快门与背影

透过小小的数码相机镜头，爱上某一个背影。按下快门那瞬间，我屏住呼吸。这感觉，好像有点不对，我不应该这样的。但，按耐不住的冲动与如潮水般涌上心头的感觉，掩盖了理智的挣扎。曾经的以前，那个背影让我沉浸在小不点的世界；如今的现在，那个背影让我梦醒在冷酷的现实。

如果快门能锁住时间，我是否能在按下快门时，一并把感觉锁住？

苦的滋味

一堆的问号

超烂的偷看技巧

远远，远远的

触摸不及

无法解读那密码

解不开那枷锁

脑袋一片空白

只想把时间留住

捉住那一刻

被判死刑的理由

没有明确的答案

无谓的猜测与闪躲

很乱，很乱

那就算了吧！

重复说着，不要害怕

梦，凌乱，模糊。

女孩从噩梦中惊醒过来，睁大那对咪咪眼。

看着一片漆黑的房间，想起那段不太记得的噩梦，她开始抽泣起来。

女孩很害怕，感到迷失、委屈，一堆莫名的感觉涌上了心头。

噩梦已经断断续续侵略着她的睡眠好几天。

她不记得梦的细节，但，她依稀记得都围绕着她很在乎的人和事物。

是日有所思，夜有所梦吗？

可是，为什么都变成这样？

为什么都是噩梦？

是她压抑自己的情绪太久了吗？还是那喘不过来的压力所致？

夜，仍然是那么平静。

她躲进被窝里，深怕家人听见哭声。

就这样哭着，直到再次睡着。

饶了她吧！噩梦！

她真的无法承担再多，再大的打击。

她本来就只是个女孩，一个总是在逞强的女孩。。。

等待着

曾经为我加油的声音

把我从最低点带回来

只因

之前建上来的自信心

真的要跌到将近谷底

无奈

但还是要继续打拼

继续未完成的旅程。。。

If. You Really Exist.

Following behind, trying to catch up.

Imitating the way you walk, stepping on your shadow, once a while.

Its all started from the back, the back of yours, the back that she loves.

Leaning on your lap, closing her eyes, oh how comfy.

You pat her head, playing with her hair, gently.

Big hands of yours, holding small hands of hers, providing the sweetest warmth.

Hoping in joy, because she sees you.

Dancing in excitement, because you're happy.

Laughing out loud, because you let her win the game.

A childish mind, a matured mind, how well they mix?

Blend de blend, they really click.

Unexplainable form of love, the bonding, the boy and the girl.

The angel send by God, to this not so little girl.

And that would be you, the big brother who she loves.

If. You really exist.

Shadow.

Its been long, since I felt this bad.

All torn up and clueless, waiting aimlessly, for the smile to cure.

Waking up late night, staring blankly at the space, recalling the dream.

Nightmare, it seems to be.

Please, don't take away anyone from me.

I need the security, to take care of the fragile heart.

Its been long, since that day.

Laughing happily at that joke, poking each other, playing unknown games.

Moments we shared, all were beautiful, leaving our laughters behind.

History, it seems to be.

Please, I'm begging for chances.

I need the one, to keep an eye of the clumsy me.

Its been long, since we have shared.

Little secret of mine, our childhood, those were the days.

Wishing for miracle, to undo the sadness, for even the slightest curve on the face.

Fantasy, it seems to be.

Please, do let it happens.

I need the light, to lead me along the dark path.

And so, its been long, since the last time we smile at each other.

Memories to be kept, deep. down. under.

人因梦想而伟大，却因爱情而渺小。

人，总是在改变。

我，暂时还无法接受那突然的改变。

只好，假装很坚强，假装不在乎。

其实，真的很难过，很无奈。

为什么，科学家还没发明到时光机？

我不晓得，我能够抵抗多久那些不时泼过来的冷水。

惟有，让记忆里的片断不断播映。

那一幕幕的小动作，一直是我的原动力。

放轻声些，我就很开心了。