾明白。。。
因为回避的眼神已经把距离拉得越来越远。