Liceylivelife

Happy Two Friends

2011-06-14T02:37:00.002+08:00

This just have to happen at this time.
Can you please hold your curiosity in wanting to know everything so badly, every single time?

Don't you know, sometimes, something, is better to be left unknown.
Only then, things will still be the same and unaffected.

And please, stop imagining things!
Everything is going to be okay.

Discover ze Love Secret Recipe.

2011-06-12T02:44:00.002+08:00

Heart this chemistry that we are sharing.

Regardless whether we will be meeting at the end point.
I truly feel blessed and lucky to have you here with me, at least for now.

“一定一定会有好事发生的，我们就是为了遇见那些好事才努力活下来的。”

I believe in this.

Ding Dong, you've been dumbfounded!

2011-05-30T01:32:00.002+08:00

Thanks to whoever who trying to act as though they know me well and who is loser enough to do that.
Just to let you know, whatever you do, you're just increasing my blog hit, and wasting your time in thinking so hard for trying to make me feel bad.
Somehow I always ended up laughing so hard. :D

So thank you for ze entertainment and for making my life so interesting and colorful!

This is Life.

2011-05-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

Sigh.
RB is forever that observant, he always know what I'm up to.
Finally get to have a proper talk with him about ze decision.

He kept asking for the reason, so I told him few reasons, the sub one.
He knew those weren't the main reason, so he mentioned about few things and told me that was just what he guess.
I didn't deny, cause those were also part of the reasons which contributed to ze decision.
I teared a little.
He had been so nice to me and so patient.
He asked to stay, to reconsider my decision.
Felt shaky with ze decision for a while, then a sudden silent between us.

He shared with me of what he observed in me, and also other knowledge and improvement can be made.
He told me its okay, I'm still young and there's still long way to go.
He told me to give him a call if there's anything, and that he will make arrangement for me.
He told me...
There are too many things that he told me, I thank God for all these!

Before the conversation ended, he said,"Hope you'll be able to find your positive charges real soon."
I said, "Hmm..."

Because your apology is insincere.

2011-05-08T00:53:00.001+08:00

Received an unexpected phone call when I was in the bank yesterday.
I blinked for a while trying to recognize the voice, until the caller told me ze name, I was like stunned.
Heart was beating super fast.
Hope everything will goes smoothly after this.
Best of luck! :)

I DARE YOU

2011-05-05T03:19:00.000+08:00

Thought of the jiak sai definition that 阿群 made out of ze theory.
Never failed to make everyone laughs.

Decision, decision, decision.
I've finally told RB about it, and he asked why?
Never really get to talk to him about it, further discussion is needed but he is super duper busy, so everything tergendala till further discussion.
Bahh, I feel so weird.
I can't believe that I've finally made up my mind about this, like really finally, after months of having the thought playing in my mind. ==

I don't know what is going to come in my way in the future.
I guess, I've learn to be more spontaneous and not let other burdens affect my decision.
I think, being in this field really trained my EQ to an extend that, I don't get too bother or too offended by some nonsense.
I'm really thankful for all those awful moments that I went through throughout the journey, which mold me to who I am now, in a way.

And I think, patience can consider as the most quality that I've gain along the way.
Alright, not to say I'm a very very patient person, but then I've learn not to get mad over stupid things *insert laughs*.
At least won't black face during work, or in front of other people, cause cannot bring personal emotion to work ma...

Too much of randomness recently.
But I likey.
Looking forward for DSLR VS LOMO photo outings with monkey sekalian, Snowflake and polaroid date with 阿群, Steamboat with 阿宅。
Oh no, I can see my purse bleeding! ><

疯狂的赛车

2011-05-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

一整天，心情无比的烂透了。
可以是因为一个月了。可以是因为PMS.可以是因为神经搭错线。可以是因为下雨天让整个人很忧郁。

送了老弟回宿舍，终于按奈不住，崩溃了。
下雨的夜晚，一个人开着车，大声喊着，哭着，发泄了。
短短几分钟后，一切恢复平静。

妈的，很像在看戏那样。

Why you sounds different?

2011-05-01T14:37:00.002+08:00

我也没发现说，我在和她聊天时的语气有什么不一样，直到她问了我这个问题：“怎么你今天听起来，不像平时的你？”
才想起了，我约她出去的原因。

此时，企图隐藏起来的淡淡忧伤，不小心释放了一些。

这样也好，至少没有经过欢送会这个阶段，眼泪就不会决堤。
你不在，日子还是一样的过。
虽然，每每粗心弄伤这里那里，会想起那一段段关心担心的对白。

最近，常常会不小心脚滑，撞到旧患。想起某夜他给我猜的冷笑话：森林里什么动物最容易跌倒？答案是狐狸！因为狐狸狡猾（脚滑）。呵呵！
最近，双脚频频抽筋。想起了那时他凭着我在电话中隐约说过的地址，带着自己煲好的凉茶，在我那区绕来绕去。看到他出现在家门前，是感动的，觉得他傻的可爱。知道说我累，脚抽筋，就捉着我按摩。

都过去啦。。。
一个月，时间很努力的在冲淡一切。
他离开了，去逐梦了。

自己也做好准备，迎接接下来要面对的事情。

就这样，我们很快速的在人生中的交叉点遇见，又再次分开。

此刻心情很复杂。

所以，现在是???

2011-04-27T03:19:00.000+08:00

每当夜被清晨的曙光取代，回复了一些意识，一股淡淡的忧愁哀伤涌入心头。
我们都变成了我们最不想成为的人。
那感觉，总是怪怪的。

Stand By Me

2011-04-23T09:57:00.004+08:00

阿群：

hmm
do watever tht makes u comfortable
no matter how
i support u
:)
support aliceeeeee
- haha

阿宅：
我肩膀借你，乖。别伤心，我回来肩膀借你咬~有什么事我都能让你倾诉~

*人生中出现了两个人，一个总是陪我哈哈大笑，一个总是陪我恶魔，都是我嘴角上扬的原因和原动力 :)*

无厘头，跟着感觉走

2011-04-21T03:28:00.000+08:00

一早来到公司，拼了命的赶着photoshop一大堆的照片。
忙里偷闲，开了开面子书，发现他的留言，半小时之前的事了。
回了他，亲爱的YY拨电来报到说他从韩国回来啦...
重点是，他买了手信，面膜一堆给我！*开心死*
聊了一下，继续拼到下午3点，交完报告吃午餐去。
一切看似普通上班日。

下午的天空，下了场倾盆大雨。
可爱的林同学拨电给我说了一大堆的东西，笑着叫她别紧张。
穿着粉红吊带，但这大雨的天气怎么还比平日热啊？

然后，大伙儿开会去，剩下小猫两三只各自做着自己手头上的工作。
拨了几通电话，看到了熟悉的画面。
以前实习时，也曾经蹲坐在地上画着白板上的线，差不多两年前的事了。:)

发现说，原来许久没有近距离看着他。
与他有多久没有真正的，静静地，聊着天。
他，突然开口说起他之后的去向和计划，然后两人开始聊起一些近未来的事情。
我说，跟着感觉走，别顾虑太多。
因为机会真的很难得，而且机会也永远只给有准备好的人。
静静地在一旁听着他说话的声音，好好听的声音，要放进1TB的大脑记忆卡存档。

回到家，和老妹聊了下，眼泪亲不自禁的滑落脸颊。
是不争气了点，可是也是一下下而已。
至今，还是觉得那第一眼感觉的很不可思议。
嗯... 就收着那时的感觉好了。

我们家阿宅阿群还是很定时的每天或每隔一天就找我聊天。
很可爱的咯。。。
每天都害我笑个半死。
阿宅还是一样的害羞，不对，有好了点，至少见面不许要用面子书交谈也可以。呵呵!
阿群则常常找歌找笑话给我听和看。虽然有时真的觉得很烂，但还是有办法让我开心地笑!
感恩，我有这么可爱的朋友。
^^

只想说 *爱情没有对错,没有前后先分,而且绝对是自私的*

我不会去生气或讨厌任何伤害过我的人，再怎么气、失望、难过，我选择keep it with myself.

所以，任何人也没资格用他们的尺来衡量我。

况且，在不知道事情的来龙去脉之下，胡乱下评论，会显得很笨。

好啦，写了一堆有的没的，是时候和周先生约会啦...
晚安。

What are words?

2011-04-12T03:05:00.000+08:00

工作，开始忙了起来，分散了注意力。
我很好，真的很好。。。
只是，当开会开到很迟时，不禁想起一起为梦想打拼的日子。
那一刹那，我有小难过了一下下。
不为什么，就想起了一些话。

曾经，一次幸福的机会。

2011-04-07T04:49:00.003+08:00

我敌不过时间留下的痕迹，也敌不过那真相的残酷。

笑得疯颠，却没办法歇斯底里。

疯了，原来我真的很笨。

泪水，在无数次决堤后，干。

从来就不会说气话，即使现在，我什么都不是。

太敏感，不是件好事。

有着1TB的大脑记忆卡，更是件坏事。

每一次，每一个故事情节片段细节，依然清晰。

不想猜疑的，不想懂的，却总会无意间发现。

请不要因为责任而对我好，我会很难过的。

一整夜的独白，疯癫后，睡着。

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(分割线，那是昨夜的负面情绪)

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刚才，与好姐妹约会去，享受我们久违了的二人世界。

知道说，她很担心我，所以她约了我，还坚持我们要扮美美放松一下。呵呵。

昨夜，当我崩溃的哭着，隐约在电话听到她其实哽咽了，却不敢在我面前哭泣。

她说，她能感受到我真的很痛，她担心的是，我这一次会用上更长的时间来忘记，所以她一直和我说了很多东西。

她说，他是老天爷派来的使者，好让我忘了一些事。现在，他的任务完成了，也是功成身退的时候。

她说，听我叙述着他的故事，知道说他是个细心的好男人。她相信，只要我感觉到他是，他就是。她相信我。还告诉，应该庆幸的是我遇到那么一个好男人，至少，曾经拥有过，幸福过。

她说，为什么你总是那样的从来不为自己自私一次?　总是那么的心软？我说，因为我本来就是这样的人，我没办法自私。我本来就很心疼他们那段感情。

从昨夜到刚才，其实想了很多很多。

的确，5年多和１.５个月，根本就不能拿以相提并论。

想起了一些他说的话，也读到了‘黑白配’11年爱情长跑的故事。我想，我能理解他心里那份感受。

所以，决定了一个决定。

约会回来，凌晨一时许，我真的觉得我一定要告诉他我的决定。

拨电过去，他接了。嗯，好像是在某个地方。

与他聊了12分钟07秒。很短的一通电话，却记载着一个很美好的故事句点，真正的大结局。

依然是朋友，那是肯定的。

他说了，thank you.

也没想到说，自己毅然做了这个决定，松了一口气吧？

嗯，我会加油的，努力寻找属于自己的。:)

不晓得说，自己这次会用多久时间走出。

完全好了，那是骗人的。

那是用心付出过的，不是说要忘就能忘掉。

还是会想起，想起过去的许多许多。

也许，就像他所说的，发生的，都是好事。

发现，我原来是个超级无敌幸福宝宝。

这段时间，知道说，让很多人担心了。

一直提醒我要记得吃东西。哈哈！

放心，我真的有吃啦，不会让自己饿着。

Cerenna, I think we are fated to be connected in this way. Its always like that that we go through all those sweet and haram moments together. I feel so much better after the meet up, totally full of positive energy! Hehe. :) Thanks, thanks for listening and being a real good friend. Love you lots!

陈婉仪，从一开始到现在，你就是那个知道最多最多的人。对不起，让你担心了。很想现在抱着你说，我好很多了！谢谢你一直陪我说话，听了我说了很多很多的东西。

罗慧欣，很突然的你知道了。哈哈！很想很想你，期待着下次你回来的时候。

彭佩玲，故意写华语的。你就慢慢读吧！哈哈！还没来得及和你碰面讲好消息，就直接告诉你坏消息。你很好笑，直接说可以到你家去，哭个彻底，重新振作！谢啦，可爱到...

我家老妹，第一次在你面前这么脆弱的叙述着我的故事，至到哽咽流泪。知道你也很担心我，我有感受到哦！

陈智民，你这兄弟永远就是那样的无厘头搞笑。听到我出事了，竟然从英国拨电给我，爱死你了。虽然，你还是说了很多很多根本就是很欠扁的话，可是还是很感动你的那通电话。想你了，快点从英国回来！

陈卓群，一年多没见面，一见面就是这么一个无厘头事件。凌晨两点多，你开着和室友借来的车来找我时，我真的很感动。虽然很累，但你还是努力撑到５点，还一直逗我笑。第二天起床后，看到的还是我，还是一样陪我过了难熬的傍晚。谢谢你，很开心４年前认识了你这家伙。哈！

陈伟廷，你这人永远就是那么的有义气！总是那么的像大哥哥般照顾我，虽然我没完全把你的话听进去，也拒绝了你要你家老弟来载我回家的好意，可是我还是很珍惜你的。谢谢你在陪女友的同时，听我说话！

害羞宅男，就让你神秘些。没想到说我会因为这样而和你有一大串东西聊，在你面前就真的是很放肆的忧郁难过伤心。你是好人！谢谢你的陪伴！可是我真的希望，你不要那么害羞，不然下次要和聚会时，我就得带电脑出门了。==

长气May Baby, 我不会忘记，曾经，我们逆风一起飞，幸福过... 谢谢你的那一大堆的回忆! 恭喜你成为了‘刻骨铭心３号’! == 哈哈！

写完才发现，我真的有很多陈姓好朋友。==
爱你们！希望我们都会幸福快乐久久! :D

其实...

2011-04-02T17:09:00.001+08:00

2011的愚人节，经历了痛彻心扉的一夜。
已经忘了有多久没这么痛的呐喊大哭，像个疯子。

一个人躲在4号房。
一直坚信，好人有好报，可是我并不是好人，所以并不会有好报。
一直很害怕听别人对我说:"请你一定要相信我。" 每次都是那么的让人心碎。
一直以为老天爷在开了那么多次玩笑后，总算要眷顾我。结果还是在开完笑，让我狠狠地再摔一跤。

相信，真的就会有奇迹吗？
还是那一句，要善待自己，因为只有自己最了解自己？
或是，Everything happened for a good reason?

很痛，很迷茫...

怎么办?

2011-03-16T03:05:00.002+08:00

天使和恶魔继续在耳边说话.

决定，每一天都在改变.
不想说太快做出选择而做错决定.

我还是有时不懂我自己在做什么. T.T

Cry.

2011-03-02T00:48:00.000+08:00

I know about those stupid policies...

I could have explain but I never do that.

Perhaps, I need higher EQ to block all these stupid misunderstanding from me.

Its ok, you can talk to me.

2011-01-24T01:20:00.000+08:00

For now, nothing beats the disappointment when you woke up just to find out that, it was just a dream.

*I really thought its happening in real life.*

Mad sleepy...

2011-01-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

眼睛真的可以再红肿一点。

会记住那种很刺很刺的语气。
你如果那么强，其实为什么你还是会呆在同一个阶段？
很好奇你可曾想过这个问题？

很少生气，不代表没有脾气。
请不要有践踏别人的自尊和自信举动。

再无奈，也得忍耐。
因为那是礼貌上的尊重。

Take care, not too long before it ends.

2011-01-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

I'm losing ze passion and motivation.
Definitely not a good sign.
Where do I go, if this is not ze place to stay?
Tell me, lead me, save me, from all these doubts.
I'm confused. Lost.

庆幸，我敏感。

2011-01-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

那是很不知不觉的发生。
很努力的撑着，以为会没事。
意识开始模糊，我看见了一些很零乱的画面。
乱乱的，分不清真实还是梦境。
也不知过了多久，听到老妈担心的声音，听到椅子倒下的声音。
隐约感觉到爸妈紧紧地扶着我那没重心的身体。
原来，我，昏倒啦。。。
冷汗不停的飙，眼泪很奇怪的直流。
应该是太痛了吧???

Something brought her to you. :)

2010-12-22T01:41:00.000+08:00

Eh please ah, big boy shouldn't be manja-ing around.
Alright, you sound cute when you did that. Ahaks!
I do wish that I'll be able to tag along, and I'll try my best to at least show up for while before it ends.

"Huh?! How come you won't be there? Yerrr... It won't be fun without you there."

Thanks.
That shall make my day.
Hehe. ^^

Addicted to our conversation.

2010-12-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

Will be able to talk to you more in the future since you're now back after the long hiatus. Woots :)

I really do miss you lots.

Am turning into a typical Gemini. Uughhh...

You called me Alice.

2010-12-14T01:20:00.009+08:00

Dear you,

Memories flow back.
Everything seems to be so different now and I think I'm entering another level of maturity.
I am smiling from the bottom of my heart. :)

We've shared so much of wonderful memories, and I'm thankful that we did went through a couple of events together in such short time. I've been asking myself, why think about those sad memories and fall into the trap of sadness?

I love us, for being so adorable and cute and just so close to each other.

I miss how my heart stop beating when I first snap a photograph of your back while you were busy helping me. Don't ask me why, I guess that was ze sign.
I miss the massage session. You always massage for me when I was tired or when I asked you so, but you seldom ask me to massage you cause you know I got no strength. =p
I miss the photography sharing session that we had when I was still a freshie who knows nothing about ISO, shutter speed and etc.
I miss the way you said I'll be your little sis forever. I smiled when you said that to me because I love the word 'forever'.
I miss your expression when you saw freckles on my face and call me 'ang moh' girl.
I miss you calling me 'Goofy' just because I wear a big black frame specs and you think I look like 'Pluto' when I raise my eyebrows (and you called me 'Goofy' cause 'Goofy' sounds funnier) . ==
I miss our car bonding session, we had so much to talk, and you will tell me a lot of stories.
I miss leaning on you shoulder while waiting.
I miss you teaching me how to hold chopsticks properly and told me that I've improved when I managed to pick fish ball with chopsticks.
I miss you playing with my toes and toe ring when I put my legs on your laps while I was lying on the floor.
I miss your huge gray sweater, my best friend whenever I was not feeling well.
I miss you touching my tummy when I complained to you about tummy ache.
I miss you playing with my long long hair and say nothing but run your fingers through them.
I miss all those smileys in our sms and msn conversation, because they make me laugh too.
I miss you apologizing to me just because you raise your voice a little and i purposely ignore you cause I was too mad with you.
I miss you asking me to rest my head on your laps when you saw me leaning on the hard hard chair.
I miss your proud expression when you show me pictures of your friends and talked to me about them.
I miss your funny expression when you talked about your family and the little you.
I miss how you were kinda mad with me for not trusting you.
I miss you telling me 怎样都好，要善待自己 (no matter what happen, we must be good to ourselves) because nobody knows us and knows what we want better than ourselves.
I miss how you always tell me drivers who drive recklessly are all rushing to go toilets.
I miss the time when you fetch me with ze big big motorbike, and ze warm warm breeze.
I miss you hugging me from the back accidentally just cause we were too into our tickling game.
I miss you warming me up by holding my hands before sleeping and hug my shoulder while when we were in the high land.
I miss us lying on the bed with our legs crossing each others like small kids.
I miss how you were trying to carry me up by wrapping blanket around me.
I miss the way you hug me when I wished you Happy Birthday while we were walking on the street when the clock struck at 12am.
I miss the time when we went to shop together and you were laughing at how I looked like a small girl in pajamas when I was trying on some tops.
I miss you smiling at me even though you were very mad with some failed arrangement.
I miss you for being so protective and protect/take care of me whenever I face problem/need help.
I miss how you always know me so well, know what to do to make me feel better, and tell others about me when they ask you.
I miss everything about you, and how nice if I was able to capture all those moments that we've shared. Cause I'm beginning to lose them bit by bit.

I promise, this is going to be the last time I will ever talk about you.
It's time to pick up the broken pieces and continue ze journey.

I thank you for leaving remarkable foot prints in my life.
And yes, I fell in love with you and I have nothing to hide about it. :)

Yours sincerely

♥ Little me ♥

Monologue.

2010-12-08T01:06:00.001+08:00

And so I was just imagining.

I never realize until she told me she never seen me like that for such a long time, she can see that I was really happy. I guess, there's no harm in imagining if that's the case.
I was so into that imagination until I couldn't sleep on the night before the so called 'date'. There were different memories and stories playing in my mind.
I'm clear with the fact that I'm always a buddy and never be the girl, yet, I was thinking perhaps it is time to give it a try instead of the never ending waiting for ze explanation to be made which has now seems to be pretty impossible because nobody is making the first move.
I'm moving on, away from what seems like a mixture of hero story and fairy tale.

**********************
Hey boy, as much as I wish for the chemical to take effects, I'm actually quite comfortable with our friendship. The past was kinda vague but I'm glad that we are able to reunite after all those years of separation.
I was quite surprised that we can just crap like there's nobody business especially on styling, and girls.
You've played a part in my decision making, and I love the buddy's love between us.
And for this time, I'll let the God do His job for yet another decision making.

Honestly, I enjoy being single but I'm craving for that company.
A pretty selfish thought, but sometimes, we tend to be selfish in a way, don't we? :)

I'll be the koala bear, and you'll be the tree...^^

2010-12-04T02:02:00.000+08:00

May this false alarm stay as long as it can be.

You asked me to give you a call when I reach here, but I never bother bout it, cause I know you will be busy working at that hour.

What I didn't expect was you actually text my Malaysia number and asked if I'm over here.

I was supposed to call you, and so I called you.

We talked on the phone, for the first time.

I love how you tried to make it up for me after you found out I will be alone.

"I will sleep earlier tonight and teman you tomorrow. Will call you up after work."

I think this is sweet.

No, I'm not seeing anyone.

I was just imagining.

The heavy rain, that lonely night.

2010-11-20T00:44:00.001+08:00

Am feeling so helpless, so lonely, so lost recently, that I got so frustrated with anything and everything.
If only I'll be able to away from this city, perhaps I will be happier.
I don't know why did I let myself sinked into this depression, but I couldn't help myself to jump out of this either.

And I tell myself, "It's okay. Just cry out loud if you feel like you can't take all these by yourself anymore."

I need someone to walk me out of this drama...

默默的守护着，紧紧的拥抱自己。

2010-11-17T00:30:00.016+08:00

觉得有点过意不去。
不晓得说，是不是不小心顶撞了他？
他说的话不是没有道理，我原本就是那样做。
不过，我也是遵照他人的吩咐去办事。
希望他能够明白我急着为自己辩护的心情。

自我保护的心态再次明显化，忐忑不安。
因为这一趟归来，不再会有人像以往般的维护着我。
我是变得惆怅，没有丝毫好转，反而越来越严重。
原谅我没办法那么轻易的从过去走出来。

一直都在相信，老天爷是要我鼓起勇气完成那未完成的事情，才把我送回到原点。
日子一天天的过，始终没办法踏出第一步。
会不会直到下次离开的那天，一切都犹如上次离开时，那么的令人难过？

脸上僵硬着的弧度，也会有垮下来的时候。。。

我想，我真的懂了心痛到麻痹的感觉

2010-11-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

一句很短的对话，证实了一直不敢正视的问题。
并没有想像中的那么难过，真的...

我只是想你亲自告诉我，究竟一年前是发生了什么事？
你一直都还在这里，对不？
你一直都有在看，对不？
纵使只是一封短讯，或一封email，或一张纸条，我也都甘愿。

我真的期望有个能让我停止这一切的答案。

那一滴泪，永远记住。

2010-11-04T02:24:00.000+08:00

有种寂寞的心在作怂。
那种感觉只有在见到他的时候才会被释放出来。
不会心跳加速，不会脸红，不会羞怯。
纯粹因为本来就是如此。
只想有人陪着，告诉我应该这样那样，偶尔改变自己的造型。
格外珍惜，纵使就只有那么三分之一天。

一直都在裹足不前，完完全全被心结给绑住。
倘若四年前能够豁出去的要个解释，为什么四年后却变得如此胆怯的害怕听见不想听的事实？
我们曾经在错的时间上有过共鸣，我一直都想这样的相信着。
太过于执着，让自己遍体鳞伤，却也心甘情愿。

我想我不会再爱你。
挣扎很久，失落很久，难过更久。
一股冲动，想要紧紧地抱住你，只可惜缘份真的已到了尽头。

几句，重点。

2010-10-10T12:17:00.000+08:00

一句话，一个小动作，往往都能置人于死地。
太在乎，很多时候换来的却是那挫败感，那堆脸上的忧愁，那一直锁得紧紧的眉头。
不想成为空气般透明，但却一直朝着这个方向前进。
迷失了，迷失在不豁达。

Crisis.

2010-10-02T01:14:00.000+08:00

Can we for once stop talking about money?
Can we for once stop thinking about this bill that bill to be settled?
It is when at times like this, I wish I am the super girl.
Mad tired, but that wouldn't help anything.

你问我，我说我不知道

2010-09-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

刻骨铭心的两次。
放下了第一次,
还紧握着第二次。
我还是很在意，
虽然看似不在乎。
是应该打起精神，
振作起来。
锁定目标，
往前冲！
没有终点的冲刺，
因为人是贪心的，
永远要的越来越多。
刻骨铭心，
究竟是否还重要？

Smile, because they care.

2010-09-20T02:05:00.001+08:00

The grandma called and asked if I'm busy with work?

Apparently the grandpa kept asking why their darling grandgirl haven't been updating them in a while.

My bad. Sigh.

Seriously feel bad for making them worry about me, and I just can't stop worrying them, can I?

I always thought I look forward for everything to begin, but when the reality kicks in, I realize I dreaded this whole damn thing.
I feel like running away.

The body has not been very helpful with the bad cramps and spinning world and cold sweat.

2am and I'm still translating the synopsis.

7.5 more pages to go.

And I doubt I will be able to finish the translation by this morning.

Pick up the pieces, even though everything is so untrue.

2010-09-17T00:46:00.002+08:00

I wish I could cry out loud anytime as I wish, but true enough to be said, I've never been quite the same ever since internship. No as cry baby as I used to be, and always remind myself to be mature and professional in handling my own emotion, especially now that I have started work.

I remember the boss always remind me to be professional when I was just an intern. He said, being an intern doesn't mean that you should act like an intern, but must be professional, so that others won't take advantage of you. From there, the first lesson I learnt was to control my own emotion.

It wasn't easy to begin with, because I got tense up so easily and you know once I tense up I will be super duper emo and here you go, the stupid crying here and there, but of course not in front of everyone la please.

There was once, I got myself into that one big hard time, but I managed to pulled it through. Not because I was that good in holding up my tears, not because I was that professional, it was all due to that pair of worried yet encouraging eyes that I looked into.

Things changed, people change, but memories will never fade, no matter how time flies.

Thought of escaping, but failed. Finding myself back to the square was never easy, too. FML.

I know I'm not supposed to collapse at this time, but I have no idea how long I will able to hold myself from falling apart. I just keep reminding myself, no crying, eveything's going to be fine. How I wish its all just a nightmare, and when I wake up in the morning, I will be smiling again and looking forward for the unknown future that's awaiting ahead of me.

Somehow, not even a Hi Bye

2010-09-15T00:45:00.000+08:00

Zero interaction.
And I always ask myself, is this going to last forever?
Honestly, what exactly happened?
Will I even get an answer?

Holding back, because that's the only thing I could do now.

如果，没有。

2010-09-14T00:28:00.001+08:00

“是因为你比任何人来得积极。

那是好事。

我希望，在以后的日子，你会继续积极下去，积极地争取你想要的东西。”

曾经，有人这么说过。

无法潇洒的挥一挥衣袖,只因我不是徐志摩

2010-09-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

每个人是多么的开心
新娘看着大家
以为自己也是快乐的

走在婚宴上的红地毯
她望着身边的他
猛然转过了身

新娘跑了
冲出了婚宴的大门
拖着长长的新娘裙摆
踏着高跟鞋
在那长长的走廊
彷徨的跑着

走廊
仿佛与既陌生又熟悉的小学
接连着

听着朗朗的念书声
新娘踮着脚尖
轻手轻脚的走过课室
这样走过了无数间

新娘停下了脚步
从窗的缝隙望进课室
看到小孩们专心的上课

新娘会心笑了下
一位单眼皮小男孩
无意间发现了她
朝她吐了吐舌头
露出皮皮的笑容
一对小眼睛眯着
和那参差不齐的牙齿

新娘也向他吐了吐舌头
再踮着脚尖离开
拖着长长的裙摆

随后的
新娘又回到了婚宴
过后的过后
她遇到了许多人
她爱过和爱着的人

婚礼是否办成
也不曾晓得

睁开双眼
那是一个阴天早晨
崭新的旅途才正要开始

我们曾经彼此对望着，为彼此加油

2010-09-02T01:16:00.000+08:00

侧视镜反映出后方的天空。

夕阳的余光把天空照得金蓝色，很是美丽。

猛然抬起头，前方暗蓝色的天空，与后方的天空形成了对比。

车子拐了个大弯，前方又是金蓝色的天空。

人生总是这样的吧？

我们总爱回首，总以为往事的好，不可能重现。

可往往却忽略了未来的美好，其实正等待着我们的发现。

**********

也许一直都在介怀着，纳闷着。

两条交叉线，一旦成为平行线，就不会有再次交叉的一天吗？

我不明白，一直都不曾明白。。。
因为回避的眼神已经把距离拉得越来越远。

Perhaps, its time to hit the sack.

2010-08-27T01:12:00.001+08:00

Time flies.

And honestly, I don't know what am I doing for now.

A little too much and too soon?

Hmmm...

I might be in the jungle, but sadly not a single tree that I could hold tight to it when I fall.

I guess that explains all.

Just let it be, let it be, and let it be...

I may not be perfect, but I'm always me.

2010-08-25T00:54:00.001+08:00

Everything happens for a reason.

A brand new journey will begin in another one week of time.

After 3.5 months of waiting, after all those ups and downs, and finally the one good piece of news.

未完成的...

2010-07-26T23:55:00.001+08:00

你好吗你好吗
小小声祝你生日快乐
小小的诚意愿你快乐
小小的勇气望你笑了
小小的自己真心笑了

所以，我现该做些什么？

2010-07-25T02:10:00.001+08:00

男女之前错综复杂的关系真的很难理解。
分分合合，暧昧不断，不晓得是为了什么原因？
其实也没有很关自己的事，可是接到刚才那通来电难免不担心。
那种关系，没完没了，早就应该放掉。
猛的发现，原来找一个人聊天，都还需顾虑那么多。
超级纳闷，无奈。

期待，下一站。

2010-06-26T02:47:00.000+08:00

想起了朋友你自豪的秀着你那排洁白的牙。。。
“你看我的牙那么白，就知道我没有抽烟啦。。。”
是啊，你的牙的确很白。
自豪的不隐瞒，我喜欢。

始终很感谢那一段对话。
已做出抉择，等待的是时机的到来。

也许已不再属于那个地方。
离开也许是更好的选择，向前看，迈向未来的未知数。
过去属于过去，本来就该被埋在最深处。

虽说把心遗留在上个夏天里梦幻的快乐与忧伤，但接下来真实的生活和工作的压力相信很快能把心呼唤回来。

*生命总是神秘的变幻莫测，也许下一站，会更好。*

影子的假面

2010-06-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

也不晓得要的是什么？
是一份关心还是只想要有人注意？
矛盾的心情总是牢牢跟着。

发呆也许是个很好的活动吧！
把脑袋放空，什么都不去想。。。
心里却有把声音，问着：“你真的有那么的潇洒吗？”

也许一直都是活在阴影下。。。
是否能走出来，已经不重要。。。

爱的愚人

2010-06-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

时针分针和秒针

已无法回到我们俩的天真

回避着彼此的眼神

冰冷的手你的余温

我摸索记忆中拥抱的体温

暖暖晨光就在此刻透渗

是你让我乱了神

为爱情我愿变笨

愿为你当爱的愚人

让爱往你奔

你却锁上心门

我在你手你在我心划下了伤痕

不会有怨愤

已逝去的缘份让我学会不问

爱是真的受伤也很深

是你让我乱了神

为爱情我愿变笨

愿为你当爱的愚人

让爱往你奔

你却锁上心门

我在你手你在我心划下了伤痕

不会有怨愤

已逝去的缘份让我学会不问

爱是真的受伤也很深

希望还能够拥有那熟悉的安全感

让爱往你奔

你却锁上心门

我在你手你在我心划下了伤痕

不会有怨愤

已逝去的缘份让我学会不问

爱是真的受伤也很深

感觉对了却是错的人

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没用很想解释我的文字。

就把这当作我沉默了一阵子后的出发点。

没办法阻止别人胡思乱想，也没办法停止写下去。

我的自由，其实不属于我。

我们就只活那么一次，过去就让他过去吧！

2010-06-18T01:52:00.000+08:00

也许这样会比较好吧！
考虑了很久，终于做出这个决定。
可是却有好多关需要通过，才可以展开翅膀。
老天保佑。
我只想轰轰烈烈的干那一次。
理性是时候归队了。

2010-06-07T02:34:00.001+08:00

可能有太多东西一直压抑着没抒发出来吧，竟然在半睡半醒的状态哭了。

流眼泪没几下又继续睡。

是怎样现在？

-.-|||

溪水穿流，风景依旧。

2010-05-27T23:43:00.001+08:00

天空的蓝，反映着心情的灰

那反复的来回和一直的等待

在那瞬间，归零。

独角戏的演员

独白着，笑着，哭着

等待伯乐的赏识。

悬在半空的心

已无法支撑疑惑的重量

渐渐地坠落。

寂寞的心

她不再因为遇见你

跳动，心跳加速。

也许，我不曾忘记

也许，你已经忘了

两者之间并没有平衡点。

眼神流露出的闪烁

嘴角上扬的弧度

随着时间，减淡。

Never ending cycle, it just never end.

2010-04-25T02:02:00.001+08:00

Read this particular post of sweatlee.

As I was reading through the post, I find it like a reflection of myself, in a way.

Haven been feeling too good recently.

Emotion in a very unstable stage, insomnia and panda eyes are my best friends for now.

My mind's now like thousands pieces of puzzle that fall all over the place, waiting for someone to pick them up and arrange them nicely as how it was supposed to look like again.

I show all my emotion on my face, hence, the 'shit face'.

I get offended easily, I lash out my anger to friends and family, I take every sad scene in movies or videos as my excuse to cry. I get upset and suspicious over unrelated things, I'm being too sensitive, and the list goes on and on.

Are all these symptoms for depression?

Part of them, I guess.

Sometimes, I wish I could have bigger nerves, so at least I will be happy go lucky.

Never take things too serious, never remember what promises people had made and broke them, never care too much about others' expectation, never get sad for being taken for granted...

My brain must have divided itself to C drive (for studies where all files will be deleted after reformat) and D drive (for all memories in my life where no files will be delete even after reformat.)

For time like this, I hope I lost all memories and start all over again.

I was pretty upset by fact that I didn't do well in the final one.

Nobody to blame but myself.

At the end of the day, I'm good for nothing.

I don't know what I want.

I don't understand. How can things change just like that?

I ought to know what have I done before being sentence to death.

I wasn't prepare for things to happen this way.

There must be something's wrong, somewhere.

Because, I believe what I saw.

If I'm granted a wish right now,

I hope I will be able to get back to Alor Star in my long hair, with the evening breeze blowing across the wide paddy field, touching my face, under the pretty blue sky, because I know, at least I was smiling sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

And also, because things changed after I cut my luck away...

Yes, imma tell you who I like.

2010-04-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

Ok. I know today is a Wednesday, a super haram Wednesday.
But Cerenna 'tag' me in this Monday meme from Su Ann's blog, so imma do it now since I've got nothing better to do (Okay, actually have to start revision like real soon, but I think Cerenna going to ki siao if I mention about this again wtf.)
Alright, so I'm not too sure whether I should comment in that blog or answer in my own blog.
Hmmm...
I guess, I'll just settle it in my own blog la, since its so dead these days.

***********************************
So yea, the question is:
What sort of person are you quite immediately attracted to?

For the time being...
Appearance - fat uncle with small eyes, goatee and belly, but chest and arms better be a little built up. No need to be that hard and muscular though. (Uncle equals to matured man. Haha. Don't know why but I think small eyes look cute, goatee looks hot, likes the geli feeling when touching it. Belly and chest can become my bed when he hugs from the back, arms can become bolster lol.)
Personality - witty (enjoy listening to jokes and because laughter is the best medicine wakaka.), tidy (amazed with guys who can keep their stuff accordingly and neat), protective but not control freak (able to make me feel secure enough), sensitive (able to know what's going on with me without me telling. For example, when I'm extremely quiet and don't move around much, means I'm having period pain la wtf.)
Others - good and have passion in photography (then can teach me. ^^). Likes the feeling of sweating (Lol. So random, but I like!)

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Actually at the end of the day, its the person who I feel comfortable to talk with that attracted me. Simple as that. So, you can actually scratch the middle part away. =p

1,2,3,木头人。

2010-04-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

雨一直下，滴滴答答，落在屋顶，敲打着思念的音符。
心情酸酸的。

你听到了雨的声音吗？
看电影说，那是思念的声音。

嗯。。。也许吧。。。

雨一直下个不停，遮住了那一道道的泪迹。

2010-04-11T03:22:00.001+08:00

都快一年了，为什么还是找不回你？你到底去了哪里？

快不行了。
这次真的败给了你。
为什么可以说消失就消失？

不要再躲起来了好不好？
因为我真的已经不知道该怎么办了。

很想放弃寻找你。
可是我办不到。

每次想到最后那几个断断续续的画面，就止不住泪。

我不应该在这里说的。
在希望你看到这些话的同时，我却不希望你看到。
我的心情是矛盾的。

可是你都不知道吧？
最懂我的你，不见了。

脸上划过无数次泪的痕迹。
心，念念不忘的，是你的一切。

我，好想念你哦。。。
笨蛋白痴大傻瓜。。。

原来每一次的每一次，还是会希望有你在。

2010-03-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

我还是很想你。。。

虽然说，我们的距离已被莫名的沉默拉远。

我很想念那个熊抱，即使今非昔比。
可以，再要多一次那样的熊抱吗？

那种眼神和笑容，如今只能在梦里遇见。。。

Sit back and relax.

2010-03-21T02:13:00.002+08:00

St. Patrick Day kononnya, and we ended up in TGIF.

My first time being there wtf dam happening Friday can for both us that night.

Really TGIF.

Yummy food and girls talk session and ss camwhore session.

I just love my baby so muchieeee...

Ello there baby, thanks for being a good company. Always.

We shall have our next outing soon. ^^

你问我为何那么难过？

2010-03-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

也许，是时候退出。
也许，一切都是虚幻的想像。
也许，心碎的声音并不仅仅如此。
也许，一旦掉入这漩涡就会无法自拔。

这一段故事，打从一开始，就充满了太多的变数和未知数。
勇敢的厚脸皮，这次还是被打败。
心情，就像傀儡版被拉扯着。
何时，才得以解脱？

过了做梦的年纪，却无法梦醒。

2010-02-24T11:17:00.001+08:00

一直以来，都蛮反对身边的人做这种事情。
但原来，一旦自己身陷其中，还真的是不晓得该如何是好？
是要相信自己的直觉？还是相信爱没错？或是坚持自己设定的原则？

好烦。
生活为什么都围绕着‘抉择’这两个字？
整个人处于很不安的状态，怎么办？
越想就越怕，却还得笑笑装潇洒。

好想回到小时候，无忧无虑的。。。

语无伦次

2010-02-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

深呼吸。冷静。
不行！现在酱亢奋的情况下，要怎么睡得着？
救命啊！
超开心的一天！！！^^

还是一样。

2010-02-09T01:33:00.001+08:00

开心。
在慌乱时，听到了很舒服的那把声音。
语无伦次对上镇定。
慢慢的，慢了下来，以便听得清楚。

旧地重游。
同一个目的，不同格式，不同人物，不同感觉。

那棵树，依然在。
站在树底下，阳光偷偷的从叶缝间洒了些好奇的光。
依然清晰地记得，那棵树下的一切。
很多的第一次，有你的陪伴。
说真的，很想再次见到当时的我们。
那棵树下，有着属于我们的一切一切。
那些我一直很想保留着，最初的一切。

对你的思念，在情绪低落和亢奋的夜晚，总是格外格外的深。
我可不可以贪心的说，我真的真的真的很想你？

If I were to tell a story...

2010-01-21T21:55:00.003+08:00

She can almost see herself waiting in the car anxiously 10 months ago, when she was there a little earlier for the interview.

Stepping in to the very messy office, what welcome her was the news of the office is moving out from the present single-storey house soon, real soon. She knew this is coming, yet, she couldn't help but feel a pinch of sudden sadness attacking her.

Everyone and everything will be out from there in a few days time, leaving behind laughters and memories that belong to this single-storey house. A new environment is awaiting to be fill in with all these laughters and brand new memories again.

So long to the living room.

The chair she sat on when she filled up the particular form. The TV that entertained her when she was having her breakfast. The table where she placed her laptop and watched Flaming Heart. The couch that she slept on during the last overnight session and to those endless TV session with colleagues. Those early mornings when she will wait in the living room with all equipments and luggages. The SorrySorry Moment which painted the living room with colours of laughter. The first time ever everyone was there for the family photo.

So long to the bosses' room.

That very room where she first met the bosses and went through a very casual and fun interview. That very room where she went through different meetings. That very room where the boss reminded her about what to do. That very room where she worked with boss' laptop. That very room where all colleagues gave her a surprise celebration for her 21st birthday. That very room where she had all lessons learnt. That very room where she had the heart-to-heart talk session with the boss on her last day.

So long to the little hall.

The rack with travel magazines for the pre-production research. The place where she cleaned up production box, first aid kit, and folded stinky raincoats.The tiny space where she first practice photography.

So long to the editing room.

The little space between colleague's chair and the wall that she slept while waiting for the boss to decide recce departure time. The 2 boys in the room who never fail to entertain her with their funny acts and jokes. The reason of her enjoying staying back late in the office to the memorable time and experience that she had in the room. That very room where she did her first ever editing work.

So long to the offline editing room.

To the many researches that had been done in this room. To the overnight session just to rush for the merchandisers design. The flat flat tilam that she slept on. The first ever newsletter that she designed. To the many phone calls made to different budget hotels. To the time where she squeezed herself in between colleagues and gossip together just because she has got no seat and has got nothing better to do.

So long to the kitchen.
The priceless expression of the colleagues when they were planning the surprise. Cutting all mooncakes during Mid Autumn Festival. IKO, Julie's, Muchy's, Hup Seng, Super's 3 IN 1 cereal, Nestum Cereal, Milo, Sakae Green Tea.

So long to the toilets.
Peach scent hand wash, washing machine, yellow sink, mirrors, Alpha water heater. The floor-scrubbing and shoes-washing time.

So long to the pavement.
The time where prayer was held for the first shooting. The black 4WD that she used to drive and the climbing up and down at the back of the 4WD when she load and unload luggages. To the 4 in 1 gathering party and photography session.

And so she walks to her car and starts the engine. She stares at the 'To Let' board hanging on the black metal gate, for the one last time. She never know that she would feel as heavy-hearted when it is time to bid farewell to this single-storey house. "Good bye, memoryland" she whispers.

A brand new journey is about to starts and she knows she has all memorable footprints printed in her mind, just the way it used to be...

When you have your heart broken, you should cry all the evil aura out of your body, mind and soul.

2010-01-21T00:41:00.002+08:00

I lose count with the amount of time that I find myself tearing in the past 24 hours.
Was it 5 or 6 or 7?
My eyes must be stocked up with Eyemo already.
You know you are really sad when steaming hot tears just stream down your cheeks within seconds.
It wasn't all emo tears. There were mixture of laughters and touching one in between.

Now, tell me if you understand what am I crapping here?
Cause I don't understand at all what am I trying to say here except for the fact that ALICE IS IN THE CONDITION OF BEING VERY VERY EMOTIONAL UNSTABLE RIGHT NOW.
I need some cheering up, like seriously.

*P/S: It hurts alot and I won't be able to pick up the broken pieces anytime soon. Just don't step on it, cause they are broken enough.

Fall like an elephant, hit the ground, and bounce back like a spring...

2010-01-19T22:29:00.001+08:00

Right, so I'm feeling like shit again, literally.
Aiyer, this is so no no good wtf.
Imma get a dose of the happiness from theme song of WooHoo, 大日子 first, before I hunt for another WooHoo movie outing.
Super good CNY film from Malaysia, now, who say Malaysian film tak boleh?
Faster go support WooHoo!!!

Super addictive theme song.

The film and the song make me so in the CNY mood dy.
Actually the truth is I can't wait to wear all my new clothes and shoes wtf.

Anyway, I just want to crap before I head back to the editing.
Should be able to upload the video by tomorrow night or if I suddenly become super geng then tonight gau dim and upload.
Stay tune wtf (not like anyone reading or interested pun, tapi hor mua suka syok sendiri. Nyehehheh! =p)

Toodles.

摩哆的日子 - 近近的二人行Promo Recce

2010-01-15T13:54:00.003+08:00

26/06/09
WooHoo!!我的另个排档，大车车终于驾到啦！！
Mitshubishi Storm san, hajimemashite, watashiwa Arisu. Dozou yoroshiku onegai shimasu. ^^
Mitshubishi Storm先生，初次见面，我是爱丽诗。请多多指教。^^
(唯一一句还能记得的日语。Hehe!)
家庆老板把大车车开回公司，就忙着交待钲和我关于大车车的一切，还对我们说得趁大车车还没出差被刮花花前，赶快把它的帅帅样拍下来。
当然，除了拍照，我也趁机跳上车看看我的脚是否够长踏到油门和brake.哈哈！
而且，大家还帮大车车取了另个名字叫Transforemer车，因为开关alarm时会发出有点像机械人的声音。=p

下午，办完了手头上的一些事物，还到了邮政局更新了驾照，才和钲一起去寻找又有高楼大厦又有草地的地方。我们想到的地方有SS17对面、USJ11大草场附近、Putra Heights的高压电缆、Taman Jaya公园和Amcorp Mall.
钲开着大车车首先来到了SS17的住宅区。停下大车车，钲便开始东拍拍、西拍拍的，好让老板们过目。待拍完了应该拍的东西，钲就教我一些shutter speed上的运用。

SS17住宅区对面的建筑物。

钲在示范一些shutter speed的效果。

好啦，上完课后钲把车开进住宅区里的个草场，从另个角度拍下背景。附近有间家的狗狗猛对着我们吠，钲就把它给拍下来。Hehe!

钲拍的大车车‘写真’比我的每很多，所以就放他在recce时拍的正、左、右。

接着来到USJ11的大草场，钲下车拍了几张照，我则在车上左看看，右看看，研究研究Storm san.

好久没到这个草场了。

钲继续把大车车开到了Putra Heights，带我到了他以前住的住宅区，再从那里附近的草场拍了几张高压电缆的远照。然后再到了高压电缆附近再拍些不同的角度,钲就把车钥匙给了我说让我开练习开大车车，我是紧张到。。。

不同角度的高压电缆区，感觉都不一样！

红砖块变成了foreground.

低角度的青草们好像都长高了。

高压电缆区一带的风景。

在Putra Heights走走看看了一会儿，把大车车开到了Putra Heights的Giant,我们就去买了饮料和给大车车的一个辅助后镜。从Giant出来，光把大车车退出来就花了些时间，幸亏Storm san是自动档，再加上有钲帮我看周围的车，不让我就byeeee...

看吧！紧张到被偷拍了都不知道。根本就没听到任何声音！

‘重头戏’来了，我们要在放工的黄金时段经过Federal Highway到Taman Jaya那里。我当然是有点战战兢兢啦。。。
第一次开这么大辆的四轮驱动，还要在这么塞车的时段，人又这么矮，看不很清楚后方，虽然说有那块辅助后镜，但还是缺乏了那安全感。钲看我开车开到酱子，不时对我说到：“你现在开的是大大辆的四轮驱动，有谁要欺负你，就不管他，把他的车给撞扁，反正我们的车四周都是铁，看到时他哭还是我们笑!”
哈哈！不过总算安全到达目的地，继续在他拍照时，问这问那，继续偷师。Hehe!

超喜欢这张，还有小鸟飞过！=D

景色上的对比。

天色已暗啦。。。是时候回家啦。。。

***********

很多时候，缺乏的就是那踏出第一步的勇气。很多东西，需要的是积极争取的动力。时间并不会因为我们一时的胆怯或错过，而停下来等我们。勇敢过，努力过，争取过，生活才不会白过！！

Give me your hand! 1,2,3! Up!

2010-01-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

I hope...
It was just me thinking too much.
And yet, I couldn't help but being very worried.
I saw the emo update.
I saw the different layout over there.
Or maybe all these were just both your style?
I can feel the sudden numb-ness creeping through my brain cells as I'm typing this.

I don't know what should I feel right at this moment?
Everything in the brain is in the status of all tangled-up.
And in this lonely night, I wish I could make things clear and as easy as 1,2,3.

There's something I need to release from my eyes.
Tears...
I wish oh how I wish.

L.O.V.E is in the air.

2010-01-09T21:27:00.004+08:00

Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!

An English post!!!

Okay, I couldn't sleep after that dose of romantic-ness yesternight fml.
No, that romantic incident does not happen to me, but still I was all excited seeing such sweet person doing such sweet thing.
Apparently there's still someone who's so romantic and who still says 'I love you forever'.
Very 'lum' can?

Aiyerrr... Enough said of this romantic thingy, I'm still all excited even though it has got nothing to do with me. *pathetic sial*
*************

Ohh, since recently I received complaint from someone saying that she can't read Chinese and so here is the English post and now let's shift the focus to this person, Cerenna Manickam. Hohoho!
*And also cause you wrote that sweet post, so I'm going to try writing a sweeter one for you kay!! ^^

Cerenna Cerenna Cerenna...
*Brb. Let me refresh my memories on this girl first....
*Bounce finger on F5 key to refresh. =p

Okay back. So here it is. A long list of random facts that I remember bout her since Year 1 Semester 1 until this semester break of Year 3 Semester 2. When I said long, it means errr... kinda long okay. So, stay back and read this long list patiently! Hehe!

1) One of the most random friends, who will say 'so cute la you' to me suddenly in the middle of our MSN conversation.
2) First know you as the new girl who change course to Broadcasting from Psychology during Y1S1 and don't think we have conversation which lasted more than 5 sentences that time. LOL
3) Errr... So your name is Cerrena or Cerenna when I was trying to save your contact number in my handphone.
4) Impressed by your sad tone during a practice for Radio Broadcasting. You sound like you were going to cry that time. Found out you understand and can speak Mandarin too at that time, and secretly thank God cause I never talk bad about you in front of you with Mandarin before. (I never talk bad about you anyway bwek =p)
5) Somehow ended up had lunch with you one day of Y2S3 and talked about almost everything.
6) Will surely order ice kosong when we have lunch in mamak. Ish ish ish.
7) Found out you stay in SS18 when I sent you back one time. Not many people staying in Subang, some more you said I can always call you when I want to talk. I never tell you but I was really really happy when you said that.
8) We always discuss about differences of Chinese educated and English educated and never get sick repeating the facts. Haha.
9) On the first time you tumpang my car after movie, my cute little Kelisa decided to get 'fever' that time. You ended up stuck at petrol station with me to cool down CLK and had to ask Eugene to pick you up. FYL
10) The girl who will tell me "Alice, you very brave lo... If me means sure gelabah wan...", when we talk about cars and driving experiences. You make me feel damn macho like that. Bwek.
11) My jaw dropped when you told me about the money you spent on your hair last time. All those professional shampoo, conditioner, treatment, going saloon to blow hair and etc.
12) The word WTF became our chat 'icon'. ==
13) The many discussions we had during Film Analysis tutorial. *Confusing la the story structure of Momento. Eh, what happened after that scene ah? Omg, Reservoir Dog damn boring... etc.
14) We tears when watching the proposal video of Mike and Xiaxue.
15) From Xiaxue's love story to advertorials to cosmetic lens and to SuetLi. Gosh, we really blog hop a lot!!
16) Not many girl friends I know like guys with goatee like how I do, but you are one of them. =)
17) All those nights when we stayed up late checking assignments, burning midnight oils, crapping in msn, me fell off from chair cause too sleepy and the 'pasar malam' incident. (Well, you know what I'm talking right? *winks)
18) Ran up and down like 'siao zha bor' in PC, just cause we were too smart until never bring money when rushing for photostating in Jaya One.
19) Make me feel all warm and touched by text-ing me during Christmas after the MSN conversation when I was feeling really down and emo. God knows why was I like that that time.
20) Make me feel less loser when you replied me and said we together not chio during New Year's Eve. ^^
21) Hey! You have that internship big wide smile too. =D
22) We both have that dead fish look and think that our life become so not happening when class started after internship.
23) Workaholic spirit GO GO FIGHTING!
24) Always the one who I go to when I find out any romantic stories happening around, like yesternight. Die die also want to show you even though I was about to sleep and you were painting nails that time wtf.
25) Need motivation to 'pan leng'. No motivation = Haiya, lazy laaa... What for waste time and mask, stay at home only maaaa...
26) Has got this 3-days shopping rules when you cannot make up your mind whether to get stuff you like, just cause you're short of cash at that time.
27) The sudden unknown heart beating fast feeling that we shared wtf sounds so lesbo eeyerrr...
28) I really enjoyed your persuasive speech presentation back in Y2S2. It was about E-business in eBay is as easy as 1,2,3. I think. Sorry, short-term memory. Huhu ^^
29) Insomnia is attacking you these days and your biological clock become really upside down dy lo.
30) You always take care of me when I'm the one who supposed to take care of you. For I am the local and I'm 4 months older than you! Lol.

Okay, so I'm going to be a copycat now and type my last few thoughts like your style.

...efil ym ni stnirptoof elbaromem tfel dna pihsdneirf ruoy em gnireffo rof uoy knaht i ,yltsal .erutuf eht ni lrig lufsseccus yrev a eb lliw uoy taht uoy ni htiaf evah i .eheh .won reverof drow eht htiw dessesbo yrev mI ,yrros* (reverof dneirf tseb) ffb eb lliw ew epoH .tcaf ni dneirf ytilauq hgih yrev a ,ytilauq fo yrogetac eht rednu llaf erus rof uoy .ytitnauq ton dna ytilauq tuoba syawla si sdneirf

Good complexion checked.

Good hair day checked.

Pretty smile checked.

Last-minute-bought formal top checked.

Teehee =)

摩哆的日子 - 三人行的recce之旅 (二)

2010-01-08T00:09:00.001+08:00

20/06/09

在Senawang的一家咖啡室用过早餐，又是开始recce的时候。

先到了一个叫Serendah的地方。这里有个非常隐秘的休闲好地方叫Sekeping Serendah,坐落在原著民村里头。刚开始听名字，只觉得还好，并不觉得有什么特别的，可是到了里面就觉得真的还蛮世外桃源的。一个很幽静，很适合放松的地方。我和广由两人一直在说下次有机会自己约一帮朋友来。

位于森林里的开放式度假屋。

很美的泳池。

一直走啊走，到了Rasa.在这里遇到一个很热心的Uncle，带我们逛了逛着小小镇。这里有座雷皇爷庙说是求字很准的。哈哈！Uncle还给了我们字叫我们去买。对了，我们也在这里享用了超便宜午餐，也同样的被家庆老板酸了一下下。==

下午，我们去了Kuala Kubu Bharu与当地的一位Motorcross达人碰面。看到不同种类大小的摩哆，而且拍照时还被其中一辆重型的摩哆压到。因为啊，摩哆的tongkat没放好，所以当我拍到一半时，整辆摩哆就往我这里压。我当时的反应就是把相机举高高，以免被摩哆压到。然后，就愣了一下下，摩哆手把勾着我的衣服，所以根本动不了。家庆老板和摩哆店老板看到后就冲过来帮我把摩哆扶起，我的肩膀和胸部就一大片红红的。（胸部都已经够扁了，还要被这样重的摩哆压下去。真是有够衰。。。）

就是这辆摩哆了！*痛！

不过，其实它还蛮帅的。Hehe =)

摩哆店老板来带我们去看了些他们时常练摩哆的地方。我生平第一次穿拖鞋爬山，生怕跌不死我。没办法，人一旦懒惰，就管不了那么多。加上看见家庆老板也是以拖鞋上陈，更让我有了不换鞋的理由。嘻嘻！

再赶路到了Bidor，番石榴之乡。左探右问下，问到了一位番石榴园主的联络号码，便直接铲到那里。好不容易找到了地方，可是当地人好像并不是很欢迎我们咧。和我们会合的Uncle跟我们说客家话，虽然说我们3人都会听，但要我们会话就难了。当他问我们为什么天黑了还铲过来，我竟然脱口而出说不知道。真是出糗到家！算了，反正最后他就带我们到了一间像杂货店又像咖啡店的店，叫我们自己去问其他的园主。

同样的，大家都推来推去，或干脆不理我们的问题。店老板娘切了一盘番石榴让我们试，我们毫不客气吃个精光。真的真的太甜了啦！根本不需削皮放酸梅粉什么的！再继续套了些话，开始有些Uncle回答我们了，当然也没问得太久，我们就识相的跑人了。

这晚，我们到Tapah过了一夜。

一整天下来其实并没有很顺利，就只好鼓励着彼此，隔天一定会更好！

21/06/09

这一天，女人病找上了我，早上在厕所陷入半晕，冷汗狂飙。家庆老板和广由为此还差点要撞开厕所门，因为我在里面呆得太久没动静。所以到了Bidor，看了我这病猫样，他们两人决定让我在车上休息，而他们则会等于原著民会面问关于进森林採petai的资料。

Bidor的早晨，忙碌的大家。

家庆老板等原著民时拍的。很有feel.

卖petai的原著民uncle.

因为是星期日，当天原本说要到的鸟类动物保护区没开，偶然间我们来到了另一个原著民村庄。打听之下，原来当地村民养了一些动物，不过这些动物是不能亮相的，所以还是没办法了。

告别了那些动物，来到了广福岩。听说这里有个老伯靠着自己的双手开辟了山洞，把庙矿大。洞里还有天然水晶，但是灯光有点暗，照片无法显示出那亮亮的水晶。>< 然后，刚巧碰见庙里每星期一次的放生活动。所以，我们仨也参与了这次的放生活动，而且是在我鸡手鸭脚的情况下完成。==

广福岩庙口。

庙的入口有美美的莲花。

蜜蜂正勤劳的採蜜。

飞到西，飞到东。

以上四张照片都是家庆老板在等待时拍的。

洞里面的岩石。

终于来到了万里望，一直以为这里是花生出产地，问问之下，原来根本就不是。就只是以前有间很出名的花生厂在这里，不过最后好像都搬走了。万里望走下去，有一个印度镇，到处都是印度同胞的传统建筑物食物什么的。找到了一家当地很有名卖kacang putih的印度人家，踏入他们的店看到满店的kuih和kacang putih,我根本就无法控制自己，拼命吞口水。

这个白色的kuih不懂什么来头，好像很好吃酱。

还有这个颜色也很吸引人。

*流口水

拜访了林德荣舅舅后，再去看了看三宝洞前的柚子档。这里柚子档真的是多到。。。每家店还有柚子西施，但是她们都不能招客人，只能站在各自的店，让客人自己选择。

整排的柚子店，看到都开心。

怡保的酒店也是贵到，问了很多间都超出预算。绕到最后，还是找到了一间三个人勉强能挤一挤的。可是，当晚我们就在酒店ktv震耳欲聋的音乐声中，进入梦乡。累到屁酱，哪里还有闲情管得了这么多。

22/06/09

怡保的路牌根本搞不懂！

一大清早，就在怡保团团转，转不出这个城市。==

问了人家，也还是搞不懂他在讲什么？就大家乱闯乱闯的，好不容易终于转出这个地方！哈哈！到了Gunung Lang，话说这里像中国的昆仑。不过这里的管理好像没做得很好，我们根本没机会见识到那里是不是像昆仑。没办法了。

这样看它，是蛮美的。

Gunung Lang附近也有庙。还养了几只火鸡！

去找马来貘的保育所的路途还真的是崎岖到。。。当时又碰巧是烈日高高挂的时候，家庆老板开着他的手挡Myvi奔驰在那直直的小路。路两旁也只有一些树树草草，我坐在后座被晒到头昏昏，不平坦的路把我抛得猛撞头。然后因为在电话那头指路的abang太厉害了，把我们指得团团转，整整超越了路口半个小时多。-.-” 在那小路飞来飞去，终于还是和马来貘保育所的abang会合了。

一直听说关于马来貘是马来西亚的保护级动物，也听说了一些关于马来貘的传说，现在终于可以看到了！

难怪传说说到马来貘能帮小孩驱梦。=p

短短的毛发。

家庆老板一直在逗着马来貘。

广由有点怕怕。哈哈！

相机拍挡出事了，一直无法正常拍照。回到公司，整理照片，便把相机交给老板准备去修修。

怎么说呢？原来能够做着自己爱做的事情，是很快乐的。也透过了这次的旅程发现了原来还真的是透过无数次的练习改进，才会有进步。那种感觉真是爽！=)

时间的对话，时间的进化

2010-01-07T02:28:00.000+08:00

"会再爱吗?"
"会，还是会爱！一次比一次更爱!"
"不怕寂寞吗?"
"不会，因为有好朋友在!"
"如何办到?"
"不晓得也，从来没想过这个问题!"
"你肯定你不会后悔?"
"肯定不会啦!因为我从不让自己在这种事情上有任何一丝的后悔!"

人是会长大的。
时间，它嘀嗒嘀嗒地溜走，带走过去，走着现在，走向未来。
唯一的是，此刻心还系在那次的心动。

胡思乱想，怪梦连连

2010-01-03T02:13:00.000+08:00

就这样吧！
就这样沦陷下去！
失眠的恶魔，
这本来就是你最终的目的，
不必畏惧你所带来的伤害，
就请你认真地把工作做好。

何时开始？
与辗转难眠的日子为伍？
无梦的夜晚，
竟成了等待的时候。
可悲啊。。。

摩哆的日子 - 三人行的recce之旅 (一)

2010-01-01T01:00:00.001+08:00

三人行的recce之旅，开始咯！

17/06/09

不晓得那手挡Myvi一路上死火了多少次，在路口时，在给过路费时，在交通灯前。每每在停车后再次启动引擎就，家庆老板就会从后座倾向前说道：“Alice,慢慢来呀，不要紧张。来，放轻松，踏clutch,踩油，再慢慢放掉clutch.”哈哈！也不晓得他和广由的心跳随着车子死火停止了多少次。

第一次用DSLR，Focus被调去manual却完全不知。==

白痴的拍了好几张blur shot.

这一天有经过家乡，加上是绕kampung路回，所以就有经过这个Semenyir大水坝啦。听说雪州的水源是由这个水坝来的。很美咧！时不时还可以看到有人到这里钓鱼哦！

Semenyir水坝，绿意盎然。

经过Semenyir水坝后的不远处，可以看见原著民的水果摊。

山榴莲。*slurp*

同样是‘先味夺人’的cempedak.

猴子：“喂，拍照要给钱的咧！”

爱丽诗等待家庆老板拍照中。

Kg. Chennah里天真无邪的原著民小孩们。

以往常常经过的藤厂。

午餐，到了从小吃到大的路边摊买了RM8的三人份超饱午餐，有炒面炒米粉椰浆饭炒饭糕点。哈哈哈！很多对不对？然后，提着大袋小袋的到外公外婆家那里吃。

太多选择了，我走来走去，想着要吃些什么呢？*嗯

打包好，准备付钱咯！！！

午餐后就需要赶路到Kuala Pilah。一路上经过的地方，都是自己自小就有听说过却没到过的地方。哈哈！这次统统给我看看那些地方！

一户马来人家让我们试了试这个，好像是还没提炼的蜂蜜。

只知道，晚上到Kuala Pilah时，已经是腰酸背痛了。要命的手挡车啊！

从旅馆的窗口望出去，看到了很美的，傍晚的色彩。

夜市晚餐。

18/06/09

吃了早餐，碰上非常热心的水鱼面档老板，开车带我们绕Kuala Pilah, 并告诉我们了我们一些关于Kuala Pilah的历史。

这房子好像说有上200多年的历史了。造屋的材料还是从中国运过来的。

中午时分，到了Bahau和广由的亲戚会合后，就开车到一个很里面的橡胶园，中途经过了一些有棕园，为的就是要去看看养牛场。经常在电视上看到的养牛场都是那种很大的一片青草地，然后有很多很多的牛，可是又好像很有规模，就不知道马来西亚的养牛场回事怎么一个样？

牛奶摩哆车。

刚出生一天的小牛们。

爱抢镜头的小牛。

看到的牛场跟外国的牛场真的有差很远啦。。。

Bahau后就向芙蓉出发，中途在Mantin的一个蔬果路边摊等了下来。都是被那一串串的丑豆所吸引了。。。

臭豆树。根本看不出来那些吊着的就是臭豆。

我看到了很多我最爱的臭豆！* 流口水

生和熟了的asam gelugor.

找地方落脚仿佛成了一个很艰难的任务。就啊，芙蓉市区原来都很难找到RM100以下的旅馆。忘了我在芙蓉市区绕了多少次的圈圈，加上对这里的道路不熟悉走错路，最后还算找到个落脚的地方。

置放行李后，家庆老板说我可以收工了，换他开车。哈哈！真好！

寻找吃晚餐的地方也费不少时间，还差点迷路。== 干脆在其中一个看起来好像夜市的地方解决，东西没很好吃，又很贵！最后，家庆广由硬要我到7-11买面包哽，怕我会因为太饿而昏倒喔。=p

19/06/09

早餐破了我们最之前便宜的RM8午餐，被家庆老板笑说芙蓉也可以找到很便宜的食物。-.-”

半路溜进了小小的马来新村，找到了家里有种asam gelugor的mak cik.

棉花的前身。

这位mak cik都吃自己种和饲养的东西！鱼、鸡、蔬菜、水果等。。。

很可爱的一位小男孩。一手拿着校鞋，一手拿着大榴莲，躲着镜头。

很讨厌的是，不晓得是自己精神上压力还是什么的，肚子一直都很不舒服。

啊不过这一天都一直在赶路，而且因为是家庆老板开车，所以开的速度比我开时明显的快很多，也，安全很多。==

我们赶在鸵鸟园关门前，到那里跑了一趟就回到了公司。算是回家休息一晚，再继续往怡保路线前进。

鸵鸟啊鸵鸟，希望你们会停止互啄对方的羽毛。

正在玩追逐游戏的兔子。

苦口良药，忠言逆耳。好像一直以来都是这样。尝试以学习的态度看待听取每一次的金玉良言。反正，人，每天都在吸收新的知识，放开点，不要以相同的角度观念看待，得到的肯定比想象中多。

摩哆的日子 - 初次认识，多多指教

2009-12-26T21:13:00.002+08:00

在还没进奇想实习时，就知道摩哆嬉客这个节目。但，对于这节目的认知，就限于豆腐卜和Danny Boy和主持人开着摩哆绕马来西亚。至于其他的事情，还是后来跟了此节目才明白。原来摩哆的资料搜集和拍摄并没有很简单，简直能让人崩溃。==　
不过，真的在跟摩哆这段日子，到了很多地方，遇见不同的人，学了好多好多，获益良多。^^

19/05/2009

第二天实习，炳丰老板就告诉我们说，要开始摩哆的资料搜集。首先看了不同主持人的摩哆，然后还要提出两者的差异和如何让新一季的节目更有看头。差异嘛，还能说上些东西。至于让节目更有看头，我们好像还是缺乏那一点什么的。><
经一番讨论与分配，我将负责8集的内容，地点是森美兰和柔佛州大大小小的地方，找出一些有趣、特别、古怪的点。

忙着记录路线。

03/06/2009

早上到了公司，在那快被翻破的网页上挣扎了一下下，就对着电脑发呆。炳丰老板突然冲进offline editing room对我说："Alice,十分钟后跟我去和卓卉勤开会！”

当下的我愣了一下下，心跳马上加速，大约整理那对乱到不行的资料，便在同事们的玩笑声和炳丰老板的催促下，带着忐忑不安的心情前往传说中的Astro.

不过还好，我只是负责告诉Vivian一些相关资料，顿时松了口气。

04/06/2009

第一次与钲和Stephy在公司过夜，为了赶摩哆的周边产品设计。
设计sense加上Illustrator skill没有很好的我，幸亏有钲的帮忙和Stephy给予的一些Idea，才终于在早上6点完成设计。

感激不尽！

4.23am,还在赶。。。

11/06/2009

被告知有机会跟随摩哆的recce和拍摄。然后，除了继续一些资料搜集，制作助理在recce和拍摄的工作是当司机、记事本和摄影师。

可是，接下来就遇到了难题，那就是recce时开家庆老板的手挡Myvi。@@
距离手挡已有4年之久的我，还蛮担心会应付不来。

至于摄影，拍出来的照片不能随随便便或死板板，要有艺术或漫画性，因为照片会出现在摩哆里，或是分配给媒体们。

很好，接二连三的新挑战！

12/06/2009

我的recce和拍摄‘排档’之一 : Canon EOS 1000D大驾光临奇想影视。

15/06/2009

一整天都在忙着摩哆宣传片的开会、想点子、开会。

没有经验的我们，天花乱坠的说了一大堆，结果当然是没有一个Idea能用啦！况且，有些concept已经在上一季的宣传片玩过了。

开完宣传片会议，便和家庆广由谈谈隔天的recce路程,因为第一次recce会经过我的家乡，所以家庆老板要我安排那一带的路线。

接下来整夜都没睡好，因为太紧张了。

Bumming around

2009-12-11T22:17:00.000+08:00

我不会说谎。
真的很想当个懒人，想那烂人。
哇，不错！
有押韵到。。。
我真的是超级无敌有够力的懒，到现在还是不肯K书。
推动力，来了一下下，就消失得无影无踪。=="

I really miss that person who used to sit next to me.
Like where are you now?
What you doing now?
Are you thinking bout me who used to sit next to you too?
Bah...
Back to studies please brainnie.

还是会想念你的，朋友~！^^

没有方向，迷失宇宙。

2009-12-06T00:49:00.001+08:00

心虚了。
那根本不是事实。
只是想为了掩饰而乱掰出来的假象。

看见了某些情景。
想起了某个人。
回忆起某种感觉。

没有规划的。
顺其自然。
那是爱情。

暧昧的界限。
超越了就成为尴尬。
无法继续。

很想逆转时间。
停住时间。
活在影子下。

呆滞的眼神。
定格住画面。
忍住眼泪。

忘了曾经有过。
单纯和淡淡的。
不为人知的爱火花。

钢琴的旋律。
悲伤的背景音乐。
心痛的感觉。

爱与不爱。
抉择的痛。
只留给自己。

Time to sleep.

2009-11-20T03:13:00.003+08:00

I think. I need to save up some money to get that watch.

Found 2 nice watches today when go for watch shopping with Stephy.

One from Fossil. One from Delvina.

Fossil's too expensive. T__T

Delvina's is like 1.5 times cheaper than Fossil, but I damn suka the design also.

Oh My My!

No income these days, how la how la.

Hopefully the watch is still in the budget corner when I get enough cash. ><

*********

And I can't wait for Boy to cut his hair.

Hohoho.

Remember what you told me ah!!!

The next time I see you means short and nice. ^^

Am missing you guys here!

开心时，发自内心的笑

2009-11-16T17:47:00.007+08:00

看着实习期时拍的一些照片，才发现，自己好像忘了怎样发自内心的微笑。

而最近，即使碰到多难过的事情，好像都不怎么能哭得出来，都将情绪往心里面塞。

那一份忧郁感，又再次像洪水般掩盖了我的理智。

心，好像渐渐的麻木，失去感觉。

因为开学而无法继续参与摩哆拍摄，心里有说不上的觉得空虚。

这份空虚感一直到现在都还在。

开学5星期，一点加油努力的动力都没有。

看着一堆堆的报告，和一天天逼近的deadline,心里还是有些什么没放得下来，而忽视了身为学生的责任。

整个人最近都过得颓废，沮丧，漫无目的的过着日子。

我要的是什么？

这句话，重复问了自己第N次。

答案仍然不明。

或许，自己根本不想去知道。

冷冷的风，打在自己的脸上，闭上了眼睛，不想再去想些什么，似乎又想逃避。

老爸走过来，摸摸我的头然后轻轻的亲了一下。

一股暖流，穿过身上的每一条神经。

我还在忧郁什么？

其实，很明白自己什么都不缺。

只是，在成长的过程中，我仿佛迷失了自己，一直盲目地追求着不知所谓的欲望。

快乐，其实真的很简单。

一个动作，一句话，一个人。

满满的，幸福。

Years later

2009-11-14T15:07:00.005+08:00

The best thing out of the busy and stressful week was to get up early in the Saturday morning, go for badminton session with the Form 6 gang and sweat like pig.

Its been long since the last time we had so much fun together.

Back to Form 6, we used to go for badminton session like every week. Sometimes, twice in a week.

Man, those were the days we were all energetic and semangat badminton, and STPM can go to bla cause we were cool students like that. Lol.

One thing that never change through all these years, is that I still get blue black and scratches here and there on my knee whenever we play badminton. -.-

I don't know why I always squat or kneel or even lie on the floor whenever I can't hit the shuttle, but then that's me, the clumsy Alice, I guess.

The rest were laughing and jokingly said maybe we could ask for discount for the court as I clean the floor for them. (Right, good try, guys. ==)

And to save money, we usually pay for one hour and play till they off the light.

Then, we will sort of borrow the light source from the next court to continue our game.

As for our last game today, we shifted like 4 times in a game.

Running here and there across those courts.

The management must be cursing us seeing us like that. Haha.

After badminton session, was the mamak session.

Bump into Wen Dee, the primary classmate, still the same pretty girlish girl.

While me being the very 'chor lo' girl (boyish girl?) looking very messy after badminton session. *shy

Hair and clothes damn messy boo when can I be as girlish and gentle? Haha.

Updated each other bout ourselves and the other friends.

Seems like everyone is doing quite good. =)

Alright, enough crapz....

Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you the good old days!

And we were all so young. *big wet eyes*

缘分，真的很奇妙

2009-11-13T23:57:00.004+08:00

炳丰老板、Stephy,

祝你们生日快乐！

‘牛一’的你们，应该放假一天，暂时抛开工作功课，好好狂欢！

哈哈！

一年一次嘛！

愿你们快快乐乐的！

让欢乐延续下去！

2009-11-13T20:54:00.004+08:00

黑色星期五，可是心情却异常轻松自在。

整个人很自在。

虽然说，有很多东西要做啦。。。

而且，今天还是好姐妹莹的生日。

“莹，我们可以多拍些照吗？这已是两年半前的照片了啦。。。” ==

“还有啊，我们都没那么圆了。哈哈!"

肉麻的话我们私底下说好了。

我在这里等着你回来哦！

加油吧！

半清醒

2009-11-10T20:18:00.002+08:00

好像病了。

不，应该说，真的病了。

一整天喉咙疼、头疼、全身发热。

头疼又不是说普通那种头疼。

就是那种走路或工作到一半，脑袋就会传来一陈陈被针刺进神经线的痛。

脸部会马上抽搐一下，按着脑袋瓜个10秒。

大约每20至30分钟，重复以上动作。

这种感觉，很难过。

然后又觉得有点冷，等下要穿青色猴子外套了。

陪我走过山洪的它。

超级无敌想要。。。撒娇。 =.=

人啊，往往在病倒时就会变得格外脆弱。

你现在轻轻用手指点我一下下，我立刻马上倒下给你看。

以后绝对不能随便说：“我很久没有生病了！”

dot dot dot

以不同的角度，写同一篇故事

2009-11-08T22:49:00.003+08:00

很开心！

因为终于打破了纪录！

漂亮的开始，还算不错的结束。

好久没有这样发自内心的傻笑了。

这真的是一份很宝贝的礼物。

总是爱钻牛角尖。

明知不可能的事，明知会伤害到自己的事，却爱往那里钻。

然后就会很伤心的哭，或忧郁很久很久，或打锣找新加坡那两位好姐妹，向她们诉个天南地北。

可是，往往如果不放胆尝试，就不知道结果啊！

所以，不管啦。。。

我就是不想要后悔！

虽然快乐，有时只是短暂的昙花一现，但毕竟曾经拥有。

我和蔡蔡，有着这么一个理论。

虽说活在当下，享受当下，却偏爱活在过去。

因为，我们可以选择性的活在过去的快乐记忆，却不能避免当下遇到的挫折。

听起来，是不切实际的，但这些都是我一直以来的原动力。

偶尔回味一下下，就足以驱走头上那片乌云。

好久没像那天酱，心跳快到吓人。

我的心好像不属于我的，跳得很快，不规律的心跳率就像我当时七上八下的心情。

整身热热的，像被一团火围着。

真的有够力紧张。

然后又发现了一件事，解开了我心里一直以来的谜团。

应该没错吧？！

不懂请别装懂

2009-11-05T20:12:00.002+08:00

当自由被剥夺

剩下的只有麻木的灵魂

不断地坠落

无法随心所欲的

就搁在一边

让时间的风

把它吹入梦乡

待与周公相遇时

再一一述说

好想

2009-11-01T23:02:00.003+08:00

总是很开心，如果能梦到想见而无法见面的人。

但，梦醒来后，回到那一片空虚，难免会有多少的难过。

想念，很强烈的霸占思绪，把人带到崩溃边缘。

有些人，不是说想忘记就忘记，想不理就不理。

沿着月光走，看着自己倒影的同时，仿佛看见了另一个倒影，过去的倒影。

开心的笑着，闹着。。。

对不起，我爱妳

2009-10-25T22:42:00.003+08:00

拿起了行李，转身，离开。

这样的结局，她从来不曾想过。

泪水，不争气的在转身的那瞬间滑落。

不许哭，不许哭。她重复的告诉自己。

但，决堤了的眼泪似乎无法停止。

终于还是崩溃了。

他，静静地看着她的离去，没有挽留。

心里的挣扎，是他拼命想平抚的。

绝对不能在此刻心软。他对自己说。

焦虑的眼神望着受伤的背影，消失在街角的转弯处。

秋风轻轻的吹着，很温柔，很舒服。

却与这样的画面形成了隐性的对比。

转过了街角，她放下行李，蹲在街道，像小孩似的开始抽泣起来。

路人投来不解的目光，但没有人停下脚步。

城市的冷淡，让她的悲伤更添一分。

“只要一个拥抱，可以吗？很想在离开前，将属于你的气味记住，将拥抱你的感觉牢牢记在脑里。”

他想起了刚才她的一句话。

眼角不经意露出一丝的忧愁。

他站了起来，往另一个方向走。

背影，在阳光的射照下，显得无奈、寂寞。

轻轻的秋风，依旧吹着这个城市。

咖啡桌上，有一张纸巾被吹落地，再随着风到处寻找内容的知音人。

“对不起，我爱妳。”

一起渡过的日子，记忆宝盒里的宝贝。

2009-10-18T14:57:00.006+08:00

该来的，还是得来。

延长了1.5个月的实习期，最终在星期五那天划上句点。

心里有万分的不舍，而手头上的工作也好像还没搞定，只是想继续的留着。

由于家庆老板星期五一大早就会飞去香港渡假，所以星期三晚上，漏夜赶了4张8页的大卡准备趁他还在公司时，送给DreamTeam Studio.

哪晓得，星期四大家都很忙，我在公司时，老板们外出，老板们回来，我却外出，一直都没机会把卡交给他们。

最后还是等不及在电话里头叫家庆老板到我的位子，拿出纸袋里的东西来看。

厚！家庆老板还问怎么我酱神秘，听起来好像很‘猥亵’。==

没有好不好，看了你就明白了啦。。。

8点多回到公司，就看见家庆老板急冲冲赶着上车。

我当然是赶快跳下车问他看了那些卡没？

结果原来他也没时间看完，就需赶着离开。

当下有那么一点点的失望，但没办法，只好等他从香港回来后再看吧！

和家庆老板挥别后，便进了公司。

志娟看见我和Alex终于回来了，就说一起吃晚餐，顺道帮我来个小饯行。

手机在此刻响起。是家庆老板。

电话那端，家庆老板问我：“Alice，不好意思，我有事情要赶着走。那些卡是要给我们的，还是会收回去？”

我道：“哈哈！老板，那当然是送给公司的啦！”

“好的，酱我回来再看。真的很谢谢你咧！”

“我记得你曾说过希望我们能一人送一张卡给公司，而且还须附上大头照。”

“是啦！我有骂其他人了，全部都没有公司的心。”

“没关系啦。。。我做了四张，可以帮他们顶一顶。哈哈！”

“真的还是很谢谢你咧！得空记得要回来找我们！”

听着家庆老板一直说着谢谢和一些小吩咐，眼眶积满了泪水，准备随时夺眶而流。

“嗯。。。我一定会的。”

挂断了电话，我拿着纸袋，走到老板的房间,准备将卡收好。

将卡放进纸袋同时，炳丰老板以他少有很低沉的声音说到：“说真的，这是trainee给过我们最好的礼物。从来没有一个trainee送礼物给我们。真的。”

怎么搞得？两位老板都酱emo的，害我真的好想哭了。

*********

星期五那天，炳丰老板空出了一些时间，和我谈了谈。

当中笑话不断，炳丰老板一直说要将我答应他的话都录下来，以免我日后反悔耍赖。

放心，一言既出，驷马难追！

炳丰老板还说了其他的话，才发现，原来我有一丁点的性格和他还蛮相似。

那应该是件好事吧？哈哈！

**********

实习的五个月，有着幸福满满的回忆，在心里占据了一部分，抹不去。

同事们快乐共处，互相扶持，那感觉好好！

大大小小一起渡过的日子，都很开心。

爱丽诗的21岁生日,原本再平凡不过。

但在老板和同事们的串通下，留下了那一份感动和惊喜。

深深感受到那种被疼爱的感觉。

（发说酱热闹的场面，怎么可以少了他？

所以就把他给加进来。哈哈！）

钲的生日，同样的一招，换我捧蛋糕。

但似乎还是我比较管用老板们开会那套，surprise人真不简单啊！

还是很有成就感，因为大家都喜欢我选的蛋糕。=p

很幸运的获得了摩哆嬉客的‘通行证’。

学到了许多关于摄影的新知识，知道电视制作的程序，

遇见不同的人，了解领悟到某些道理。
当然还有能够和不同的艺人合作，在他们身上也学了不少。

还有我亲爱的摩哆crew，你们都很棒！=）
公司3岁生日之旅，我有份参与！

冷冷的金马仑，留下了我们的足迹和欢笑声。

还有一份很特殊的记忆。。。
茶园、草莓园甚至是市场，都有我们的合照。

还有大家一起从忙碌的工作表偷用过来的时间。
4 in 1 的小聚会。

大家都很忙，很忙了一陈子。

难得聚一聚，大吵特吵是必要的，大合照哪里可以少？

家庆老板还要我们以最丑的pose示人。

我的妈啊！见鬼了！哈哈哈！

爱丽诗会很想念着超级无敌具有意义的实习期。

还有DreamTeam Studio的大家！

一定会经常回来烦你们，反正这么靠近我家。哈哈！

快门与背影

2009-09-23T01:28:00.005+08:00

透过小小的数码相机镜头，爱上某一个背影。按下快门那瞬间，我屏住呼吸。这感觉，好像有点不对，我不应该这样的。但，按耐不住的冲动与如潮水般涌上心头的感觉，掩盖了理智的挣扎。曾经的以前，那个背影让我沉浸在小不点的世界；如今的现在，那个背影让我梦醒在冷酷的现实。

如果快门能锁住时间，我是否能在按下快门时，一并把感觉锁住？

苦的滋味

2009-09-17T01:08:00.003+08:00

一堆的问号

超烂的偷看技巧

远远，远远的

触摸不及

无法解读那密码

解不开那枷锁

脑袋一片空白

只想把时间留住

捉住那一刻

被判死刑的理由

没有明确的答案

无谓的猜测与闪躲

很乱，很乱

那就算了吧！